(i personally like this picture =)
so I went to cameron highland..ha!
how many times i need to repeat this huh?
fine,....change,
so I finished studying 3 chapter of Audit...
unfortunately, i can only recall.....
"Reasonable Assurance"
"True and Fair View"
"Control Risk"
.......
....
well, i did try my best.
I just simply LOVE my jelly lens.
each time i got it on hand...i feel like creating miracless
fascinated by the colour...
nothing much actually
You've NEVER been to cameron
IF
you NEVER DO THE STRAWBERRY thing...
stilll.i find it funny n cute
My last meal in cameron is this.
i tried to smile in a similar to the old-famous-RICH guy,
but i think...not that obvious my intention huh?
-Quietly Fantastic-
why am i so obsess with this 2 words?
it was like a miracle to me..
I am a NEVER-SETTLE-DOWN type of person..
notice the changes of my blog layout?
I hardly stick to a thing long...
BUT
i've never thought of changing the two words being my blog title!!
these words actually come from Kim Edgar..
A singer from England..
She had a song----"Quietly Fantastic"
she actually dedicated it to her friend which i found the lyrics rather meaningful...
so i cut n paste it. hehe
its really surprising that i can stick to this for such a long time!
just like me being so keen on blogging since....form 4?
its good to see memories when we're free once in a while..
it was like, an evidence,
showing, hey, that was you!! what a distant huh!!
For i hardly hold things long, i appreciate everything i have i my hand...
means, better appreciate first before regretting for lost...
i once wanted to hold everything so tight that i eventually lost my might n lose everything...
that was like the darkest time of my life..
(how funny, a not-even-20 teen is talking bout "darkest time")
i was so damn lost that i don't even recognize myself...
I went round n round reading blogs and
wasted time envying others life..
yea, i was that kind of loser...
Even more,
I act like someone totally not myself..
I disguised myself into something i thought "Awesome"
but instead, it is merely purely absolutely "Stupid"
sighss....!
who don't have bad hair days?
who don't have too-over-kind of memories?
who don't have downturn in life that you just wish you were someone better?
We are all the same after all...
similarly brought up
similarly educated
similarly living
similarly....
then and then, we, from whom we were brought up,
we departed......towards some direction
maybe pushed or pulled by friend
or just simply going around anywhere you like,
we end up whom we are today..
sitting here, talking bout memories...friendship...future.....
*because of all of you, I realized that my memories are pretty much awesome*
I can't imagine whom will i be in 10 years 5 years time...
but i am trying my very best to not disappoint her, the future me..
I am not sure if i am doing the right thing now..
But i do wish she(the future me) will at least feel good for having me as part of her past..
as per mentioned,
till now,I've got few years in between my life which i really wished it could RESTART all over again!
I felt humiliated each and every time i was forced to recall any moment of those..
!
and urm.
now that i admit, i m having literally DIFFERENT people as close friends every year..
when i was still a girl bound to uniforms...
i don't know what happen..
BUT i just get close to different people..I feel like i was cursed..
i once had a BEST friend in form 3-form4 time and we were still best of friends until beginning of form 5.(well, we met at form 2 but get closed at form 3 and...i don't know, i did treat her as my best friend, so...she is my best friend)
We always go to the canteen and refill water together during recess....
and out of sudden, she stopped eating at canteen,
but she still come all the way down from the top floor(4th!!!) to the ground floor...
accompanying me to canteen, see me eat.....and refill water and go up...
I feel awkard and also, we've got lesser and lesser topics...
so i suggested her not to come down again...
I supposed she do feel a lil awkard to turn my suggestion down,
so she just accept it....
FOR GOD SAKE...since then, we were like LOST CONTACT..
and since dunnowhen...we are two schoolmates, only SCHOOLMATES...
we don't shout at each other anymore
we don't know what happened to each other at home yesterday anymore
we don't tease each other like what we used to do everyday.....
whenever met, we just nodded out head, and walk away..
THAT FEELING SUCKSS....
and i don't only lose her as a best fren, i lose another as well...
for 3 of us used to be kinda...a gang?
its funny when you see once-best-friend
and you only nodded....
i still remember when we used to hang out at her house...
when we feel tired bout tuition and her house is just right there..!
I think most of you should know who i am referring to...
well....yea..its her...
there was once a person asked me, how come you 2 so good thn suddenly like don't know each other.........
i don't know, so i kept silent...
but i do think bout it several times..
maybe we are too shy to start the conversation?
maybe its awkard that we lost contact for so long and who knows whats on your mind now?
haizz...people just come and go...
we just stand and sighs and try to remember them as long as we could...
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something sad to say,
I don't even have a photo with my this once-very-best friend...
such a waste huh?
but i do learn something!
DON'T FEEL AWKARD OR SHY in front of your own fren...
its gonna do you nothing but silly and regret.!
i m thinking, the next time i see her in a mall or something,
i will shout at her or wave at her...
do something stupidly funny...
.......................
that should decrease the awkradness at least for a lil huh!
