Its KAHINN who lives Quietly Fantastic

There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from heaven
And she's daddy's little girl
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life
Oh but most of all

For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk beside the pony daddy it's my first ride
I know the cake looks funny daddy but I sure tried

Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every mornin'
And butterfly kisses at night

Sweet 16 today
She's lookin' like her mama a little more every day
One part woman the other part girl
To perfume and make up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world
But I remember

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
You know how much I love you daddy
But if you don't mind
I'm only gonna kiss you on the check this time

Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin'
And butterfly kisses at night

All the precious time
Like the wind the years go by
Precious butterfly
Spread your wings and fly

She'll change her name today
She'll make a promise and I'll give her aways
Standing in the bride room just staring at her
She asked me what I'm thinkin'
And I said I'm not sure
I just feel like I'm loosin' my baby girl
And she leaned over

Gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk me down the isle daddy
It's just about time
Does my wedding gown look pretty daddy?
Daddy's don't cry

Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin'
And butterfly kisses

I couldn't ask God for more than this is what love is
I know I've got to let her go but I'll always remember
Every hug in the mornin' and butterfly kisses

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Labels: a shoutout to those idiot

Ok fine…I intended to upload a few pictures for my remarkable moment of the day. But, as an effect of Laziness and some pictures are kinda….shocking, SO, maybe next time.

This is definitely a late night post. I done my English assignment and I do think that my BELOVED ms.Lye will definitely colour it with stunning red. Well, since she is my tutor, I do hope to keep her as busy as possible, so that the college might find her rather hardworking and eventually a raise awarded. (dream…and, it has got not a thing to do with me)

For the sake of cheesy chickaroni, my dear ROOMATE, Suting and I went for a window shopping in Island Plaza. We simply touched everything reachable and are definitely touching twice on discounted items. Somehow, I regretted going there as a damn broke pathetic college students. No credit cards, no money, only touch touch see see. LAMEee…. I did come up several times the question:

As usual, she ignores me….sighss…I’ve used to be ignored…sobzz

After reluctantly accepting the truth that we are both broke college students(not pathetic la), we went to Cold Storage for Food, to be precise, JUNK food. As we are of the type of people who daydream for wine-ful future, we will for sure headed for the department stuffed of liquors..(wine, vodka, whisky…)

OMG…those wine are sinful-ly made…I feel like taking all of them home, UNPAID. Well, its not my fault for not having money to buy what I needed, and to taking it unpaid is because I don’t have the money, there shouldn’t be law enforceable for those being poor right? I AM POOR.

Oklo, as I’ve slotted JUSTICE in my HEART deeply, I sighs and sighs, swear and swear, then go for HEINEKEN. I KNOW! Big Difference! I know…but, if you’re not going to pay for me, SHUT YOUR HELL UP.

I got myself a Heineken for SUTING chose a VODKA with berry flavor. HAHA, actually, it was the bottle which is of her interest…bla bla bla

AS we go round and round the place, we keep being reminded of our poor-ness, by all those price tag…A towel, plain colour, plain green colour…how plain you may say, how plain it will be, RM18.99…

I poor, so I speechless…

Til here, I’ll pull the brake. Might it be temporary or permanently. As we all know, Life is like a box of chocolate, we’ll never know what we gonna get. The story today ended and embedded in my life. I’ll remember the stories, but never by hard, Loving Memories always come with Lovely people, and if that’s the case, we can have it anywhere anytime, as long as the person is right. Don’t by hard trying to keep every single moment of your life. ITS IMPOSSIBLE, that’s why the invented camera, DV, V8 and so on and so on…

That should be more than enough.

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It’s not like I never try it before. As for my age, it’s to be ashamed of if I never screw up any tests…

Well it’s a test, and it’s JUST a test. I fail? I fail lo. I pass? I pass lo. No one is gonna give any shit on it. Facts are facts, and the fact is that I’m pretty satisfy with the preps I’ve done. So what if I got terrible results?

Before these tests, I was totally ZERO knowledge-ed on any of those subjects. Now that the tests ended, I do feel like I’m better off (in terms of knowing my subjects much better). And that’s it. I mean, my aim is to be better off at the end of the day and it’s what I got so far. That would be enough. Don’t ask for too much things until you don’t even deserve that much.

