here in my home

1st February
Happy 2011 first February
=)
enjoy life
*所谓生活  就是  生出来 活下去 *

兴致一来去听郭采洁的歌
对她的印象一直都是爱情公寓的主题曲
昨天电视机播她的烟火  就这样挑起我的兴致
好吧我承认我之前太肤浅了  我一直以为她是假可爱真恶心的那种典型台湾过分包装歌手
但其实我觉得烟火蛮好听的  虽然娃娃音不是她的错  所以受不了娃娃音也不是我的错
前几天看百万大歌星听到丫头唱歌  实在唱得太下不为例了
所以郭采洁的歌  至于我  有一种为娃娃音平反的  惊喜
是少数  听得出是在唱歌的娃娃音

所以  我想要喜欢郭采洁  扣掉那些过分花俏的外层  只剩下她的声音

但我发现一件事  郭采洁的歌  适合用耳机听
也许是我的电脑音响  也许他本来就是这样
我觉得如果没有耳机  她的声音就像散开来一样
戴上耳机  会觉得声音集中很多  也听得出  她的好听

噢噢噢噢噢噢  我的观察力变敏锐了

噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢！！！！！！

是挺不爽的  干
说过了吧  我不喜欢人家临时给我插工作
明天做好   几点几点要完成  他妈的
还有  把工作给了我就给了我  不要有自己偷偷做
做了又要唉声叹气  是怎样
还有  你给我工作  你给我期限  可中间的请让我自己来
我最他妈的讨厌在我做动作到一半你就过来交代东交代西
别拿虾米不是海鲜  我也有自己的时间表的
你自己时间没拍好  凭什么把我也扯进去

这两天又没得出门啦  我真被搞糊涂了
堂弟堂妹来了我为啥就不能出去
他们又不跟我讲话  最多也就问我借我一定不会借的电脑
我只有那么几天可以见一见我的朋友了
现在有更少了 好吧 我承认我有些朋友并不真的想见我
可那不是重点  开工之前我总想要真的给自己一份礼物
毕竟这可是3个月的战争

打战也得有个战前宣读吧  我可不想战死的时候连自己怎么开始战的都不知道
这个新春  没得回外婆家我也认了
每年习惯的东西没有一样有成  难道我小孩般的新年就这么过去了
我还不想开始大人的新年呢！ 太无聊了
我真的很不爽  干  我 他妈的不爽

什么狗屁  人家的新年总是快快乐乐的  我却快哭出来了
明天又要去巴刹  所有东西感觉都被堆到明天了

我不喜欢这种新年  很压力  压得让人透不过气
好多很表面的东西都被放大检视  但却对真正的内容不屑一顾

很多朋友都不喜欢过年  我一个朋友说过
“我都努力的离家很远很远。新年回去的时候可能费用贵了些，但重点在于，我不用大扫除！家里人会扫了给我看。反正我不喜欢。虽然我也真的介意那件家干净吗。一年最多也就干净那几天。而且啊  不用大扫除  那就是我童年最最最最最最最羡慕的终极幸福了！”

算了  我真的不喜欢人家把这你的头  告诉你该做些什么
更不喜欢人家随意打乱我的行程表  很好  我家人就是这样
所以我才知道原来这就是我最抓狂的事
可又如何  如果抓狂  就是轻狂的青少年 吃不了苦
如果不抓狂  就是压抑的青少年   吃得变态苦

我就是   后者

长辈给理由  不是看你想听什么  而是看他想到什么
这就是当长辈可以行使的“恣意妄为权”

等着  等我长大  我把这个乱七八糟的世界 反过来  摇一摇  不然还不醒目了！
树木不修还不直溜了！ 正义不发声 你还真当我是哑巴！！！
当警察法官关二爷都管不了的时候，总有人要维持正义吧！！！

正义，需要高强功夫！

来，改变世界吧！

像个英雄一样  让世界震撼 

 让垃圾萎缩  让正义呼吸！

rise, and shine

everytime i sleep, i'd just close my eyes, do some thinking
and get rid of everything. i just wanna sleep.
something like just sleep, and forget the world.
which is why some mornings, i'll open my eyes and sit by my bed
wondering where am i and what shit have i got myself into.

ever had mornings where you wake up to sunshine
almost close to great until u see your unfinished sorrows
then u lie back in on your bed and cover yourself with the blanket
whispering comforts to yourself and, expect for a savior?

sometimes. we do have that that in us. the unknown depression
the dark side beneath our smiles

rise and shine
=)

good morning? oh, its afternoon already.

