Teenagers like us are Glamorous! (PEACE)

a short and quick post...

PEOPLE IN THE PLACE, I'M TO DROP THE BEAT NOW!!!
Samseng(s) moved out an hour ago.
well, its still running around my mind 'bout the reason those morons chose to move after calling samseng(old ones) to threaten us during midnight, after every stupid renovation they've done to our hostel, AND FOR ONE WEEK ONLY, now, they moved out...

to me, its a DAMN good news!!Its somehow like you tell me PRINCE WILLIAM is marrying me if i can get 4 flat--which means, its GREAT, but still so much to work on.

Since they are having our keys, we are now more alert than before. (in da house, we check for mouse.Outta house,we check for samseng..><''') for me to enter or go outta house, i need through 6 locks. Sounds hyperbola, doesn't it? what to do? we're terrified what!!!

as a summary, those samseng took away a lot of stuffs..(they are just a street different, imagine they move all things by WALKING.) for example, they took our table...FUNNY, table only what!!! Get from uncle la since you think you've got a mighty uncle who even take cares of your monthly electicity and water bills...They also took a cupboard...(haizz...PATHETIC, small small cupboard only!!! sumore the lock sudah rosak...just pull it and without a key, you can own the cupboard!) and also, they took the double decker's bed de for block usage de iron..(something like that la,not sure bout the name).....well, thats all...I think la..ohya, its so kind of them to leave us some "SOUVENIR"...A MICE (or even more) IN THE GUYS ROOM...

after wew conclde everything, we came the the final saying that is they might be scared of the "BLACK SHADOW" they kept seeing for the past week but not for us which have been there for A YEAR!! and maybe, the mice too... erm,if only they are scared off by the mice, please allow me to shout "GUYS ALSO SCARE OF MICE ar?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!oh my goodness....SHAME LA!!!PEI XI NEI!!!"

okla..enough for them...i'm very happy and intend to celebrate that they're finally gone. BUT, we have to stay humble and 低调！...and also, i still feel very annoying whenever i think of their "vomit-causing" face....I swear that if i ever said anything to humiliate anyone, the sum of those is still not enough to desribe them..(HOR!!! you see how scary they are...i doubt that the 阿飘 they saw might just appear to look at their bombastic appearance..阿飘also wonder, how come people nowadays get so scary?!!)

Hurray to me. Pathetic to them.
Glamorous to us. Fuck you to them.
Peace at the end for us. War about to come for them.

who knows what's coming to us tomorrow, but now that we've gain experiences from this incidents, we learned that normal human being with normal thinking LIKE US is something destined by FATE. We never know when we're gonna bump into a brainless mankind-like creature. so, lets end this with something energetic and bombastic!!!!

我活着，杀出我命运！！

Catch my lips -- F.U.C.K. Y.O.U. (even Lilily Allen agree with me)

Bring your brain with you la PLEASE!!!!
This is the damn story…(I wonder can I get into sleep tonight, I’m too mad to sleep!)

You see, I’m now so called senior in my hostel as I lived there for 1 year already. And then I was appointed the job to collect the money. And the MONKEY voice out!!!

He doubted me to be the leader (as per what they prefer call the money collecter, to me, it’s the general worker). I’m sorry for those under 18 but I must say FUCK YOU YOU STUPID IDIOT!!BE GLAD IF ONLY HELL IS WILLING TO ACCEPT YOU!!!BECAUSE YOU AS A FREAKIN CREATURE WHICH IS HUMAN LIKE BUT WITHOUT BRAIN, EARTH IS TOO DANGEROUS FOR YOU!!!!! If thing like you can enter the same college with me, that means I had a kind-hearted college.

They take you to show their sympathy! Please la, if someone says you are just BRAINLESS, I’ll definitely stand by your side and shouted to the someone, HNG! HE DESERVED WAY MORE!!!!

And YOU there, do you know who I am? And please, before you live on, I hope you can learn how to behave more like a human! I don’t owe you a cent! Please don’t give that “I’m the boss” face! But I won’t tell you this “useful” advice(you only)…because I hoped you carry on with these kind of manners and trust me, I’ll see your murder cases on the title of The Star and Sin Chew Jit Poh and all newspapers in every language!!!! CONGRATS!! You earned yourself a credit again! You gonna be famous! But after you’re murdered or maybe not, if you arrested by police for robbing banks or transporting drugs too...but, erm…I doubt if you have the brain to carry out the job, or even guts…but also la, if you, without a brain you, can survive until than. (You can always open a vote in facebook to see the result, well but I can now foresee it already!

