3 months internship, 1 week rest, here comes year 2 with professional paper
and i was like, HUH?
just like, wow, i am almost there now
still there reminiscing the fragments of my so-called teenage
and then something hit me and oh, i am 21 and is... doing internship?
gosh.
time flies. and the way they just slips off your hand like how sand used to be
never get to just grab on and always left without a trace
its like all so beautiful until calendar comes in view
i still dont know what i wanna be in future
accountant, auditor, and whatever
perhaps just something lame
i'm not sure is it accounting or is it this "getting mature" thing
that had tied both my feet down on earth
and that i know flying so high like a G6 only happens for few minutes in a song
and i surprisingly see myself sitting back and listen to smooth music and
starts enjoying a quiet afternoon
sometimes people ask me like:
"are you sure you don't have dream?"
i guess i do.
but then, i think there are certain dreams which is so much like the stars
we gaze at them and they were like blinking eyes that make our day
but look closer, its just a burning stone
it hurts. it burns.
dreams.
when they are all in one, its huge and overwhelming and head over heels causing
and when they shattered, they are like fireworks. short. Yet, attention grabbing
one of my friend dug a really deep secret outta me
which i myself hadnt realize
she gave me a conclusion
with a careful reminder saying
"conclusion is something you jump into when you're too much of thinking"
its always like that eh
we sit down one whole day trying to figure out some "life-related" question
and at the end of it, we got nothing and i'll say
Life. Quietly Fantastic.
Everyone does have their own preset conclusion i guess
we just know our lives but somehow
we enjoy listening how people may think about it
current statuses revolve around davidchoi's music
It was sudden when i started watching kevjumba during exams
then before internship i think wongfu made some really inspiring videos (these four walls!!!!)
for sure in between that davidchoi's music started playing
but i wasnt really of that big favour
i was listening to chestersee that time
as a matter of fact, i like something in davidchoi
maybe his attidtude or whatever
i read his bio which is so freaking long
i didnt finish it, but i did cover the part of him doing his own-chosen intern
in a music studio, where he work his arse off for 3 years and get paid like 20 dollars or less
it makes me feel much better considering i have better pay
ya right.
....
k. it was a joke. just some point that i'm out of words to describe
lets put it this way, it should be something like
it helps balance up a bit when you know that people who are cool these days worth to be what they are
they did work for it, and then all i have to do now is live the suffers and
make sure i get something out of it
Its always until you're in the middle of something before you know the real suffers
and since you're already in the middle, you're left with 3 options:
(a). Leave. which is to be half way on something you have started. and get nothing back.
not only a waste of time spent but also getting nothing back
NOT EVEN A STORY TO BE TOLD
(b) Stay and live it like a Zombiewhich is to waste more time and also, GET NOTHING IN RETURN
(c) Stay, rise and rise again, until lambs becomes lionswhich is to continue, and start learning every single thing available
and make sure this suffering period makes a better future you
laying it out this way, no more option
i bias as i am writing this
for i am trying to make everyone nod their head like smashing garlic
"YAYAYAYA! WE HAVE TO BE (c)"
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| lack of passion is fatal. |
knowing you're not the only one suffers helps to reduce your negativeness
apart from feeling like a loser during suffers, most of us feel the strongest loneliness of all
so i guess learning the fact that EVERYBODY goes through that, so what makes you not?
this should be helpful
I used to have friends who'd read my blog
and realize how miserable i've got and she'd call
but now no more
people move on
just because i stayed, that doesnt mean everyone else would do so for me
finally i learned that, ya,
people with truly awesome lives dont update their blog frequently
Why waste time recording your beautiful lives when you are sure to make it even better every tomorrow?
Its 11pm, if i were a student, this is when i start watching a pre-loaded movie
but as an intern who waste twice as much time to settle a simple task,
i'll call it a day and sleep, and forget the world
wake up to tomorrow like a brand new person,
who is exciting over challenges like i've never beaten down before
who is happy to see the sunshine like i've never learned the word alone
