and my phone is half-dead
whatever.
my dad is in massive depressions.
as a daughter, i don't know what to do
i can read worries and frustrations from my mum
well. my dad brought me up as a spoiled brad
the best example will be that he bought me a car,
but i never have to care bout the servicing part
dad's gonna call and ask and remind and make sure and everything
my cousin has to send the car to garage and communicate bout what happened to that car
and all i have to do is hand the keys over to my dad..
he himself will check the car, determine trouble and all
i only drive, tats it.
(which kind negatively impressed my aunt somehow)
so my point is my dad is brought up that way too
*a way where parents take care of everything and filter all potential trouble(sometimes opportunities too) you may have
well my mum brought me up on quite an opposite one,
it gets pretty contradicting, so.....you may say im brought up in a well-balanced space of freedom and limits
or you may say a confusing combination of authority
whatever it is, my parents are brought up in 2 extreme condition
so im.....im....alright im confused too
im actually trying to figure out a way to cheer my dad up
but sometimes, i realize most of the ways i can get are just....temporary
like, he smiles and the next moment he is in the midst of his job haze and stuffs again
it started while ago
now its getting serious-er
my brother suggested to play him old-time songs of his golden days
or even drunk him
somehow i don't think that's gonna work.
(wtf, i just got scolded by my mum for some retarded reason, im not gonna continue this)
Just, stop letting your anger on me and try to make that one stupid reason so strong.
Right from your tone, it reflects how weak the reason itself is.
like every now and then, im pissed but i am not supposed to defend myself
all i did was walk away
and flood myself with anger
and dream for candy and lollipops to get ready for my tomorrow
im immune to this treatment
immune as in it still hurt, but it no longer stays.