Ohya, forget to say, since your bunch of “girl friends” is so terrified of the “shadow”, hehe, that means a free show to us! We can see people shouting screaming for air….HAHAHAHAHAAH please la, a little harmless lizard u scream like gorilla is raping you, wait till you know all those stories around our house! You will see how chicken coward you’ve been for the pass 18 years. So scare people eat your Jacobs biscuit izit? OMG, oh and your milo, your luxury biscuits.

Oh please, I’m poor but not that poor to couldn’t even afford to buy my own food!!!! And anything that had been through your skinny, dry, black, disgusting hand, that just tear off my interest over it!!!

Now, you’re with your gang of rubbish outside my room, shouting. Hehe, its 12.30 am, I can call the police you know?! But never mind…it’s not loud enough! Like I said, you deserved way more!!!!! One day,I’ll see you on newspapers(I always know that) stuffing your brainless head into the paper bags. If I have time, I’ll bring it to you and ask you to sign, it’s cool to have criminal’s signature. You know la! Throughout my life, it’s hard to have met people like you with full potential in becoming a criminal. How LUCKY I am…

Ei, lala, everyday, I pray to GOD. I say, 保佑我平平安安，快快乐乐，开开心心，顺顺利利。 And I think my prayers have been answered! GOD brought you to me, HE wanna tell me,” You see how lucky you are now? You have a brain!” I now know that to be given birth with brain is 平平安安，to have good friends like THEM YI YUN is 快快乐乐，to have you as my housemate to show me how idiot you are is 开开心心，to have you keep failing exam, re-sit until repeat until expel, I am 顺顺利利。

You guys are still shouting excitedly outside my room. Do ENJOY. Heh, I’ll wait and SEE, how you’re gonna suffer throughout the semester.

You might get a GOOD result. (As you’re a fool, doesn’t mean you are unlucky) but, the thing is,

You will always FAIL, being a normal mankind. Beware of scientists. If you found someone like them around you, do not hesitate to run. They are definitely chasing after you. Imagine, BRAINLESS MANKIND!!

Its gonna be BOMBASTIC on the headline!!! (See? You’re on headlines again!)

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Last but not least, along this post, I stop twice. The second time I stopped is because these BRAINLESS MANKIND, heh, they actually asked their parents to come down from BUKIT MERTAJAM to TANJUNG BUNGAH! To ask me question about what I’ve mentioned during the meeting!!! Am I deaf-like or mute-like? I’ve asked thrice, “ANYMORE QUESTION?”

You chose to be silent, n ignorant. Then, that’s it la!!! My parents didn’t work so hard to pay me here to FORCE you for questions and to DIG things outta your mouth. You’re 18, I’m 19. A year older shouldn’t make much different. But you made me feel like you stopped growing since kindergarten (Or even earlier). Babies, I’m not here to pamper you, I’m here to live and I’ll move on. ACCA is waiting for me, PRINCE WILLIAM is waiting for me, MONEY is waiting for me, WONDERFUL FUTURE is waiting for me. And you, you’re gonna pathetically, become a joke among my AWESOME FRIENDS, and A GREAT EXAMPLE I’ll quote to anyone who intends to send their kids to this college. (Viewers, this is a notice from a year 2 student in TAR College Penang, anyone or parents to anyone which is coming to this college, think twice, imagine, these kind of people as your seniors…(I’m not in a good position to comment, BUT I can say, THINK TWICE!!!)

Ok, Saving Climax for my ending is always my practice. My sweet sweet treasured FRIENDS—THEAM YI YUN. Thanks for your hug and your on-time shown-up. It could be a way better chat if things above don’t happen! BUT, hehe, shy to say, you’re the 2nd person to see me broke down…Thanks.


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Lucky I have sweet friends. And thanks to my housemates too, for backing me up.

