没有爱了，就去旅行吧！

When I’m in an English post, it means that there are a lot of things running in my mind, un-catchable-ly.

There are always times where I can still fooling around in my current stage of life. I can still sleep at 1pm and stay awake throughout the night, and just to have McD breakfast. I can still shout whenever I see Mayday, Dewi, and so much else going-to-be. I thought this is the life meant for youngsters until I see people struggling for studies. They tried so hard to get something which I was like never ever think of appreciating.

I like to ask, what is life? Jessica told me that life is about you. Then I asked again, what is it about me? Jessica said, life is about you searching for the definition for your existence. I said, so? Then? Jessica replied, you know what, you always use your brain and you hardly use your limbs. Jermance flashed out and say, people, can we just talk something simple?

“Simple ar? Simple for you is dumb for me wor…”—kahinn

“Great, you don’t expect me to say something kindergarten standard do you?”—jessica

I’m used to be casual and it’s unlikely that I can be formal within a short period. Mainly because I’m reluctant to. There is a song from南拳妈妈entitled小时候; I surrendered myself to the song. It’s make me feel helpless and like time is flowing like the Amazon River and I was like non-moving stone which stays forever, helplessly.

Fine, the example above is like too heavy and ….ridiculous, but, it’s more or less the same.

It’s my holiday now, and how I wished I could go somewhere…to travel, to switch an environment for different air.

I am easily affected by anything. A song, a movie, a sentence, a phrase, anything that fits my mood at the time, I’ll be holding it like gold until I realize that it’s nothing. Now, I’m very into a song, a very old song, Angels brought me here by Guy sebastian. YAYAYAYA!! It’s very old. DON’T remind me on that.

But I want to end this post with the song “hero”…ok, very old, yet, extremely meaningful

Would you dance
if I asked you to dance?
Would you run
and never look back?
Would you cry
if you saw me crying?
And would you save my soul, tonight?

Would you tremble
if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?
Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die
for the one you loved?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Would you swear
that you'll always be mine?
Or would you lie?
would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Oh, I just want to hold you.
I just want to hold you.
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by your forever.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.

Music is life, Guitar is LOVE

I m so going to a guitar lesson...
不是尽力！是一定要做到！

乌拉拉！我向你看齐！

摇滚吧！邓丽君！！！！

Soul of Rock n' Roll~~~~

人生就是不停的战斗！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

It all started with me saying, I WANT TO ROCK THE WORLD

J:You serious ar? You ok ar? You really wanna rock the world meh?

K:Ya. Why you so shock? So impossible meh?

J:Tzhar Bohr, are you conscious? Or you are still dreaming?

K:Nola! I meant it. I wanna rock the world… Wei, be la a lil’ more supportive..

J:Lady, rock the world wor?? You mean the R-O-C-K rock ar???

K:Yala!! The R-O-C-K rock….very impossible meh?? Wei, what are you doing?

J:o.O I’m calling Jessica, I need a normal human being….

K:I am human la! Ishhh!!!

J:Well, I mean a normal ordinary original human being, not like you this fake human-like creature….erm, hello, jess ar? Guess what? I met a kahinn-like creature. She, or maybe it, says wanna rock the world wor!!!

K:……………………………..

J:Hmm,ok, ok, I’ll try her..erm, will keep you updated!OMG, I’ve got a freak to rescue…

K:Oi!

J:Ok,nw, leekahinn, jess asked you, if I give you a cheese cake and asked you not to rock the world, is it fair deal for you??

K:What cake? Cheese cake ar….hmmm….it is if I get to choose it myself…

J:Fine, then you quite close to be leekahinn..bt just one more question, if I asked you to smash your laptop and then I’ll buy you another one, apple brand, latest version, is it acceptable?

K:NO!

J:Why no?

K:Because lying is your hobby, and seeing others in trouble is your spare-time activities.

J:WAU! Bravo!!!! Let me wipe my tears and should I say, I’ve got my normal leekahinn back!!!