咚咚锵

在家老老实实的待着

没有去逛街还真感染不到那新春的气息

新春啊 就剩 红色和敲锣打鼓的歌儿咯

电视机疯狂的播着去年的贺岁片  他们也就这么点儿功夫

我要看去年的贺岁片干嘛嘞  不说展望未来吗  老叫我回顾历史  是嫌我这过去一年苦假的啊

这兔子年啊 报章杂志 就连网路上也都在转载 十二生肖运程啦 十二星座运势什么的

天啊 要说我生肖好 结果星座那儿就出问题了 

而且 我就奇啦   为什么运程非得搞得这么累赘   一大堆的横竖直撇捺   老花眼的都要两幅老花眼镜才看得懂   唉   何必这么玄嘞  常常读了一整篇  都会气得把报纸摔了 把杂志撕了 把电脑关了  

谁让他说的一言难尽  编辑倒是做得挺好的  一整片文章一览无遗  本来以为这下一本万利啦   但肯定是那笔者一不做二不休  这么落落长的却一字千金  到头来还是得买什么水晶来摆在家里一个肯定碍位的方向 看完了不仅感叹又是一场春梦  看得我这些职场新鲜人一筹莫展  唉 一个萝卜一个坑  也就只求那些运程好的一语成谶  坏的一蹶不振  我可是很担心自己的实习情况的啊！！

神啊！ 陈小春结婚去了  有应采儿护着  你还是来救救我吧！

我不求什么  就让我直的走进去   可别让我横的出来啊

我家还有婆婆  双亲  和一个尚在念书的哥哥

我肩上虽然没有养家的担子

可我扛了整个家族的面子

若为面子故

生命

皆。可。抛

photography fever is back in town

ITS ME IN THE PHOTO.(BOTH ME)

*TEEHEE*

oh. yea. right you think its not so much of a big deal

OHH, you no fun.

i really like these photos though. 

including the colours including the 2 me in 1 photo thing including the 2 me looking at each other thing

*TEEHEE*

so the other day i sort of had a talk with people

and out of no where some started to tell stories bout ideal boyfriend.

one said

"you know what, i have always wished for a perfect boyfriend that will cook for me. Not like being the main chef but i wished he will help me out in the kitchen, and sometimes do me a few light cookings. That would be perfect for me!"

another said

"I'm not so much after cooking. The ideal boyfriend i picture would be something like he will help me out around the house. you know, when i'm doing cleaning and stuffs, he shouldnt just SIT and WATCH. its gonna be so sweeeet if he come round and say honey, here, let me help you."

another one said

"perfect boyfriend? erm, i hadnt really think about that, but I would love to have a boyfriend that can fetch me around. something like, i like shooting photos, so he'd just drive round different places and tell me stories of those places. then we will snap photos, and just enjoy."

the other said

"oh so we're gonna talk about boyfriend? erm. my perfect type should be the one who would accompany me around places for foood!!!! like we will hunt for different types of food!!! wow! that's gonna be good."

the other one said

"well, i do not really have specific image on this but i'd want somebody who is matured. and think like how i think."

and then SHE stood up and say,

"deal! LETS GO GET YOUR PERFECT BOYFREN."

all the others were stunned once and, "HUH?"

SHE continued saying,

"oh c'mon, you need a part-time kitchen helper, you need a male maid, you need a tour guide who can drive, and you need a driver that can eat, and you, you need a cloned you.

so whats so hard bout that?? looks fine to me!"

IDEAL isn't reality for a reason.

Some dreams are like stars

they looks shimmering- glitteringly beautiful

until you get closed and get yourself burned.

*don't be hard to those around you

make them smile and they will make you a better life

just love life

and Quietly Fantastic

a joke from hitz.fm:

*DJs talking bout "skyline" being rated the WORST movie

*audience called in and commented that he's seen boyfriend, with his girlfriend crying, left the hall halfway thru the movie shouting BUANG MASA AKU TENGAK WAYANG NI.

so DJ said:

DJ A: "now they got new grade for the movie. grade D! DIVORCE. how cool the movie can make people divorce!!"

DJ B :"OI! bad la you! its B! break-ups la!"

DJ A :"have somebody that you wanna break up with? bring them to this movie!"

"When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful" -- Toy Story 2

and i just got myself new materials to go on with.

OH YEA! I GOT MY NEW TOY!!!! woooohooooo!!!!!

my friends asked me what am i when i'm a mixture of and kids toy fan.

WITHOUT A DOUBT, i say "A MATURE KID"

new toy new toy new toy

SO EXCITED FOR THE TOY!!!

toy

oh. i wish i was andy. so i can have my own toy story.

so i can have lovely toys like woody and buzz light year that would stay for me

maybe i do.

just that i've boxed every childhood toys of mine

either given away, or kept deep down in the darkest corner of memory

and sometimes i wonder if they misses me.

cause i misses the time when i thought they'd one day all come alive and be my true friends.

like how they used to wipe my tears back at those golden old days.

"When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful" 

-- Toy Story 2

I share my darkest secrets, in a non-expressive way.

"If there are 2 people having interest on the same thing, but one is professional and one isn't. Do you know what are the differences between them and their outcomes?"

"errr, the professionals are paid?"

"partly true. but for me, i think its that the professional will have to do things accordingly. whereas the non-pro will just do anything that he feels like doing......like recklessly."