Breath my Life 到天涯海角去掏空自己

我不否定我身体里急欲扩张的逃避因子，我下意识地把它隐藏起来。我喜欢押着自己去做一件自我精神虐待之类的事情，我觉得这是我表现自律的一种方式。我会对着一锅香喷喷热辣辣料满满的火锅干瞪眼，这真是太diao了，周杰伦说。谢谢，我说。我会想尽办法让自己在四下无人的夜晚一个人流泪，强惨了，罗志祥说。小意思，我说。我会逼自己每天骑脚踏车两小时（以前啦，以前），败给你，罗志向和萧亚轩说。无敌最孤独，我说。我会机械性的每天读一遍财经新闻，傻，魏如筠说。万人皆醉我独醒，我说。我会每天纵容自己凌晨睡中午醒因为这是青春最重要的挥霍方式，Glamorous，Fergie说。I’m so much beyond，我说。我会每天花一部分的时间思考一些没有根据的问题，Hallelujah，Kate Voegele说。Amitabha，我说。

李玖哲之前也说过我“想太多”，五月天也说我“走火入魔”，孙燕姿的结论则是“梦游”。我很苦恼，我不知道怎么办。后来戴佩妮实在看不下去我一直挂在半梦半醒之间，她给我一个人的行李，让我单身潜逃。我问五月天我该往哪里去，他们说可以考虑去我心中尚未崩坏的地方。陈绮贞还在那一角落患过伤风。她还因此成了吉他手，学着花的姿态走过一段华丽的冒险，才幽幽感叹，“你离开我，就是旅行的意义”。听起来不错。。

我跳上了五月天找来的垃圾车，寻找适合的旅行起点。驾车的阿伯反复叨念着生存以上，生存以下，我都快抓狂了，一直到我看见孙燕姿提起过的风筝打招呼似的随风飘。放着风筝的人们对我笑，向我挥挥手，大大声地说“一起玩”。我跳下车（驾车的阿伯，如果你在看，我想跟你说谢谢，不过，垃圾车很臭，你很长气），奔向他们，一个头发卷卷的把风筝递过来，带我到风大的地方，一个头发烫得直直却无法掩饰她是一个正妹的事实的正妹，亲切地走过来跟我寒暄，临走还不忘叫我顺道祝福她明天就生日的老公（王力宏嘛），那个拿太阳去洗的。。。。。

我忘了我在那里玩了多久，即使是现在，我仍旧不会错过任何回到那里再玩一次的机会。周华健说，朋友。五月天说，天使。王若琳说，有你的快乐。我说，613。风筝一直都在天空恣意飞舞，而我不知廉耻地假装天真无邪。我们意犹未尽的待在原地狂欢到深夜，然后醉倒。我和卷毛女孩坐得很靠近，刚才那个正妹也是，我们就这样聊开了。正妹说她梦想当一只鸟，卷妹说她什么都不知道但有点想当世界上最营养的阿卷，我说我要继续旅行。我们一直一直聊，偶尔和大伙儿一起大话西游，偶尔就我们三个自己聊聊天聊聊地。后来正妹起身先走，因为她要去学卖东西，她的家人都觉得实在没办法接受她如果真的当鸟后，该怎么看待她身上的羽毛，更怕她万一当成了乌鸦，那就。。。。只好请教王力宏，“乌鸦怎么了？whats wrong with me…wro-o-ong with me….”

我跟卷妹说我想继续旅行。卷妹没有说什么，只是说了些道别的话。拥也拥了，抱也抱了，哭也哭了，我才发现其实我的下一站不过就是隔壁村。卷妹家有一只老铁马，因此她常常骑马来找我，带我这里晃一下，那里逛一下。偶尔会和以前一起放风筝的朋友一起过来，不过多数都是她自己过来。我和卷妹也常常彼此飞鸽传书来，飞鸽传书去。在隔壁村的日子，其实不尽如意。我租住的地方因为便宜，所以房客很多，很杂。和我同一层楼的租客，ngam ngam遇着刚刚，都和我合不来。奈何，那个地方的交通还不够理想，每三个月才有一趟去城市的巴士，而每两年才有客船会靠岸，我才能搭着客船去新的地方。我很响往新的地方，但也很担心终究会离去的卷妹会如何？我知道她自己也很烦，所以我不提起，我相信，她会找到她所要的。