K:Miss Jer, If I ever told you that I had a sweet dream, it'd be you in my dream, acting like JENNY.

J:well, since i'm way too awesome to make it comes true, I don't mind if thats the way you show your envy...you know.......

K:If you die for being thrown eggs, thats just so logical!!

J:You think I'm a frying pan ar? EGGS somemore...

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Jess said,
If you talked to Jer, you're weird
If you chit-chat with Jer, you're incredible
If you happens to like her after the conversations, you're in trouble
If you found out that her IQ was like stopped growing afetr the age of 7,
CONGRTAS!! YOU'RE FINALLY NORMAL AGAIN!!!

Angels brought me here...

首先，水瓶座。水瓶座的人，是12星座里面的头，很早出世嘛！当头的人，不代表他就很强，就好像不是每个班长都是好班长一样。水瓶座是上帝为了告诫我们，人生中，创意是很重要的！有创意的人，就可以开辟新的路，当领头的。不然就只好一辈子当头被人家领。XD 如果水瓶座不抢着第一个出生，可能，他们就什么都不是了。所以，创意就是王道啊！

接下来，双鱼座。不用我说，大家对双鱼座的印象，不外乎就是，“爱幻想”，“追求浪漫”。第一个水瓶座，告诉我们一定要有创意的活着。而现在这两只只会游来游去的小鱼就是为了警戒我们，人啊！不可以活得太过压力。要适当的宠一宠自己，女生可以偶尔幻想一下今晚梁朝伟会来跟你做爱做的事，男生也可以间中幻想一下安洁丽娜裘丽是那个整天偷窥你的小女孩。至少这样的世界，会美好很多很多。幻想也可以是温暖自己的一种方式。

幻想过后，是时候付诸行动了。白羊来咯！人活着就得努力的往前冲，毫无动力的日子是不行的！我们要有侵略性和企图心，才能更进步。刚才的幻想，现在你就得把它实现。当然，是有计划性，和实际性的实现，不是叫你去干掉刘嘉玲，再糟蹋她的男人，也不是叫你去逼你妹妹每天偷窥你再把她改名成安洁丽娜裘丽。我们要求的是实际的！具体的付诸行动！

付诸行动的期间，上帝不忘告诫我们，要保持牛一样的憨厚和勤劳哦！我们必须效法金牛的稳“重”。凡事一步一脚印，按部就班，任劳任怨，脚踏实地的完成。例如你可以先多看几部恐怖片才去杀人，又或者先在家一次过打死十几窝的蜜蜂才去外面单挑人家。。反正就是按部就班，不要急之进取。。往前冲最稳当的方法，就是一步一脚印，才不容易出大事。

再来就是双子座。这是告诉你，当你为目标打拼的时候，你会很辛苦，辛苦的恨不得有两个分身轮着用。错！当然不是！双子座是代表你会遇到很多很多人，你的人际关系可能终于开始出现危机了！你必须很圆滑的面对所有人。当然，如果你做得好，你就是交际高手，如果做得不怎样，你就是那种专门教人怎样沟通的书的读者，如果你做得很差，你就是双面人，笑面虎，小人，任渣，垃圾，etc。

以上，你一定会遇到挫折。所以上帝借着巨蟹座告诉我们，再苦，回家睡多几次就没事了。巨蟹，一个大螃蟹，理所当然有很大的壳，像我们的堡垒一样。在你需要沉淀时把你封锁在你的领土，想你的事，理你的情绪。我们人一定会受伤，受了伤就得要懂得如何回过头，向家人倾诉你的委屈，挥霍你的痛，乱撒你的眼泪，和口水。再继续走下去。我们都需要避风港，挡掉凄凉的寒风。

受过得伤都会结疤，有的会留下，有的会褪掉。但最重要的事，这些伤口的位置我们会记得牢牢的，因为经历过如此，我们才会长成现在的样子。最初的自己不是不好，它就好在很简单纯洁。就好像电话其实很好，可以讲很久不怕没电，但手提电话更符合我的需求。虽然我有一些小细节必须折衷。长大了，我们变成狮子一样，会拥有自己的领土，自己的天空。狮子座有着很大的霸气，让全世界都必须臣服在我们之下。所以狮子座，就是上帝的语言里，终于出头天的意思。

