逃不过，一场空

学期才刚开始，实习的事情就一直烦着

偶尔怀疑自己究竟可不可以

却又觉得不放手一搏是最白痴的失败理由

上个学期的成绩不行，很不行。

所以这次对于实习的期待就像云顶的其中一个水上设施一样

高处滑落，水花四溅，湿了一身，一点意义都没有。

好贴切。我想要的几家公司好巧不巧都有那种满分的人在考虑。

干！成绩考那么好就不能去更苛刻的公司吗？

干嘛来抢我们这种平明百姓的饭碗？

没办法啦 成绩不佳 资格没有 抱怨丢脸

我甚至连履历表那些啦哩啦杂的都没有开始写

同学问我到底在想什么

我这边回答你

“我在想我下个星期可不可以去看戏”

反正实习这档事我穷操心也不见得有什么用

也只好做些事情不让自己那么消极啊

日子还是要过

“日子不需要是最奢华的，可笑容一定要是最真的”

这几天一直在想5年后的我会在哪里？

毕竟开始实习的意思就差不多代表人生另外一个阶段即将来临

而我还不怎么确定我究竟准备好了吗

要准备些什么

我真的就这样可以吗

以前觉得生活品质很重要

但现在觉得吃饱穿暖就已经很伟大了

人要求的太多，反而不容易快乐

而如果我只是要快乐，那我只要一只笑那就可以了吗

我怕以后自己变成自己不喜欢的大人

我想起了“后青春期的诗”

那是一种面对转变的彷徨茫然

西瓜结婚后虽然开始和自己所谓的梦想背道而驰

但他还是很疼老婆孩子

还是了解梦想很远，但老婆孩子就在自己面前

虽然驾着很普通的车，过很普通的日子

但那种安稳的背后隐藏着沮丧， 沮丧里终归有安稳的矛盾情绪

最后都变成了朋友抬杠时一声声，掷地有声的“干！”

虽说人生五味杂陈，但每个人还是偷偷的期望自己的甜味可以多一点

这就是人啊，有思想，所以有期望，也因此有失望。

前几天和朋友谈到“求爱大作战”和“野猪大改造”两部戏

野猪里面的主角说过，

“再过几年，就要打着领带，穿着正式的上班过生活。再也无法像现在那样随心所欲。”

当有些感慨，从别人的口里出来，却硬是窜进你心坎底的时候，我们都会下意识地微笑。也许是要掩饰尴尬，也许单纯的，只是要做出一些敷衍的反应。

如果我们都是孩子，就可以赖在原地，看满天星，听永不老去的故事，慢慢皓首。

但我们已经没有资格那么做。因为我们离开了那个时候。

不再是孩子，而是正值青春的青少年。而有一天我们也会离开这个时候。

有人说小孩都爱装大人，大人都爱装小孩。

是因为错过了才懂得珍惜吗？所以不惜一切的重温？

有时走在街上，看见明明15，6岁的少年打扮超龄，言谈举止有所保留，把自己包装成二十几岁的样子。

我不禁怀疑世界怎么了？真想走过去拍拍他们的肩膀，告诉他们

“唉，有很多事情，过了你这年龄就没有资格做了你知道吗？20岁的生活就留到你20岁的时候再过吧！活在当下讲的就是这个！”

一转身看到一个学院的同学，扎了两条小辫子，穿着小孩的衣服，活蹦乱跳的娃娃音。我也好想过去说，

“唉，周杰伦唱了那么多年也没有回到过去，就凭你？”