今天下起了雨，而我还在从市集回家的路上徘徊。我进了一家冰店避雨，点了一盘热的香蕉船。没有人的店里，我望着大门。雨滴顺序掉下，滴滴答答的，偶尔大雨的时候很吵，偶尔小雨的时候又很混乱，就像我的思绪一样。我想着这趟旅行我应该要有什么样的收获？我之前因为想逃离原本机械性的生活所以我踏上这个虚构的旅途，而我到底要旅到什么时候才有资格回到我原本的生活，堂而皇之的继续那千篇一律的生活？我在店里傻傻地等雨停。而雨傻傻地等太阳。太阳却傻傻地被困在我心底的最深处，没办法出来给我温暖的动力。How Could This Happen to me。Simple Plan说。心雨，周杰伦说。我在这座被雨困住的城市里学习解放体内的负面，可是，我毫无头绪。。雨一直都没有停，难得清闲的老板捧起吉他唱他自己的歌。我就在大雨和音符中耗掉了很多脑细胞。老板人很好，我问他那首歌是什么名字，他说叫“威尼斯的泪”。结账时还借我一把伞预防变幻莫测的天气。永邦冰店，有好人老板，和很适合下雨天的歌。还有一个似乎有轻微残障却很爱笑的侍应生。

我过后并没有马上回住处，跑到书局买了几本书。然后走到一个十字路口面前，停下。

我一直都是一个人矗立在风中，双手插在大衣的口袋里，胡乱的活着。

空气中的微分子刷过我的脸颊。而我还是没有回过神来，依旧是一动也不动。几十年过去了，几百场风霜过去了。我肩膀上的漆开始脱落，表面也变成饱经摧残的模样。我的功用从被欣赏急转直下成挡太阳。而作为城市公园里的雕像，对于自己的命运一样的无能为力。这些漫漫日子里，我早就认清了这个事实。

对周遭的人事物表现的漠不关心，一直都是我武装的方式。有人问过我，玫瑰美丽吗？我说很美丽，却因为玫瑰很美丽，所以它伤人。玫瑰说刺是为了保护它自己。我转过头摸摸身旁的玫瑰花，我不是故意的，但我还是轻声地问了，“那么，刺猬也应该是动物界的玫瑰咯？”玫瑰选择沉默。

我看到一群人从我面前走过，猛地想起了我也要过马路。于是我急急忙忙地向大家的方向奔去，而中途，我就已经完全淹没在人海里，等我到了刚刚对面街，人已散去，而我也没有停下脚步，继续地走。也许，我再也不是人群里突兀的一点。但这样，好吗？我融入了大众，某一种诅咒般，我再也没有办法抽身离开。我习惯了成为人群里匆匆走过的模糊影子。

我是没有目的地却装成很像很有的那种人。被挤压在人群里的我，和人群彼此面对的我，都很压力。我突然预见自己很多年以后变成一个匆匆忙忙的人，匆匆忙忙的起床，匆匆忙忙的睡觉，匆匆忙忙的生活。我难过的哭了。我想要叛逆一次，我一直往前跑去，却发现我只不过在绕着圆形的地球在转圈圈。那里有我要的康庄大道？而我是否真的需要一条所谓的康庄大道？我跑着，哭着，可是眼泪并没有像卡通里那样往两边喷去。它们执著地往下掉，往下掉，往下掉。。。地心引力吃食着他们，更如铁链般拴住了我。我不甘愿，我找了最高的建筑物，想要反地心引力那仅仅的一次，就一次！一次就好！真的。我气喘吁吁地跑上顶楼，很累。有一个人在那里莫名其妙的看着我。他走过来，小心翼翼的端详我，然后说，

“在下李白，敢问阁下尊姓大名？阁下为何气喘如牛？难不成升降机出了故障？”

我无奈的看着他，耸耸肩，说“我叫莎士比亚，升降机没事，我只是喜欢走楼梯”

“一百零一楼呀！兄弟！在下佩服佩服”他不可置信的看着我。

我白了他一眼，说“To Be or Not to Be, that is a question”

他没有一头雾水哦！他当场就拿起了电脑词典按起来。我懒得理他，走到了另一个角落。原来快天黑了啊？

我站在远处观望，落下的夕阳对着我微笑。

我舍不得眨眼睛，舍不得把视线移开，仿佛下一秒，整个世界即将沦陷，而我再也看不见这正在消逝的美好。

“夕阳无限好，只是近黄昏”—李白。

我看着落下的夕阳，勉强地笑了。如果连太阳都敌不过地心引力，我还能说些什么？我承认了我自己最不愿承认的无助。我怀疑我究竟还有多少东西还没有被我自己承认。但我又不敢细细回想，要知道，有些事实，比没得睡觉还残忍。我搭了升降机，感受地心引力。电梯的左下角被人家写了几行字。“Angels Brought Me Here”署名，Guy Sebastian。