一年快过完了，九月通常会让我想起考试。处女座，是上帝为了告诉我们纯洁的重要性。不论我们之前为了达到目标，最后的最后，我们还是会说，还是最初最好。最初，最纯洁，最纯朴。一个很成功的人，要懂得追求心灵上的纯洁，圣洁，因为，这样才能上天堂。XD 纯洁，所以我们不应该勾心斗角。

再来就是天秤座。这个世界是有公平这回事的。如果你不拥有纯洁的心，你就没办法上天堂。如果你之前没有付出应份的努力，现在你就还是在原地踏步，什么都不是，什么都没有。公平！

接下来就是天蝎座。对于天蝎座，我的第一印象就是“记仇”，“复仇”。已经是年底了，很多很内在的东西慢慢的浮出台面。这么内敛的一个星座。首先，上帝借着天蝎座告诉我们，因果轮回这档事是真的。你之前怎么对别人，你迟早都会有验收的时候。这个世界上，没有什么事是会随着当事人的死去而慢慢干枯，凋谢，fade away。再陈年的往事，都会有债主来跟你谈历史，谈过去，谈回忆。谈不是不报，死期未到。

再来就是人马座。该死的死了，不该死的也有些死了，仇啊恩啊也报得七七八八了。人马座就是你人生最后的那段时期，应该放开一切，当个快乐的人。去旅行，寻找那些生在马身上的人们，或者去拿箭射星星，即使白痴都懂绝对射不下来。都快死了，做些能让自己觉得不枉此生的事吧！（我是真的觉得射手座的都是乐观的人）

Finally，魔羯座。我觉得最沉重的星座。他们沉着，稳重。所以他们静观其变，等其他星座都出生了，他们才不徐不急的慢慢探出头来。他们就是这么稳重，沉着的人。不稳的仗，他绝对不会去报到！也就是说，魔羯座是象征最后的星座，我们真的要噎下最后一口气时，我们要像他们一样，沉重的离去，因为我们有很多回忆带着走，很多人带不走。。。

说不出，旅行的意义

我应该在读书的。

我最近开始很喜欢一部戏，“蜂蜜幸运草”。日剧版本。8TV每个礼拜天下午都有做。3点到4点。（我知道台湾也有一部，可是我很怕又是一部千篇一律的偶像剧，所以一直没有去看，有谁看过的吗？）

是很不错的一部戏。因为故事就是一群年轻人，正在念大学的年轻人，像我。以前我很喜欢看的另一部日剧是“求爱大作战”。现在我还是觉得很好看。这两部剧的共同点就是，故事都在讲一群年轻人，跟我一样，很努力的活着，很无奈的活着。

不是想炫耀些什么，我最近的成绩真的比中学时候进步了。如果现在你问我，为什么我的成绩会是现在这个样子，我会说，因为我开始努力读书了。如果你再问我，为什么现在我会突然努力读书呢？我会说，因为我没事做，就顺便读读书咯。。。是真的。

那天我打电话约2007年的我出来见面，约在周公的家。（以下简称2007年的我为07，现在的我为09）

07：找我干嘛？我现在很想睡觉。
09：我只是想跟你讲，我现在很努力读书。
07：管我屁事。。。。我很饿，你有东西吃吗？
09：erm，没有。你做么酱累？
07：我马不知道。。。sian lo。。。又要考试了。。
09：是啊？我也是要考试了。。。你开始读了没有？
07：现在读又不是会懂啦！懒惰咯！很多课你知道吗！
09：我知道，我又不是没有读过。。。你等下是要睡觉还是读书？
07：看咯，累的话就睡醒再读咯。。
09：哦。。你，加油啦！不过我还是想讲，你等下如果去睡觉先，你一定睡不醒的。
07：==。。。你需要酱吗。。。酱确定？
09：你只小我两岁。我记得很清楚。
07：。。。。。。。。。。酱，如果，如果啦，如果我现在开始努力读书，有可能吗？
09：你觉得，你有可能开始吗？
07：你不是讲你现在很努力读书？
09：是没错，不过，小妹妹，那已经是你两年后的事了。
07：。。。。。。。><’’’
09：。。。。。。。=)