可是看见他们看着我的眼神，还是算了。反正自己也不是什么了不起。

除了思考力，我什么都没有了。

生活不是林黛玉啊！不会为了忧伤而风情万种。

有时候想到一个地方，坐下来，躺下来，看来来往往的人群。

常常想到海边去当一天的流浪汉，边缘人。

去体会这个世界，去好好的体会。

但这个国家的流浪汉都好勤劳，都在兼职。

除了流浪汉的正业，通常都顺便当抢劫犯，强奸犯，绑架犯，遛鸟侠。。

反正很忙。

既然自己没有这个本事，所以也只好作罢。

唉。

现在在上课的时候还是常常恍神。

总是看着讲师的嘴巴一开一合的

总是看着书上的字字句句

总是看着一个方向

然后掉入思绪的无底大洞

回忆，思考，幻想

随便一个我都可以耗掉好多时间

然后一直到有人发现我静止了好久

才会把我叫醒。

学生嘛！没有试过在课堂上恍神等于少学了一种生活技能

毕竟未来的日子会有好多好多的人渣

面对这种人当着你的面高谈阔论

最两全其美的当然就是躲到自己虚构的世界去

因为只有那里有很多很多你爱的人事物

不分昼夜不分远近的任你差遣。

在全世界都离开，背弃你的时候，只有那里可以任你猖獗。

在那里，风为你而吹，雨为你而下，阳光为你而金黄。

和着淡淡的音乐，现在是晚上11.34，星期三。

明天要上两堂课我才可以回家。

两堂的教授我都很不喜欢

所以我无奈。

功课不想做，摆着。

实习不想烦，摆着。

之前有个朋友跟我说她觉得我真人和这里文章写的很像。

不是讲我很圆那回事，有些不争的事实不需要常常提起。

她指的是我对事情的看法和应对吧我想

她说她的一个“朋友”也在写部落格，但却和他的真人大相径庭

差不多就是100%的反义词？

我听了当然有很爽。这是一定要的啊。

做人坦荡荡，真叫我当仁不让！

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所有知道我的名字的人啊！你们好不好？

瑪莎：在青春期過了之後，在跟世界認输之前

石頭：體力不是問題，年齡没有关係，後悔需要勇气，热情永不放弃

怪獸：離開青春期 ，尚未進入下個階段， 些許尷尬，卻又動人的燦爛時分

冠佑：青春是挽不囘的水，轉眼消失在指尖。 後青春是緊緊抓住那即將消逝的瞬間

阿信：那些消失的動力，殘存的馀熱，達不到又放不下的夢想，依然期待著火花的生命

释迦侔尼脸上的表情永远是慈悲,

可千山万水五行三界却还是逃不过一个空

didnt really planned to blog

as i was SUPPOSED to do some assignment stuffs.

but i read that.

i miss my friends. ya. thank god i had friends.

reading posts

spending time remembering my pass

how did i make it here with these people

got a call today

when i'm actually lost in between some issues

its good to hear your voice my friend

well i know you know i'm not going to do any help in your situation

still very glad you called

i'm still considering those issues

but then, i know i'll have it figured out

when the time comes

all these things bothering me right now, i'll just let go.

don't rush to the conclusion.

I checked my blog archive just now and yea

i realized i only have 11 posts on September.

kinda rare.

for i used to have an average of 20 for each months.

what happened during september?

I was feeling terrible loneliness in me.

yea

then friends keep in touch

then i got it all figured

lol

i really misses my friends.

library again. been seriously considering marrying with the library.

BAH! joking of course.

ohnofreaking waysss!

am now doing a quiz in facebook, title: what city should i settle in?

when i was young, (till now still),

i have been dreaming of leaving here, and go overseas.

like you know, UK...US....Aus...Paris...

and i know, for facts that everyone has this lil dream.

but some woke up fast, some haven, some never.

and this recent, i have been thinking of Shanghai.

I like it, and why? great, very lame, but urm, its because that one drama and also i have this unexplainable thing with china's accent. i don't know, but i just grew to like it more and more.

If i were to come across any china-accent page or passage,

I'd always read it out loud over and over again....really, REALLY like it man!

oh, and i got my results. some place i never heard of.

no idea still.

but it sound good isnt it?

There's so many things running in my mind right now.

like internship, like future career?

i was asked why i didnt be a doctor by my niece

and i told her, you will know when you learn the word BIO.

and few friends have been asking me am i really gonna be a freakin accounting people?

and i just smile and give nonsense answers.

If only i dare to tell them the truth.

I wanna be traveler, who lives no home and go on and on from a stop to another.

i envy people like that.

like never stay and always on the move.

alright. i went reading some news just now and forgot to come back.

now i lose my mood.

so, maybe some other time

风儿轻轻吹

作词：罗大佑　作曲：罗大佑　编曲：陈玉立/丹尼

风儿你在轻轻的吹

吹得那满园的花儿醉

风儿你要轻轻的吹

莫要吹落了我的红蔷薇

春天的花是颗小蓓蕾

夏季里艳红的更娇媚

秋天它花瓣儿处处飞

冬季里心碎是为了谁

好吧。我承认之前所说的我看不下去闪亮的日子是假的

我还是定时定后的看

也就只是不想再看佩芬一家怎么怎么发生事情

然后我还是觉得范天齐的角色设定很想之前的一元

就很像啊

然后以安就很一美啊

我很想上网search它的大结局

但不行

我要忍住！

我要一步一脚印！

hmmmmmm

i watched EatPrayLove.

