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| Craig? |
maybe not. he says he can handle them now.
and yes, this is another movie i just watched.
yea life is pretty messed up
i agree with that
Mess up is a good word to describe most of my days
like a messed up table that you wish you just walk away
and return with it all taken care of
but thats table. we can get a maid for that.
but this life of our own
we have only our bare hands to rely on
as usual,
i have papers tomorrow and im still not feeling for it
like, all, the, time
something off the center, i do like the big table im having all by myself now
i like how i can spread my notes all over it and still find spaces to fit my bowls and cups
its just, im allergic to small things.
i feel comfortable with big things, explaining why i have friends with significantly bigger eyes
not to cover my defects, but just,
i think i see more truthfulness that way.
nawh. second part was all crap.its only true until allergic to small things.
oh and one more thing, i feel like a water tank
i dont drink water....i stuffed them in.
err. just random.
urm. yea, back to the movie
at first i thought it was supposed to be deep
cause i see stress, suicide, and complicatedly joint scenes
but the movie turned out quite right and surprising
it feels like a lighter version of "One flew over the cuckoo's nest"
not to say that i feel related to the suicidal part
but i believe so
sometimes people get too messed up in emotions
that we lose the ability to bend things over
i understand that feeling
i think.
ever since i started staying in hostel all by myself
i've been given a lot of time on my own to do my thinking
cause no one's here to listen about my days
and all i have is myself
so i learnt to go through hard times
maybe some crying, maybe some crazy eating
and mostly some crazy spending
and deep down, i know i will be just as fine
like when you get hurt on the outside, you bandaged it
signifying others that you're hurt and stay the hell away from your forming scar
and sometimes the bandaged thing make you do extra work on easy daily chores
like how your messed up emotion get you into lil trouble everyday
but if you give on enough time and belief and medication
your injury will heal, and you can skip and walk like nothing ever happened
leaving the pain you had at the back of your memory
i guess i dont know what im saying.
i should believe like Aladdin
a whole new world it says
then a whole new world it is
i have something i wanna work on
wanting so badly that i will trade my future for a chance for it
and i swear im gonna do it right
cause when my passions are ignited
rainbows, stars, sunshines, and all the wonderful things
they wont stop banging on my door
=)