我想回去了。这趟旅行，我想用这个日落结束。以垃圾车开头的旅行，不赏它一个像样的结束，那太残忍了。那晚，我去看了一场烟火秀后我就离开了。我收拾行李，带着那个赵薇的天使旅行箱，没有道别就离开了。我站在月台，看着那些意犹未尽的人放出来的烟火。MP3突然播出了烟火的季节。

火车进站，又离开。烟火的季节里，我离开了。当大家都普天同庆般放着烟火，几乎没有人的月台，几乎没有人的火车，我一个人静静地离开。就像当初逃离一样，没有人知道，没有人发现。没有我在意的人知道，没有我在意的人发现。

临走，我收到五月天的简讯，“生命有一种绝对 =)”，他们说。

几个小时后，火车停了。我从被单里探出头来看向车窗外，是一片亮晶晶的海。一个挺斯文的女孩坐在我的左手边，跟我点头微笑。我问她这里是哪里？她说，是最幸福的海。我呆了半秒，然后说，什么烂名来的？她微笑着拿出一张cd给我，然后笑着跟我说“送给你”。我说了谢谢，她也说了不客气，过后我们不再交谈。窗外照射进来的阳光越来越刺眼，她最后起身换了个位子。一路上不停的睡睡醒醒的我，这下乖乖的在cd player按下播放。听完了整张唱片，我起身本想找一找那个女生的踪迹，但已经不在了。也许去了别的包厢，也许到站下车了。没关系，就像她在cd里唱的一样“为挚爱的人，在左边胸口保留位置，是最幸福的事”。就像每个从巅峰掉下来的人爱说的那样，不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。。。说得很好听嘛！

也不知道过了多久，我到站了。有一个很可爱的男生主动走过来帮我拿放在上格的行李。我笑着说他的头发很莫名其妙，他说，对啊对啊！他说他家是开早餐店的，叫做早安，晨之美，还慷慨的给了我几张折扣卷，并跟我说，他觉得每天都要吃早餐，因为那是非常摇滚的一件事！他是大学生，这次是为了要来这里考一个叫做寂寞考的考试。我记得他叫卢广仲，但我比较想叫他无敌铁金刚。他说没关系，然后灿烂的笑。他还教我一个不知道什么国家的语言，Que te pasa 你到底在干嘛？

挥别他，我接到Avril的简讯，她说，when you’re gone，the pieces of my heart are missing you ^^。我回她，keep holding on。我去了Scott Macintyre驻唱的餐厅。他对莫名离去的我重新出现，表现得很惊讶。我告诉他，the search is over。我在那里待了一阵才离开。又是一个傍晚，我在街上逛着，期待还会遇上什么人。结果我遇到了东方神起。他们也有小小的惊讶了一会儿，然后对于我没有带回任何伴手礼而显得很不置可否。不过他们还是很客气的送了我他们最新的韩文专辑。MIROTIC，咒语。

像咒语一般，人生，总是被莫名的力量束缚着。

直觉告诉我，我不会再遇上任何人，还是认命点回家会比较实际。我真的回来了，也顺道传了一封短讯给九把刀，“我决定对十年后的自己投下信任票，绝对不要成为我看不起的大人。”

但上天待我不薄，在我扭开电视的那一瞬间，正正就播出了五月天的“突然好想你”。

“我們 那麽甜那麽美那麽相信 那麽瘋那麽熱烈的曾經

為何我們還是要奔向各自的幸福和遺憾中老去

突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過的快樂或委屈

突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心

最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著不平息

最怕突然 聽到你的消息 最怕此生 已經決心自己過 沒有你

卻 又突然 聽到你的消息”

我唱着想着，唱着想着，唱着我的澎湃，想着我即将发光发热的生命。

最后，我自己encore了。

我拿起吉他，下了第一个音，缓缓唱出，

“怎么去拥有一道彩虹，怎么去拥抱一夏天的风，天上的星星笑地上的人。。。”