the one movie i've been expecting for,erm, VERY long

it's definitely not disappointing.

its just worth it even minus all those stories and only show me ItalyIndiaBali

again, I was reminded of Bali.

the one place in my dream list that i've had a tick behind

friends said we're gonna rock this on-earth heaven down next year

but my bank account, urr...hmm, we will see what can we do.

so back to EatPrayLove.

damn, i wish i work in a library so i can have all kind of books i wanted

and get paid for being around with them!!!

urgh!

cant believe i'm googling for part time librarian in penang.

NO RESULT FOUND.

boom, there goes my dream?

man...i do think having a librarian as a dream is rather....pathetic,

but i think i'll do well social-ling with all those words and books

i might end up getting myself a phd or something...*ding!

so these days, i was thinking of what am i seriously gonna live my life upon?

i mean, WHAT TO DO IN FUTURE?

like get a job, get a life?

speak you easy!

what job?

i was having this question in my mind turning round round round

like some ballerina or something, IT JUST WOULDNT STOP

because i'm so stuck in this question?

i told friends that, hey, IMMA BE A LECTURER.

some says wow, you gonna rock,

some says, WTH WERE YOU EVEN THINKING.

most of them are in between this 2 reaction...==

yea yea yea

one of my friend even thought of screwing this whole damn accounting

and go be a flight attendance.

and she is serious that she had me accompanied her all the way to do researches over cosmetic surgery

Life eh? it's just T.I, "whatever you like"

so that one day, i sat facing the laptop

made up my mind that i'm gonna get myself some serious info over getting a master

and plan my career.

oh damnit, i end up watching annoying orange, the birthday party's episode..

I think i...urr....went too far away from my original title again...

EatPrayLove. ya.

urm, maybe some other time.

my songs are done downloading, time to sleep.

Its not that bad, or else you would have walk away.

20 minutes to next class

playing hide and seek with the damn weather in library

i see some of my classmates here though

busy with their assignments

i'm supposed to be too.

i logged into my facebook with a few very day-brightening posts on my wall.

love it. love my friends to be precise.

i was talking bout the constant tiresome i felt throughout

and then i recalled a short story i read previously

it goes this way:

a dog laid on the ground and accidentally had a nail stab right through it

it started mumbling or you know, "woo woo woo" that kind of

"i-hurt-so-bad" voices are created

a man passed by and asked this old granny(damn, arent granny supposed to be old?why mentioned again?) sat right beside the hurting dog

"EI, the dog is crying for help, how could you ignore it?"

the granny held up her head, adjust her specs, glance over the dog,

very slowly she says:

"OH, it's hurt, but its not that bad until the dog cannot stand.

if it had been too bad and the dog couldnt take it,

the dog itself would stand up and walk away."

yea. i guess this is the answer to my question.

i mean, of course we feel tired. after everything. or else, there wouldnt be need of drugs

but is the tiresome so bad that we couldnt stand anymore?

no. or else i would have really made up my mind and just WALK AWAY.

aint that bad YET.

i'm not a girl like in drama where i have a very ......pity destiny.

i'm an ordinary where i have normal lives and ups and downs of it.

in other words, i'm considered a very-much blessed one.

i'm learning to accept this fact,

that i'm just as ordinary as possible.

and i need not give extra damn.

YEAH!

BTW, i find this article INSPIRING,again, my idol, giddens.

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/Giddens/9345396

and i'm already planning to write the past me a letter.

discovering some disaster truth

ruining some over daydreams

凄凉也是一种美

历久会弥新

时间是考验

这句话很对

最近想看戏

“东京爱情故事”