我还是说了。

我是觉得这些话没什么攻击性啦！可是，我有一个朋友却笑到没办法开眼睛。。（我也是第一次听到这个比喻，是有在奇怪的咯）
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又是一个风和日丽的午后。我脑海里的朋友圈子经过了两次的大型恐怖袭击后，我坐在“奥萨马”的车里。忘记怎么回事了，我就跟她提到“公平”这个烂话题。
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我说，这个世界是公平的！不然为什么会有天秤座？这就是因为上帝要告诉我们，这个世界是有公平这回事的。就好像处女座是上帝为了告诉我们纯洁的重要那样。。

好笑吗？这是个多么有深度的话题啊！结果她笑道岔气。不过她还是问，那白羊呢？
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哦！白羊是吗？白羊是为了要告诫我们，人活着就得努力的往前冲，毫无动力的日子是不行的！我们要有侵略和企图心，才能更进步。还有魔羯，魔羯座的人是很稳的，所以你看他们稳重到年尾才甘愿出生。
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她说，魔羯也有年头的啊！
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我答，哦！那个是去年剩下来的。
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她说，佳恩，你不要讲了，我眼睛不能开。

其实我觉得，我讲得很好啊！挺合理的嘛！
所以我决定在这里把完整的12星座都写出来。不过，等下一篇先。不然我不知道这篇文章要如何归类，是纯属恶搞呢？还是专家说法比较贴切一点？还是简直可以报名参加圣经？

我总是这样凝望那些日升月沉无家可归的忧伤

<刚刚上厕所的时候，有一句话从这个世界的缝隙中逃进了我的脑海里。

“这个世界，太缺乏信任了”

有了这句话当开头，我又要开始evaluate这个我们大家的世界了。

该怎么说呢？在这个“动荡不安”的年代，能够中途休息，旁观这个世界永不停息的转动，一直都是我觉得很不错的事情。我回看了这一天下来，我究竟捐出了多少的信任。

结果？没有结果。因为我不懂得区分什么是信任，什么是惯性逻辑。

这个现实的社会需要美丽的词藻，因为现实本身的丑陋已是必然，我们能做的就只是用很美丽的文字，

歌颂几乎溃烂的人心险恶。比如说，我们都说小孩子是上帝赐予我们的礼物，可翻开报纸的时候，我们

顶多为那些惨遭虐待的致以万二分的同情。理论上来说，其实小孩子根本就是性爱过后的残渣。吃火锅总会剩下残残渣渣，差就差在，你怎么处理它。

最近遇到很多让我鼻子酸的事情。不是因为最近是柠檬的季节，而是最近，我遇到很多不错的人。举例来说，今天在星巴克，我就觉得心头暖暖的。因为我点饮料付钱时，那个侍应生问我“how’s your day?”我呆住一秒，才很不好意思地说“Fine…..呵呵”

这句话，问得好好。。让我很温馨。。当这个社会经济已经严重到脸笑容都能省则省的时候，我居然还可以在一天里面收集到这么多笑容。我很荣幸，也很庆幸，老天爷愿意把这份幸福让给我，实在是，感激不尽。

当我看到陌生人对我笑的时候（当然，不是猥亵的哪一种），我会不由自主地整个感动到翻过去。现在的背景歌是survivor的the search is over。因为我最近很喜欢的人—Scott Macintyre唱过，我觉得是有在好听啦。。。

“The search is over, You were with me all the while~~~~~”

听歌的时候，我会觉得心头暖暖的，好像阳光被较上自动温度跳针那样，被柔和的呵护着。带着耳机听歌，坐在巴士上，用我的角度看我的生活环境。我以前纳闷过，为什么世界是不公平的？

“歌声形成的空间,任凭年华来去自由,所以依然保护着的人的容颜不曾改和一场庞大而没有落幕的恨.”

