its a huge goodybye season this time
saying goodbye here and there
right after my exam i was busy
seriously i don't recall a clear image of that time
it was just about a few of us going here and there
walking here and there
planning this and that
and before tat my laptop got into medical centre of itself
cancer
too much of viruses
end up nearly dead
its now with a brand new soul
in sum, CURED.
and the week after i finished saying goodbye to my friends,
its time for me to kiss my holidays goodbye
yea, damn pity. i know tat. and i dont any less of sorry that others have felt for me
so today is friday
monday will be a brand new day
i cut my hair yesterday which is thursday
went out for the LEEKAHINN day on tuesday
the rest, i spent it wandering around my house
digging secrets which fail big time
so here again, me discussing timetable and new lecturers
from my past 16 years of study
i learned one important fact which never seem to appear in any education material
"Never ever at once think good of lecturers, whether they are known or not"
A user will always be a user and a cheater will always be a cheater.
People don't change, they just find different ways to lie.
yea, tats important
there's something i can't help feeling down of
its that, when i was like, before allowed to drive to college
i do think that a car means a lot in freedom
like wat i used to feel back when i was 5
i used to think that freedom means being able to go mcd whenever i feel like
lame. but what would u expect from a 5-year-old
so these days, i drove to hostel, back home, sometimes out for meals, or movies with friends
and i learned one thing, things always stay pretty until you have it on hand
now with a car, i look at that petrol meter and rate
now with a car, i divided my pocket money into an extra part of petrol
now with a car, i still don't get to go anywhere i feel like
i follow the hidden schedule according to the traffic
i plan my routes so i don't have to take extra turn
i stayed home and cook instead of buying
its never about the external when it comes to the problem of emotions
there's no change between having a car and without one
there's no change between having something you desired and without one
now that i realize,
while you're owning something,
you're supposed to develop your courage to move on without it.
like when you're lying,
while you were being covered by your lies,
you're supposed to develop the courage of tearing the lyings into pieces in future with your bare hands
God does give second chance,
which is why the word "forgiveness" is created
He the al-mighty created this word
left it there and allow everyone who has the courage to reach upon
that's why i heart Eat Pray Love
the courage to throw everything away
it only sounds romantic
but we don't eat romantic
that's why for someone to take a turn in their lives
sort of like forcing them to leave that big crowd they are among which is their comfort zone
It needs a lot more than what it may seem.
Eat Pray Love
i have this in my list
if only the book "secret" is true