好像挺不错的样子

当我真的体会历久弥新

我静静的

什么都不想说

只是一直想

一直回头望

也只有走过去以后

才发现刚刚的风景

其实也有不一样的一面

什么是历久会弥新

那只有时间能帮你参透

那得要经过好长好长一段时间的沉淀

然后你才会发现究竟逝水年华里

那些被冲洗掉的回忆残骸中

还剩多少拼得起来的画面

我刚刚一直在读自己旧的文章

原来不管什么时候

我都没有停止累过

一直一直都在喊累的自己

现在看来不过如此

人生的际遇就犹如金字塔般

一直往上叠，再往上叠

我知道如果有一天那一个际遇没有被好好的归类堆叠收纳

那个金字塔会崩塌

所以我都好好的读自己的一字一句

一方面缅怀

一方面学习

怎么走过来的，现在就怎么走过去

怎么跌痛的，现在就怎么避开一样的陷阱

人生就特别的地方就是我们有记忆，有历练

这些过去会一直烙在脑子里

日子一长，它会变成一种潜意识

也许我并不如我所说的那么累

只是习惯了总要把自己打扮得很忙

装饰得很累才有好好活过的样子

就好好的，细细的，解读一下，我究竟在累些什么吧？

20岁的人，这么容易累，可能中了什么世纪末绝症也说不定

干

巴厘岛的

一直很喜欢的照片

常常都会翻看那次旅行的照片

有时候会冲动的想把好多张都洗下来

贴在墙上

现在的墙壁贴的都是杂志的照片

只有少数几张是和朋友的照片

还有几张一直没有去洗

甚至迟迟没有把照片挑出来

巴厘岛啊

我真的很怀念

度假天堂嘛

那个什么都不用想

就尽管花钱找快乐

然后也不懂什么是功课

忘了什么是deadline

悠游自在地悠游自在

what goes around, comes around.

this middle of night

my friend started the topic about future

where is mine? and he is looking for his.

emo. miserable.

as i study my course right now, i grew to face the fact that,

LEEKAHINN, i don't see you in an accounting firm in 5 years time

where will i be?

i recalled all my pass ambitions again.

if i were to given a chance to start all over again,

i'd still have those same dreams

at least those dreaming times were the best part in my life

"somebody take me back to the days

before this was a job

before i got paid"

--airplanes

they say the worst day in your life shape you

the best days were like pamper you around and make you down each time they're gone

like how i said,

Worst days in life makes you strong,

Best Days in life makes you feel unfortunate,

what will i be after my acca?

i dunno.

screw planning.

I'm only interested in writing shitz!!

I'm getting the popcorn ready for "what goes around, comes around".

什么时候，我们才会对这世界，没有怨言啊？

有点忘了何谓滔滔不绝。

平淡的日子让人丧失回忆的能力。依稀记得某个之前的感觉，却没有任何片段。

日子还是这么过着。曾经那么怀念都会熬过来的，所以现在我也会熬过去。只不过该有的情绪还是要有。若真的六根清净我早出家了，还等呢！

在家里翻箱倒箧的找一张cd，一张我还是没有找到的cd。

然后不小心找到一张以前的珍藏。

密密麻麻的纸上，水泄不通的句子，泛滥成灾的想法。

不知道为什么珍藏会落得夹在橱与橱之间缝隙的地步

我拿起来，一字一句去读。好像是15岁时写的。我记得，但我又忘了。

15岁的我，还没有认识我现在很珍惜的朋友们，erm，至少还不了解为什么需要珍惜朋友。15岁好吗。我怎么知道我有一天也会离别，也会怀念。但就算我隐约知道又怎么样，没有离别，就不可能会有离别才有的领悟感知。所以，我无奈。我记得我曾经误以为好多人是我的好朋友，结果好多人变成了朋友的朋友。不跌到，怎么可能知道家里的药箱里面有些什么。不受伤，就不能知道自己皮肤下的究竟是什么。不留疤，就不会记得每一次的痛和记忆。不留点血，又怎么能确定自己不是一个冷血动物？

该来的总是会来。我总是这么说。所以该沮丧的时候那就沮丧吧。沮丧至少适合90后的流行。可以一边伤心，一边赶潮流，多方便。重点是，不用钱嘛！

那天很无聊的和同学跑到书局坐了好久。看完了很多本想买的书。没钱嘛！可书还是得看。我坐的位置很不错，一抬头就可以看见整片的书海。我一直很喜欢小时候看过的一部电影（干材烈火，by杨千嬅古天乐陈慧珊）里头古天乐新家的设计。可惜我google不到照片，算冷门的戏吧，所以没多少资料可循。

具体地说，那间家除了是我最爱的开放式，还加了一个重点，他把客厅堆满了书，然后摆上一个看上去就是很好坐吃睡的沙发。所以我才在毕业的时候需了那个愿望。全世界最美丽的屋子。17岁，不烦考试，净想些不切实际的。