而现在我懂了，人活着，有很多很多很不错的追求。如果一直执著同一个问题，只会妨碍其他更美好的追求。不放开，就没办法掌握其他。Benjamin Button里面那个船长的那句话：

“You can be as a mad dog as the way things were, You can swear, curse the fate, but when it goes to the end, you have to let go.”

YOU have to let go……………

“如果我们都是孩子,就可以留在时光的原地,坐在一起一边听那些永不老去的故事一边慢慢皓首”

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一如往常，后面，我来做ending。今天为大家选来的ending quote来自我的好朋友，陈大眼小姐。

她说，“如果它薄弱，我们就更需要相信它”

海豚湾恋人说，“只要相信，期待就会成真”

如果相信奇迹会让这个世界变得比较美丽，我愿意相信它。

如果等待可以换来奇迹的话，我宁愿等下去，哪怕一年，抑或一生！

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当我已经走到尽头，找到了我人生的最后一片拼图

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我会回来，带回满身木棉和紫荆的清香，然后告诉你，我已找到天堂。

When it goes to the end, where I have to and can only let go, I’ll do so. With tears holding back in my eyes, be like a mature, smiling hardly, waving sadly, moving on slowly…..

“.什么叫快乐？就是掩饰自己的悲伤对每个人微笑。”

五月天说，爱是买不到的奢华

dated:9/4/2009

居然没死eh!

今天很背，背透了。可我还是过来了。没有死。幸好。

怎么说呢？今天感觉就想把运气都大到马桶里面去了，什么狗屁倒灶的鸟事都在今天奇妙的撞在一起。。现在的我才真的有资格写“倒霉的一天”吧？

Nick Vijici说，我们不该比较不幸。

周杰伦说，即使我们再痛，都会有人比你痛。

一天下来，我听着我的五月天，思绪正自顾自的漫游天际。总是在我觉得自己很幸运的时候，就会有一大堆乱七八糟的事情发生。Sighs…

我好像很久都没有认真地在经营我的中文，久得连自己都开始内疚了。不过我也没办法，gossip girl 都是英文呢？

我生命里的温暖那么多，其实我不太介意今天遭到命运的冷待遇。

最近，我又开始了自我集训。这次的目标，有点复杂+别扭。

想要成为那一种人，就得这么努力，或许，还得更努力。很多人说我最近的成绩有起色是因为我选对科了。是吗？我实在不这么认为。对于钱这档事，我虽然抱着多多益善的心态，但对于算钱，我实在不怎么样。

可是我很怕。很怕自己如果考不到文凭。那种感觉，就好像自己的未来被刷上已成深深的灰，向漫步尘

埃的废墟，冲不掉，洗不净。我的未来啊！在哪里Y 在哪里？

我很怕自己以后会是那种被拿来当警戒的典范。我更怕我现在满心期许的下场，只是很久以后一抹夕阳般沉重的微笑。让以前的自己失望，那可是要下一百次地狱的！

一只野兽受了伤，它可以自己跑到一个山洞躲起来，然后自己舔舔伤口，自己坚持，可是一旦被嘘寒 问暖，它就受不了。

之前我很想像陈国星他们那样，挖一个洞，埋一段时光的梦。看来这个，只剩我自己了。当我现在拿起铲子，毅力会通过内力传达到铲子再顺流到洞里面，让毅力和梦想相拥而眠，等我骄傲的回来带他们走。好好的画面。。

**风吹起如花般破碎的流年，成为我命途中最美的点缀，看天，看雪，看季节深 深的暗影。

**不成熟的人为了伟大的事业而死去，成熟的人为了伟大的事业而卑贱地活着。

**有人说：让我死吧！让爱情留下。而我要说：让爱死吧！我要卑贱地活着！

**.我喜欢站在一片山崖上看着匍匐在自己脚下的一副一副奢侈明亮的青春泪流满面

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最后的最后，来许个愿好了：

要理想不要幻想，要激情不要矫情。凡事知足常乐！

--Travel is my way of LIFE while blogging leaves me a copy of every steps of mine.

