一暝梦拢看无你的人
阮的心是夜夜在思恋
情是风中的花丛
去落袂冻照希望
阮犹原为你块清香
是缘份乎双人伴相随
是命运伊将咱来放离
风吹一山过一山
找无心爱的形影
吹袂透我心内孤单
人若是疼着一个无心的人
情茫茫望你半生通也不通
像东流水 绵绵相思
多情多怨叹 又搁想起
人若是疼着一个无心的人
当作是注定红尘一场恋梦
偏偏为你 梦也相思
谁的人 谁疼痛 繁华拢是梦
是缘份乎双人伴相随
是命运伊将咱来放离
风吹一山过一山
找无心爱的形影
吹袂透我心内孤单
人若是疼着一个无心的人
情茫茫望你半生通也不通
像东流水 绵绵相思
多情多怨叹 又搁想起
谁的人 谁疼痛 繁华拢是梦
人若是疼着一个无心的人
当作是注定红尘一场恋梦
偏偏为你 梦也相思
谁的人 谁疼痛 繁华拢是梦
人若是疼着一个无心的人
当作是注定红尘一场恋梦
偏偏为你 梦也相思
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this song reminds me of my grandma for LGZ said so at the beginning.
it reminds me of the past sem break where i always spend my time watching Astro with her,
and she will explain to me detail by detail every story behind.
i was never that close to her
i really appreciate all those she made up for me
for my mum needs to work and
my grandma helped her to take care of me and my brother
my grandma knows lots of pass history.
those stories of my family
those stories of World War
those stories of old times where cops are still in shorts
i do have complicated feelings towards my grandma
for she influenced me like so soooo much...
as per said, I wouldn't be who i am now without her past existence even for one second.
somehow, i look at my grandma as she close her eyes and fell asleep in the afternoon
(after she had made sure we had our lunch and is damn full)
its hard to describe but i feel so sad..
she had been with me for years..like forever since i ever exist in this world,
she had done like so much for me
and I NEVER GET TO KNOW HER MUCH
i dont know what's her favourite food, favourite colour, favourite place?
none of it i had any idea in...
she always take fish's head in any meal but i do think thats mother nature in her that cant see any food be wasted and she knows for sure NONE of us will have interest in the bloody fish head.
i dont recall her crying.
not even in the funeral of my grandfather.
I think she made great result in the lesson of "letting go"
Ohya! In fact, she did, in my....grandaunt(?) funeral
thats the first time and definitely the last
i was total blank that time,
i dont know what to do...
she is sad, i can tell by imagining,
she was so close with my grandaunt(which is her elder sister)
and now that after years my grandpa went on,
another so called soul mate of hers went on..
time is flying and conditions are out of control
its gonna be sad if you were told that you will be losing someone FOREVER
not to mention that someone is so into your life that you'll never imagine a moment without her...
NOW, my grandma less down her times to ipoh where grandaunt used to be at..
she stays at home...
sometimes in the afternoon, when i was on my way home from college,
i look up to the sky and wonder what is my grandma doing?
sleeping? reading newspapers? watching TV?
the sky ignored me
the wind skipped me
the cloud stared at me
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i once thought, when we were young,
home is like a home.
you go out BUT you go back to it when you're badly hurt
or when you just need a rest.
home will be just nice and never close.
turn in the key, there's the people that'll never change,
there's the bed that'll never change,
there's the food that'll never change,
there's the FEELING that'll never change...
that's what home is about, non?
nothing change there, everything is in that kind of way when i was an innocent baby..
that's why i feel secure, that's why i feel safe
there's a picture in my mind that i can never forget.
my grandma is sitting alone on the sofa which she usually does,
right hand supporting her head,
in her very dreams...
that was like a pose of waiting something.
beside her are postcards from my brother and uncle..
she might be just taking a nap
but that moment when i saw it,
i swear to GOD,
i will go home as much as possible.
Old people were young once.
they know how youngsters refused to be tied up,
they dont really force every young ones too much..
BUT if just by showing up will please that,
what's the point of being stingy in this?
I am glad that I get to go home,
And I realize the importance of home
A place where even I’ve acted with the worst attitude
There are still people who never say no to me, never ever!
I feel great with this fact bear in my mind,
For the times in the future,
I can fight through my life with all my might,
For I know there will always be a neverland which never change its door key
And stays the same no matter how the wind blows,
How the rain flushes,
How the time scratches…
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When you're old, you will need more time to recall things, because in your memory bank, there are too many things and people and stories and smiles and REGRETS and LOVE...