"that sounds not bad being a non-pro eh"

"but if you're a professional, your outcome will automatically be above the non pro. People have expectations and believe in you. If you're a non-pro, you might have only few audiences and, the only thing you care, is yourself." 

"different condition. different reward."

"fair enough."

"so what bout you? are you a pro or a non-pro?"

"I was a non-pro who has now become a pro, which is why I feel the difference drastically. I'm happy with me right now. Been given the chance to concentrate on stuffs I love the most. Some say my life is bored. for my hobby is my job. my spare-time activity is my job. I'm like working 24/7. But i'm okay with it."

"and i guess life isn't gonna be perfect anyway. There will be comments over whatever we're doing."

"yea. and all we have to do is to just love the things we're up to, so in love that we have no time to respond to those comments."

*and once you've chosen, just forget all the others.

-to see the little beautiful things in life, regardless of how fucked up it may get

我始终不曾真的认知到自己长大了

在看20世纪少年 就说了九把刀影响我
一直在倒数着实习的日期  用一种倒数世界末日的无奈
21岁啊 21岁

曾经我执着的觉得 生日是很重大的日子 一定要过得像样
可现在我对去年的生日 只剩下那一天考试的科目
20岁 我吃了一小块蛋糕 就名正言顺的20岁了
过后回想 一直到现在我还是不甘心 我曾经说过 我还要再过
可是昨天有人问我 如果真的买一个蛋糕 那感觉还一样吗
她也一样 过了一个什么都没有的生日 可偏 我们都是执着的人
曾经我们说好每年的生日都一定要过的心满意足 用一种挡我者死的磅薄气势
然后我们很懊恼的聊着自己空空如也的生日
不甘心自己连个像样的生日都没有 勉勉强强的20岁了几个月 突然大家就开始吹嘘起21岁了
年尾仔是挺矛盾的
我试过 当面被一个人说 年尾仔通常比较笨 因为他们头脑发育的时间比其他人短
干 去死

别人问我们今年还要不要像之前誓神劈愿的执着一些小细节
我们说不要了 一次教训还不够吗 当你的期待随着时间每分每秒的变得稀薄
以至于过后一扫而空的 空虚

那就像黑洞  伸手不见五指  宽广无比  完全黑暗 的 黑洞。

21岁 就不再庆祝生日了

有一天，当你发觉你的生日不再是你疯狂的理由，那只能代表，现实已经入侵了你。当你无法完整的把过往的一些惯性期待带到现在，那代表，你正迈着现实的核心走。没什么好不好的。就方向。

然后我们一起想到我们没有好好利用生日的三个愿望。

我们又懊恼了。

唉。

my college

today is good. hanged out. to some place which i dont get to go normally.
and we did talk a lot. about everything.
classmates, schoolmates, internships, craps....
i like today. very much. maybe because waking up early for breakfast is like a key to happy day.
i always feel double good when i wake up early and have great breakfast.
i used to have my cameras stuck on my hand last time.
and this time i had it kept until karyn even asked me where's my camera.
not that keen on taking photos anymore.
cause i know those who would stay, will just stay.
and those who wouldn't, their photos are going to hurt me in future.
so i'd rather talk, and enjoy every single moment of it.
i still love taking photos around. but not that adhere anymore.
like how the saying goes, "you don't take a photo, you ask silently, to borrow it."


Friends eh. its good to have people in your life.
someone you'd come visit after you're dead.
i'll sneak at their windows and see their lives and bless all of them.
NOT HAUNTING of course. but yea, its just, it makes me feel very thankful to friends when we're all connected in a tiny lil relationship.

I met some annoying people the other day.

there's a sentence i learnt from "The Social Network".

it goes somewhat like this:

"I think if your clients want to stand on my shoulders and call themselves tall they have a right to give it a try. But there’s no requirement that I enjoy being here listening to people lie."

yea. there are some shitty people around me who goes round standing on others shoulder and call themselves tall.

this used to make me upset and do a lot to defend. DUH. USED TO.

i had people coming up to me explaining the shames of me for not owning any technology stuffs. (==)

and all i can do was "uh huh. oh. uh huh. oh. uh huh. oh"

this is pretty disturbing.

there are also people who come up to me explaining how cheap my college is.

and i still "uh huh, oh, uh huh, oh, uh huh, oh"

as if its as good as dying to study in my college.

but i, kinda, like it. afterall its just a place to study ain't?

yea right. they dont really speak standard english in my college.

urr, SOME of the students appear to be a lil trashy though.

but to be frank, i adore the culture of my college that we speak hokkien.

hokkien is like the main language of the school.

even lecturers talk to us in hokkien after class.

i personally like this. LOL. just some very LOCAL culture.

ha. my friend once say she expected to improve her english joining us, but end up, her hokkien went better. 

i love this culture. though it sort of explain the reason of the english capabilities of my college.

=)   toast, for our typical, local culture. YAMMMMMM SHENG!

like timum said, 

"Bad things happen, and you can't do anything about it, right? 

WRONG!!!!!

when the world turns its back at you, YOU turn your back to the world!"