I love being Quietly Fantastic. I’m better off as an ordinary.

张悬--Scream

也不是真的不要关心
也不是真的不曾介意
可偏我也不是真的拒绝这一切
只留下自己
也不是全都不理不听
也不是真的无从继续
可每一次我的试着坚强
都成了不得已的哭泣
I'm screaming, I'm losing all of it
I'm trying to be mature someday
But ‘til now it's still in vain
I'm bearing. I'm losing all of it
I'm trying to go on this path
But you said I haven't get the jests
也不是真的想尽办法任性
而你懂不懂我懂不懂
其实我心底都珍惜
也不是硬要颠反事理
可每一次我的试着靠近
都成了你看见的抗议
I'm screaming. I'm losing all of it
I'm trying to be perfect someday
I'm bearing; I'm losing all of it
I'm trying to be understood
But you said I haven't had seen it yet
but you said I haven't see the points
I'm losing all of it
I'll try it out; I'll try it out
I'm trying out sometime
I'll try it out someday

there are always words that are worth quoting...
there are always songs that are worth listening...
there are always people that are worth remembering...
there are always memories that are worth dreaming.......

KAHINN--log out from awesome memories,
she is moving on.

Brainlesses motivate me

How I envy those idiot without brain...

I might have an extraordinary-ly big head,
but,urm.....

their head is normal size what...if the place which we usually keep our brain is empty,

then when they walk around, should be like

"kong..kong..kong" sounding...am i not right????

The Account Clown...

I found out that I'm actually quite gifted in the elements of funny..
I wonder why my look is funny oriented?
does that mean I could probably think of getting into the Clown Industries?
That sounds cool to me, but, are they hiring an account clown???
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Will I ever see you smiling back at me?

It feels like we are falling apart.

流星很美丽，因为每一个殉落的流星都拖着一条长长的过去。

The Jay Chou

I once worship Jay Chou and now, I'm still loving him, but
Mayday first of course.

LeeKahInn, Redirecting

It’s late. I know. Well again, be prepared, it’s an English post. I blog like hell these days, don’t I? Its pretty obvious that I’ve been a damn responsive blogger since I’ve changed to BlogSpot, I wonder why?

I was surfing around Lcorner a few seconds before this. And, no guessing needed, I saw those I hated. Did I ever mention about those trend-following-rubbish here? Anyway, whatever it is, I’m gonna do it now, here, if you’d allow me.

Those fuckin idiot, I can’t believe it. They are now happily discussing my idol Mr.9blades which they’ve been criticizes when I used to hold it. What the fuckin hell I’m in! Everything is so not right..Great, since when did I actually so care about who’s sharing the same interest with me? BLOODY HELL!!!!!!Its fine enough to have people sharing the same interest and in some cases, its good. BUT, to share interest with these people, even a minor one is enough to make me feeel insulted. For God Sake, I didn’t mean that 9blades belong to me and none of them should be having it. Just that after every criticism you’ve make, how could you just say you love his books so naturally.

And the, don’t try to show off your 9blades collection to me. Cause no matter how much you’ve got, I’ve got more than you and is damn much earlier!!!

Plus, don’t use those expressions and ask me if I ever read any of those books. Frankly, I read more than 5 times for each book in average.

What on earth are these people doing? If I were to have numerous wish, I’d have considered donating one of them out to wish that those idiots just vanish like what those detergents commercials used to show. Its killing when I see them reading those books which I treasured.

My friends told me to calm down with the thought that I’ve been into this 9blades for approximately 2 years and now only they knew him, it’s rather outdate for them. Although I have tried my very best, but the hatred they harbored just did not seemingly decrease.

