"The countdown started a few days before. I’m the only one who thought by acting ignorant, nothing’s gonna change…After all, it has been such a USUAL practice."
Again, I’d like to talk about something, which EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU will definitely shout to my face that I really am damn OUTDATED.
~so SOOOO WHAT? I’m still a rock star.
::GOSSIP GIRLS
Yea yea YEA, I know its so HISTORICAL for you, but I only get to watch the FINALE for season 2 this afternoon. Like Chuck decided to end this whole thing with the FINAL CONFESSION of “I LOVE YOU TOO”, I’d like to clarify something to myself. And the title, “Why am I so into this Gossip Girl thing?”
I didn’t love it because it contrast out how pathetic my high school was.
I didn’t love it because I’m a lil’ stupid girl who interest in every relevant n irrelevant gossips.
I didn’t love it because those mean girls were as idiot as my classmates…
I didn’t love it because NateArchibald, please, chuck is my all time favorite.
Well, ok, maybe, MAYBE part of me love me with minor percentage of the above reasons, which is actually IGNORABLE…As the XOXO speech came out in the end, I was alone in my hostel, with EMO emotions. WHY? Because it rains, AGAIN! (still, that’s a different story, a story about how raining makes me EMO each and everytime…)
I barely remember each and every scene or even part of the tv series, but uhm, I had permanent marks on every scene that drag me into deep and long thoughts.
I JUST LOVE THIS TV SERIES because at some point, I figure things out through it.
There are always times that I feel so bad ‘bout different people or reasons, and I believe none of you is free from this problem. As I watch, I saw how Serena told Blair to stay and fight in season 1 when everyone is behind her even the innocent jenny. It’s real hard to stay in somewhere where everyone shut you off their life, and keep whispering behind you and acted nothing when you look at them. With this, I know that there are several people which my life would get so soooo sucks without them beside.
And then, I saw chuck got so MISERABLE when his mighty dad goes down by a stupid accident.
They are father and son which hardly talk nicely for more than 5 sentences without threatening and teasing and scolding. 
But still, he is the FATHER, he is the SON. The bonding is in their blood. As far as my memory goes, I hadn’t been close to my parents nor family. I always alienate myself in my own little bubble. It’s not that they are like BART BASS kind of person who keeps files of my everyday life. It’s just that, everytime I try to tell them a lil’ bout my friends, my life, they acted interest-less and even worst, they always scold me for those stories told. At first, I felt angry and I’d shout back to them. Later, I became speechless with all those topics they brought up. And Finally, I ended up a mute one whenever I’m with them. I’d rather they don’t know a thing of me than hearing their negative descriptions on my friends and my life which I actually pretty proud of. I mean, whats the point for me to share and them keep on criticizing? Might as well choose to keep TOTAL SILENT even if that makes them angry sometimes and kept me IGNORED all times…
Coming up, I wanna talk about LILY BASS.
She resembles those parents that are willing to review what they’ve done to their kids and WILL APOLOGIZE. She looked at Serena as mirror of her younger self. She does scold her, She does blame her which it ended up a TOTAL MISTAKE, She does appear to be kinda dictatorial somehow…Despite all these, what should be highlighted is that she APOLOGISE!!! For my parents, they hardly admit that they’re wrong. They blame everything / everyone which is reachable for example, their daughter (ME). I used to be so frustrated but now, I’ve used to it. I know how to pretend like I’m deaf and mute to protect my DIGNITY…haha…kinda hyperbolic? Possible…
Might be that its CHILDISH to hope for those apologizes. After all, its Penang Malaysia, not the Upper EastSide of The Manhattan. We’re still conventional at some point. Parents are still high on the Monarchy even though they pretended like they tried so hard to befriend with us. They held the FINAL DECISION as the federal courts…Where the furthest for us to go for, is still under the category of Subordinate Court…Their superior courts are way beyond our RIGHTS…what we can do? Accept, Smile hardly, and …….SIGHSSss….
Remember Blair told lil’ J that “to be QUEEN, you have to be mean.”
I love how Blair talks, she can actually use her mouth ONLY to attack and to take down the whole SCHOOL…
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Serena shows me that freedom is to be used in forming GORGEOUS LIVES, not to ruin one.
Blair shows me that you’re the only one to be relied on to defend yourself.
Nate shows me that seemingly perfect person is person who breath the same air with me, its NO BIG DEAL at all.
Chuck shows me that even the cold-blooded, having-sex-only animal knows the phrase “I LOVE YOU TOO”.
Jenny shows me that past experience which should be felt ashamed of will fade, what counts, is NOW AT THE PRESENT.
Dan shows me that dreams are just great even we just had it instead of having it.
Vanessa shows me that when things happen outta expectations, we’ll just deal with it, who cares if its negatively or positively, have a drink, and phewww, its gone!
At the end, Gossip Girl shows me that its okey to LOVE, afterall, its your own life that you’re gonna live on with.
The fairy tale of Queen B-Prince N ended, but turned a new page with the NYU Blair Waldorf herself, kissing with the Chuck Bass which eventually learn to LOVE in a normal way…
Between, if Blair is okey with the NYU, what’s so big deal for me in this TARCollege? My life is still gonna be GORGEOUS because I’m the one leading it! Its my life, my way…QUIETLY FANTASTIC``
My life is not determined simply by which college I went, its bout ME. In my world, I’m the apex, I’m the only one that matters in my own bubble of life.
This is my now. I own LeeKahInn. More than everyone else, I love myself!!!
"As per what SERENA or BLAIR said, its our day, we shouldn’t let gossip girl take it over.
Smile in every situation, better, LAUGH. Its our life, our day, our moment. WE RULE!"
tips of the day, sincerely partly from BLAIR:
"if you're not the person others said you are,
PROVE IT.to yourself
for those "others"?
who cares for those tiny brain anyway?!"