Well, after all those unreasonably LAME tests, thanks to suting, we went GURNEY for letting out heart beat freely (especially after the movie). A night before this, I was told that ZOE is coming and is definitely joining us for the Gurney-after-test-let-heart-beat-freely trip…awesome indeed.

With my strong desire, they followed my choice of movie..which is “drag me to hell”. Well it’s good for us who need to scream. Trust me, you might scream or yell in the cinema but once you stepped out, you will find the movie rather funny…

Oh yea! Before the movie we had dinner at winter warmers. Its never winter and is definitely not warm. The rose tea is … very lovely lace I would say. The CHEESE BAKES are splendid! (as usual) The tomatoes are… chicken rice-ed… Well, I ruined someone’s attempt to surprise but still wish him happy BURST day. (can’t tell much for this part, as there is another plan underneath)

A thing to be remembered, I finally found someone which shares the same sized foot with I do. Definitely and for sure – ZOE!! I was excited for 5 seconds when I knew it. It makes me feels like I’m normal too, as I once thought of myself as a big foot originated from deep dark forests… Maybe both of us should do shopping on shoes together. Its less awkward to ask for 2 largest sized shoes than asking for 1 when every friends are taking much smaller. Imagine, everyone is asking for size 3,4,5 and you suddenly said “size 9”. Everyone will look at you and the sales girl will give you the “OMG” look…

But never mind, as long as my wallet is stuffed in, I will feel good in every situation. Provided that the stuffs are PURE MONEY.


I’m in my room where my laptop is deeply in LOVE with my fingers and ZOE is trying to have Suting’s laptop fell in love with her (it’s IMPOSSIBLE la woi!!!miracles only apply on ME) SuTing is trying very very hard to LOVE her English assignment. Things were like what used to be during my year 1. We chit chat, facebook, pet society, blog, gossips and so on and so on…..The only difference is that the one who used to sleep at 3am and skip early morning classes and do last minute job thus staying up all night person is now a diploma holder. We always move on. We should always move on. Beating around the bush of life is a waste of time. You’ve only got 1 life, APPRECIATE it!!!

I should end the blog now. Suting sighssss for her assignment numerous times, I think this might not be the time to ask her anything such as oi,can I go pang sai? Oi, can I smell my blanket? Oi, can I watch my drama?

But I still need to ask……







Oi, when will the laundry be done? I wanna hung the clothes and go to hell….oh no, go to SLEEP I mean...=)

i'm planning to collect buttons from today onwards.
for i have so many people to hate, i need a lot of them...
or the alternative way,
i should reduce the list of the people i hate?

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the answer is.....
eat,watch,scream,laugh
NOT FORGETTING......!!!

LOVE

Week 7. I always know well on how HATE week 7 of each of my semester… Week 7 has a hidden meaning which is “torturing” “tiring” “studying” “no sleeping” “no mood”…and it usually ends with “DYING”…

With the intro above, I, miserably, is in the week 7 or this semester… and has just finish one of my TESTS of the week… comment? 1 die, 2 else are digging their graves, 1 more is dependant to my LUCK, which had been so bad for weeks and doesn’t seem to have got any better…sighsss….

MAF is the test of the day, which I totally screwed up…Management Accounting Fundamentals… The lecturer, ms. Something something, I doubt if she was a student before…Her notes are to be said empty in terms that no emphasizing on the important points…Even her question today, OMG, its totally common sense. No Specific way of answering found in the study text, not even in the core reading material… Screwing up tests although has been my practice since a long long time ago, but its still very frustrating no matter how many time you’ve done it… It’s the matter of emotions. Very personal de EMOTION… I am getting so EMO, as the basic taxation tomorrow is a killer with the rate like diabetes…and the financial accounting on Thursday? Its like AIDS. No cure, Hopeless…

I think I will spend some time showing condolence for my test today before I start my Basic tax preps…

I’m sorry to say, “MAF, screwed up.”

I won’t cry, because…I wanna save my tears for BT, FA, B.LAW and even English…..

I just wanna

“Sighssssss………………”

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It has been a not-so-good weeks…Each and everyday, I felt awfully tired.