Off the rude part, now, I’m bout to try something more deep inside. (I’ll try)

To be honest, I was like kind of fed up hating this people. They just wouldn’t stop!!Every time I’m about to lose my feelings over, they will definitely start a new page of story. If you were to tell me that I should probably let it go, hmm, excuse me, that sounds too “JESUS” to me.

Well, I do have been thinking of letting past stay as where it used to be, but uhm, I need time. I’ve friends encouraging me, but its so much harder than what I’ve imagine. Thus, I’ve decided to not combining my life and emotions. Everything should run free as what it should have been.

I’ve been over-emphasizing on personal freedom; consequently, I caged myself beneath myself. I’ve been realizing things these days. After all those gossip girls, I found that my hatred over those “things” have been very childish. Gossip girls. This drama helped a lot. My language, my view throughout life.

I’m still working on my emotions these days, trying damn hard to figure out something that might help. I hate them, and I don’t wanna deny this. But I really wanna abandon these sucks memories behind my back before it trip me down in the future. Things should be where it should be. That’s the rules and regulations if I want to play safe. Finger-crossed.

To the people I hate, its more than impossible that you will actually be reading this but since its nike’s spirit I’m implying, so Just Do It. People, I dislike you but sorry to say, I’m losing feelings over you people. I need to move on. I don’t know bout you but for me, I aimed for ACCA, I’d rather take you as nothing than enemy. Why? Because take you as nothing will increase the space available in my brain which then allows me to learn more academic stuffs. So, if this broke your plan of attempting to be The-most-hated-of-LeeKahInn, I apologize. Jordin Sparks even spoke a few words for me. She said:

“No matter what you say about life

I learn every time I bleed

The truth is a stranger

Soul is in danger

I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind

Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind

I can’t waste time so give it a moment

I realize nothings broken

No need to worry about everything I’ve done

Live every second like it was my last one

Don’t look back got a new direction”

And this too

“Sick of playing all of these games

It’s not about taking sides

When I looked in the mirror didn’t deliver

It hurt enough to think that I could stop

Admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind

Sorry but I’ve gotta be strong and leave you behind”

Bear in mind, you’d be the last thing I’ve ever wanted to be in my heart just like a tattoo.

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Now that I’m redirecting myself, feel free to say a little prayer for me. Wish me luck.

You know you love me.

X.O.X.O.

Gossip Girls

大冬瓜-- 李逸朗，黎诺懿

边个话我傻　请佢食烧鹅

边个话我傻　请佢食烧鹅

大冬瓜　夸啦啦啦

拉住冬瓜仔　发现好多计仔

冬瓜女　靓到人人都想娶　仲有只变色龙佢最锺意捉虫

乌鸦嘴　流到成面都口水

怕丑草　执到宝　宝宝抱抱

抱着冬菇头个头Ｄ楼　（悭番Ｄ银两唔使买楼喇）

尘世里　需要爱　人间故事总有爱

尘世里　多竞赛　民间结局需记载

尘世里　需要爱　人间故事总有爱

尘世里　多竞赛　民间结局多障碍

其实以我大冬瓜嚟睇　做神仙真系好似冇乜计仔

又要索又要博　对唔住系人要博妖要索　

仲要食烧鹅 俾人话我傻　（你傻咖）

真系边个再话我傻　我就真系走去请佢食烧鹅

BALA BALA BALA~~

尘世里　需要爱　人间故事总有爱

尘世里　多竞赛　民间结局需记载

尘世里　需要爱　人间故事总有爱

尘世里　多竞赛　民间结局多障碍

尘世里　需要爱　人间故事总有爱

尘世里　多竞赛　民间结局需记载

尘世里　需要爱　人间故事总有爱

尘世里　多竞赛　民间结局多障碍

I'll fly like a paper get high like planes

My dear friend,

I really don’t know what to say. I’m glad that you are relieved and I supposed you cried.

