like real bad results, well, its ok.
at least i felt relieved realizing its not like i dont know how to do
just i am careless and mainly owing to lack of practice..
like, Phew~~~~
duh then thats it, test aint something that got on my day
its just, i dont believe in grades when it comes to learning
at least i've learnt a lot in this world that NO-ONE can possible grade me overall
results is a tiny part, very tiny
sky is your limit, and i havent found my limits yet.
mum is on for her own getaway trip
yeah, if i were her i would do the same
kids got their own stuffs to busy of, and she can still walk like a normal healthy person
its time we get down for some travelling aint?
i hope she have fun. well, when it comes to travelling, my mum aint that bossy
she can be real easy-going at times
i realize this during our trip to Bali.
like when i can just turn my head and say, hey mum i want this
then i will get the cash
picture this in Malaysia, its either my mum put a sarcastic smile or..."YOU'D WISH"
parents.
its friday tomorrow
and im going back to hometown
no more hooray this time...weekend kinda mean the "beginning" of revisions
argh. exams are round the corner again
things get less scary as it was when we got the attitude right
im adjusting myself
i have this wish that when im off college, i can be someone positive
someone very positive that she can get real happy
and obstacles dont get her down
i used to think if i wish for something hard enough than i will get it
something like "secret" have been telling
but i dont know
sometimes i dont even sure if i really want something
or could it be that i just...pretend like i wanted it
it sounds like there wasnt so much of big difference
but in the middle of the nights, lying on bed and seeing stars and all
you will see the tiny scars on you that you may not even have realized
you will start talking yourself through some hard times in life
and you just realize how weak you actually are
its ok to be weak
just, behind every strong spirit, there lies a weaker one
the strong will protect the weaker one in front of everybody
but when no one's there, they cry together, horribly
we all have weak and strong sides
just, im better because when my weaker side is on duty
i got my friends to count on
like when i feel comfortable to tell people i screw up my tests
without having to worry would they care for me or laugh at me first
thank god for the friends im having, whatever i will do, please dont take any of them away
i like how friendship works, like siblings, but at least they wont betray you for parents candy
cause in a friendship, we cover shits for each other
time for bed.
bout the test i screwed, urm its Strategic Finance Management.
A subject that bored me just by saying its abbreviation---SFM
DUH. i still gonna work hard for it
flunk is not a choice. its often a result of no choice.
im not gonna feel ashamed and yes,
i failed horribly in that subject,
so horrible that i think i kinda saw Lord Voldemort kissing Hermoine Granger on the test paper
But i still am gonna work hard for it, no pain no gain
failing means i have lotsa space to improve and lotsa catching ups
it just mean, more work. not impossibility.
so chill LKI, we got a life to rock. and now, lets just roll with the exam for fun
i said im addicted to life, and i just cant get enough
so this is the combination of feeling of
"regret-of-not-working-harder" and "i-should-have-been-more-careful"
right.i'll add in to my feeling-collected list.
you know when you feel so angry with yourself,
you should try "Raise Your Glass" by Pink.
"So raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways"
--Pink
wrong isnt guilt.
i know this whole passage sounds more like me comforting myself
but yeah, of course im bothered with the terrible result
and im pretty sure i myself will well be the one to talk myself through
as long as i can put this fall behind my back,
again,
I'M READY FOR ANOTHER CHAMPIONSHIP.
BRING IT.
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| like so ready. =) |