I’ve always wanted to feed my blog with a nostalgic Chinese post, and I couldn’t even come up one.

PATHETIC huh? I admit.

I think I’ve made things too strict and hard for my “classmates”. As what I said today, “my actual classmates are only part of the class…others? Sorry, tiny-minds are never in my list…too bad…^^” Is it that so unfortunately me happens to fall into the same class with those idiots, so that’s my fate which I have deal with in a sense that even I dislike or even HATE IT EVERY SINGLE MOMENT, I have to smile still?

HELL NO!

There are times that I don’t wanna be JUST MODERATE! Don’t show your fuckin’ face to me as if I’m so pitiful for not joining you guys and not laughing for those outdated, unacceptably lame jokessss…too, could you guys please, PLEASE have your brain attach to your head? Don’t simply ask question, try to impress lecturers or tutors…they have been teaching for years and hundred, thousands of students…All your lame question will be kept repeated years by years….YOU’RE ONLY HUMILIATING YOURSELF and torturing my ears…Those old time jokes, they just don’t seem to work. Do you get it??? THEY JUST WOULDN’T WORK! Now stop repeating…

I’m tired of turning back and look at you people when the teacher shows the expressions of “OMG…what kind of class is this”…please la…whenever you wanna joke, OF COURSE ITS GONNA BE LAME, could you please at least look around for the current atmosphere of the class?? Sometimes, its just SOOOOOOOO not for joking

time…do you what you should do in this case????

LAST but not least, do you people know that it’s the least knowledge where we’re supposed to mute our mobiles during classes?…even lecture hall which seemingly crowded, we should be aware the abstain of silent it.

Well…..its my test next week. Financial Accounting, English, Basic Taxation, Management Accounting…Business law falls the next next week…4 test and 1 assignment due….WOW!!

I always knows well on “how to hate week 7” in every semester…

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Its deceiving if I were to say I Worship him, Love him…

But that doesn’t mean I do not CARE bout a thing of him.

I do care about something from everything. WHY?

Maybe because I LOVE to discover the scandalous part deep in one self.

For now that MJ is dead, the first thing for me to think of is that,

“owh! MJ also can die de lo?!”

Sincerely, as he is so SUPERSTAR that is totally unreachable for me,its kinda hard for me to think of him as an ordinary person like me…TRUE! Just like how Nate’s affairs hold a big hole on my mouth. SIMPLY UNBELIVABLE.

I hardly remember any deep memory between me n MJ the GREAT. The only thing that runs around my mind is the song “You are not alone”…ohya, and the “we are the champion”…I’m not that sure bout the song’s title…But that the only impression of me towards MJ.

For sure I remember the moonwalk thing and those bombastic moments when MJ used to rule (till now he still rules, I know). These few days, I read from newspapers. Most of them mentioned about MJ leading a stressful life…since he was small…GOSH!!! Since you people knew about this, why anyone didn’t step out to voice something for him, to do something for him. If you see people beside you, damn-freakin-ly STRESSED, at least you’ll put your hands on his/her shoulder, with the saying “Keep holding on.”

Is it simply because he is a SUPERSTAR so he is determined to be the stressful ones, and is meant to entertain everyone but himself? The cause of death is yet to be found out. Since he had shut his eyes and his hope, maybe he just need the moment of peace which every SUPERSTAR dreamed for day and night.

Hold on the candle, do REST IN PEACE.

Some people search for LOVE, Some people DIES for LOVE,

Some people……found LOVE only when they’ve lost their belief on it.

Quotation again from the movie “Benjamin Button”,

“When it comes to the end, you can only just let it go…”

With love, to the world.

Hoping for peace, which is IMPOSSIBLE.

Sometimes, beliefs are there for beautifying the world. They could have been a total lie. But if believing it makes my life feels better, I’ll do. Even it seems SILLY.

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MJ, you’re the LEGEND. You brought People together…a STAR fell off, tailing a lot of memory.

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Try to leave a light on when i'm gone.
a light i rely on to get home...
"FIRE KEEPS ME WARM"
and YES!!!
I WAS BORN TO LOVE YOU


I wished i could GOOGLE my lifr through...
I wished to just run and run and run and never look back...
but i always do know....
I Cannot just search through my life,
I have to LIVE through it.