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瑪莎：在青春期過了之後 在跟世界認输之前

石頭：體力不是問題 年齡没有关係 後悔需要勇气 热情永不放弃

怪獸：離開青春期 尚未進入下個階段 些許尷尬卻又動人的燦爛時分

冠佑：青春是挽不囘的水轉眼消失在指尖 後青春是緊緊抓住那即將消逝的瞬間

阿信：那些消失的動力 殘存的馀熱 達不到又放不下的夢想 依然期待著火花的生命

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如果我们终究会消失，何不毫不顾忌，写自己的诗？

如果能坐就不要站，能躺就不要坐。

我活着，我杀出我命运。

我喜欢站在一片山崖上看着匍匐在自己脚下的一副一副奢侈明亮的青春泪流满面

没有拍照，虽然章家宴难得回来。不过也因为她难得回来，我们接连出去两天。

星期三去Jusco霸住小孩子的玩具车。

星期四才比较像年轻人一点，我们去唱K。

歌声形成的空间,任凭年华来去自由,所以依然保护着的人的容颜不曾改和一场庞大而没有落幕的恨.

我们真的都长大了，我这么对自己说。陈紫宁跟我讲过，说我们大家现在出去，都很少拍照了。一见面就讲到说再见为止。我深深的认为这个转变有某种层面上的意义，可总是说不上来是什么。我有时候喜欢在我们聊得水深火热的时候，静静地在旁边听（我没有耍自闭！）。

我觉得很奥妙。这群人啊，我们其实很少见面，却在见面时讲最多话。轻轻松松地我们可以干耗整个下午，就只是不停不停的挥霍口水。天南地北地聊一些不着边际的lame话题，然后也不知道为了什么，反正就会一直一直笑。这也是一种变化吧？我们都慢慢地在成长，而以上就是我们用来延伸与体现我们之间的联系的方式。我们常常好久好久都没有联络，却总在难得一聚时叽里呱啦地谈得口沫横飞。

朋友啊，真的是很好的一种存在。朋友就是天使的一种守护。。。

陈紫宁，其实你不需要觉得对我们很抱歉，都是你妈妈的问题，我们懂。这样子，其实别具一番风味，我们才会迫不及待地想长大，想逃离妈妈的魔掌，像孙悟空逃离五指山那样。孙悟空靠的是唐山藏，我们靠的是朋友。冒着被妈妈扣印象分的危险，这样才刺激！

谁是谁生命中的过客,谁是谁生命的转轮,前世的尘,今世的风,无穷无尽的哀伤的精魂.

我回过头去看自己成长的道路，一天一天地观望，我站在路边上，双手插在风衣的兜里看到无数的人 群从我身边面无表情地走过，偶尔有人停下来对我微笑，灿若桃花。我知道这些停留下来的人终究会 成为我生命中的温暖，看到他们，我会想起不离不弃。

这个城市没有草长莺飞的传说,它永远活在现实里面,快速的鼓点,匆忙的身影,麻木的眼神,虚假的笑容 ,而我正在被同化。

在我被这个世界完美的驯服前，我庆幸有你们陪我一起疯狂，因为有你们，让我可以笑着看青春小鸟飞向没有尽头的远方，为青春葬下回忆，继续后青春的生活。

青春是一道明媚的忧伤~~~~ 我没哭,可是眼泪流下来了~~~

曾经一直想让别人知道自己的心情，那些沉重，那些无法讲述的悲伤和苍凉。可是，我要如何在浅薄的纸上画出我所有的命轮？

我站在人群里，伤心的感觉如同灭顶，我的眼泪大颗大颗地滴下来，滴在急淌的时光。

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流星都很美丽，因为流星都拖着一条长长的过去。

我的未来会很美丽，因为有你们的参与，在我的过去。

但愿，人长久。

朋友-自然卷

阁楼上的吵闹声
吱吱喳喳 不停
少了颗眼睛的玩具熊
在埋怨不再有人抱抱他
从什么时候开始
才不敢大声的哭
那几个令人想到就头痛的朋友
是否跟从前一样爱捉弄别人啊
天翻地覆
用力的往前奔驰
因为害怕迷路
冲破了终点享受欢呼
再没有人抱着你一起跳舞

阁楼上的吵闹声已经停止催眠
褪色奖状上的烫金字
发出微微闪光

忙得，连把自己搞清楚的时间也没有了呢！

AOK - 说梦人
词曲：AOK乐队

（~那我先说吧）
我睡不着最近有一堆烦恼
我吃不消因为事情比较糟糕
该怎么做 我不知道 还是你说
他说 还是我告诉我

一开始的梦 现在变成噩梦
一开始的执着 它就是我的选择
我觉的我没有错
就算全世界都认为我在我的梦里继续生活

说着梦的不只我一个
1天2天3天4天5天6天7天
说着梦的不只我一个
它就像一个圆圈 把我圈在里面

我的老朋友 现在只有唐托
你问我怎么样 我又能怎么样
就一句客套话 是那么简简单单
平平凡凡 戳到我的心窝
就象一列火车 带着它的乘客
到达一个终点 又是一个新的起点
不需要同情 只需要信心
那就是我们自己的力量