“The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie, I said a prayer and fell asleep”
--dream, Priscilla Ahn

I’m not the one who can comfort others when they depressed, like you always do. I just wanna let you know that, you might think of yourself a loser, but deep in a few of us, you are the one who always warm us into the core of our very heart. We do heart you. We need you as our friend.

Sorry for not being helpful in your situation like that. You’re like all alone in this problem.

I might be strong in crapping but in real life, I’m an equal you. It’s less than easy to have me ruptured.

Friendships are like backpack travelling,

“Surprises are surprises no matter how perfect you planned”

Friends create surprises as if it happens naturally. If there exist luck, I think I’ve spent all of mine into my fate with my fellow friends.

Treasures are what I used to call my friends.

::I borrowed the compass from captain jack sparrow, it pointed on my left chest, where my heart lies, where my friends lie::

KahInn has a pretty friend.

Well, since I’m in the middle of the gossip girl’s, do allow me, to have this post in English, with a mood of family.yea, u’re right, its thanksgiving in gossip girl.

Another precious friend of mine had just officially flew out from the cage of 18 and is moving forward, yes, I’m so talking about the April fool girl, ms.THEAM YI YUN. Along with the “tradition” from last year’s April fool, it’s the same batch of people in the celebration. Me, her, and her. We planned a tiny little surprise which cost us to search by walking thru the whole building of the girl’s apartment. Well, what can I say? Birthday girl has it all…

Again, we have proofed the poor memory we have deep inside. As a matter of fact, we both went to sandytheam’s hostel once, which I hardly remember when. I had in mind that this little Miss Theam is living in the fifth floor where she thinks is third...And it turns out, the second. Should I say embarrassing? I supposed not, we’re just, forgetful. DO BEAR IN MIND THAT WE BOTH HAVE JUST BEEN THERE ONCE!!!It’s ok to be forgetful once in awhile…..XD

Oh, before I forgot, thanks to Miss LauSooFeng for making all this possible. The timing, the “cup”…We actually plan to have you as part of the celebration too, just that we forgot to tell. BUT, luckily you didn’t join, to be honest, the cake is more than sucks...It should be very very very sucks…XD

Back to the main, Miss SandyTheam, we’re talking about. I really struggled of saying this, but I’ve swore to GOD that my blog will have my full honesty and hence, THEAM YI YUN, you are absolutely, tremendously, fully, wholly, definitely, prettier than before. (I might not say this often, but, yea, I meant it)….I need time to persuade myself that you’re the one who always food-fight with me, gossips with me, and of course, teased by me….argh!! I know you will be so thrilled by this post but what to do; you really are, so so so much PRETTIER!!

Ok, so that you’re not over thrilled, I’d stop the praising section.

I seldom hang out with you. But, as a friend, I do enjoy hanging out with you. You are my close friend whom I always report my recently to. You’re also among my people whom I really care and couldn’t bear to lose, even for one second. You’d listen to my stories, my lame jokes. You’d observe my actions, my blog entries, and my life. You’d reply my messages even though I just sent it out of no purpose. Making your birthday a good day is my responsibility as a friend. ^^
I should say that the surprise we planned is a success, am I not right? It’s good to see you running to us, but it’s kind of yukky to have you kissing us…ughhhhhh….your saliva!!! Oh my…..XD

Anyway, I hope you love your birthday celebration from us, keep it as a memory.

As previous, it’s your birthday, we had memory, we had cakes and we had present. It’s marvelous!

Speaking ‘bout the present, it’s full with our wishes, and for the little regret of forgetting to write on the birthday card, do keep it and remember to claim from us. I’ll try to post that video of you in Cantonese—so called, as soon as possible. Everyone should share the joy of you improving your Cantonese…BUT, a lot of effort is still needed though.

Its late. Plus I’m having a class early tomorrow, so a photo of this April Fool Girl should be good enough for a smile-worth-ing end. Sleep tight.

You know you love me. XOXO. Gossip girls.

we gave our words, IRREPLACEABLE de 613

还etc leh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

法克说，“请重复念我的名字，那将赐给你勇气！”

Dear friend

好朋友？

好朋友！！