说着梦的人是我 做着梦的也是我
放不下的也是我 yiye yiye yiye
梦中有我的选择 梦中有喜怒哀乐
遥远却是真实的 说着梦的是我

我坚持最久的一件事情
就是把我的band 坚持到今天
外面下着雨 外面刮着风
我们就打起伞穿起了黑色的风衣
我的赌注 就是我的青春
我不认输 因为有着你们
害怕什么虽然有一点苦
就当是上帝送给我们的礼物

说着梦的不只我一个
看的报纸它也只能是今天的
说着梦的不只我一个
去面对 去拥抱 生活中的折磨

说着梦的人是我 做着梦的也是我
放不下的也是我 yiye yiye yiye
梦中有我的选择 梦中有喜怒哀乐
遥远却是真实的 说着梦的是我
谁现在能够告诉我 你的明天将会去做什么
热泪盈眶的日子已不多
不管梦的结尾 会是什么

I've been learnig guitar.
I've started to read 笑傲江湖。。。。
I'm about to rebuild my chinese.....

There is so much more than what meets the eyes

In respect to the “speaking” test of my treasured friend (or should I say besties?)..Hmm, an English post again I see. Anyway, you’ll get used to it eventually, or you’ll just off and go.

I was surfing through people’s blog just now. And I have to say, WAU!!....they are like so...Different. Since me blogging, I’ve allowed myself to practice a so called hobby, that is to read others blog anonymously. I read and the next moment, I’m off to another one. I always believed that although everyone tends to take blog as a diary or notation of the wonderful lives, (some even lied on it to make themselves SEEM better off) the connection between the blogger and the words never just vanish away. If I read it carefully, I can observe even minor changes over the blogger. Maybe he is upset, maybe she is feeling awesome, maybe he is so lost, or maybe she is falling in love.

I liked blogging, obviously, which then result with the frequent updates, no matter how lame it is, I enjoyed every tiny part of making it happen. It’s pretty much like an addiction for me to sit down whenever I’m free and start to chat with my inner self. I could have just sat there for hours without a word typed, but I am glad, at least I kept myself a chance to always keep in touch with my inner self before I did anything to be regret of.

Never hesitate to curse those who bring you or became a trouble to you. That’s what Jessica told me, if only that gives you strength to live on. I simply do agree. That’s why I’m always sorry for some of my lecturers or known-ones. I’m really sorry to curse you guys but, sorry la; you are the reason why I hate and thus making me curse you. Living on normally is very important. That’s what my idol (Mr.9blades) told me. That’s why I never thought of myself as a loser even in cases that I’m so qualified to be one. Some said I’m over-confident, some said I’m just over-protecting myself. No matter which it is actually, I have to say, as a matter of facts, I’ve been raised from a total ZERO confident girl into who I am today. Anyone without similar experiences can never understand how hard I’ve tried to gain confidence and how hard I’ll try to protect my confident.

Life can be very pathetic without confidence. You see me today talking in front of everyone, telling lame jokes, but there were days that I’m the joke itself. I’ve had enough. I was so small to freak out and run away in those days. Hence, I always told myself to be and stay strong but it’s tiring to hold your tears when you are ruptured! Since I’ve been through all that, I swear to GOD with my heartbeats, I’ll do anything to keep believing in myself.

Some says that I’m too young to upset, to be frustrated, to be tired, BUT let me save you a few words here,

“It’s your era that youngsters like us have none other problems than friends, lovers and homework!”

I’m frustrated, I’m upset, I’m tired but damn you fuckin’, SO WHAT?!

I can still live on with my own encouragement and my very own beliefs, even you said it’s just childish. I’m who I am. Don’t judge me whenever you read any article from any damn newspapers! I was a fool to care about you so much. My concern over your thoughts is what burdens me!

You’ll never know, like you’ve not been caring.

I’m sorry and sad to say, I’ve had enough. I’m all on my own now.