刚刚注意到自己曾经疯狂追阅好几年的杂志编辑结婚了。还看到他们的结婚照噼里啪啦。不认识的，不过就是基于虚荣心所以一直add在facebook那里。那个时候的我，梦都梦不到我会有今天，念着会计。那个时候的我知道了，可能会真的就疯了？

中三那年我打过一份暑期工，很短。但很累。过后我用我所有的力气呐喊，我他妈的绝对不会走会计着一条路。

干！

不说了。说了心沉重。

但我还是有很多怀念的，还没有讲完。

灵魂很轻，想法很轻

我曾经许过一个愿望，但愿，我能够大情大性.

因为我觉得，有什么就表现出来是一种很方便的态度。方便，以为不需要记得些什么，完完全全的照自己的想法。不需要记得自己撒过什么谎，乱讲过什么话。

而我今天仔细地倾听自己，喜欢自己喜欢的歌，喜欢自己喜欢的人，喜欢自己喜欢的兴趣，喜欢自己喜欢的作家。发现也许吸引力法则还真的有那么一回事。人啊，总还是会朝自己心目中的最渴望前进，这个我相信。我看过很多的美梦成真，或大梦想，或小愿望。但无论是两者之间，都有那一种最重要的渴望元素。只要动的渴望，就会想要实践。至于事成事败，全取决于个人造化。

我看见很多自己梦想成真的灿烂火花，也听见很多梦想破灭时清脆的破碎声。有的时候我捡拾着破碎的梦想，孤芳自赏，暗自垂泪。有的时候我躺在原地看着为我而灿烂的烟火，兴奋不已，喜极而泣。

常常听到类似的话语：“人生就是充满了五味杂成的味道”。

我的灵魂导师，九把刀先生也说过“人生就是不停的战斗”。

如果人生的本质就是让我们走一遭，那多看点风景才比较不会亏本吧？

既然如此，又何必在意你看到的是南非难民营，抑或是纽约大都市呢？

以前觉得自己很聪明，好像懂很多别人不懂的周边知识，过后发现其实每个人都懂这别人不懂的周边知识。然后觉得自己的愿望很高尚，但现在一块招牌掉下来砸死一百个人，随便99个都想要流浪当摄影师出书自称作家。还有的那一个已经在实践中。

多少甚至没有看过一本摄影书的人拿起专业相机随便照几张，总会有一两张登得上大雅之堂。多少人对那些摄影展的照片一知半解，甚至不知不解，却假会的对照片评头论足。

那天在书局看完了一本标榜摄影的文学小品。发现自己原来也变得肤浅，不停追求着虚拟的所谓摄影技术。渴望着别人一两句的赞美，拍着一成不变的照片。以为拍海边就是浪漫，拍高山就是辽阔，拍人物就是人情味。今天在书局晃了很长一段时间，看了好多一直想看的书。我想去图书馆工作。真的。对阿，我就是个没有大志的人。反正大志也不可以吃啊！

我想，我还是找到了我想要学习的摄影方向。想拍那就拍吧！如果有一天我去流浪，我会带着一台拍立得，和每个我遇到的人合照，留给他们作纪念。强迫人家留着我的相片。人生苦短，我不想错过任何一个交朋友的机会。世界很大，愿望很多，人生不长。

上一个学期的成绩不好，所以接着下来的实习备受影响。我想过了，不过就实习呗！前天听讲师在讲的时候，心里其实很懊恼，我问自己为什么，我回答自己就这样呗！然后回家看着叶启田上猪哥会社的片段。对啊！人家欠个一两亿，宝岛歌王当到满身债，还到监狱去待。他的重新开始应该，比我想象的惨上一千倍，毕竟它可是亲身经历。但上帝说我们不该比较灾难。然后听他唱爱拼才会赢，我笑了。世界没有末日，天还没有塌下来，一切，还来得及。

有同学说如果真的实习不行，那就到云顶赌场去打工。太远了。别说我爸妈，我自己都不是很放心我自己。但还是会打工，就近找一份临时工，混日子，至少不要让妈妈担心我会一事无成也不错。实习嘛！之后还有一次机会。

最近都在忙着自我怀疑。怀疑自己是不是真的会就此一生？二十岁就学人家谈就此一生，毕竟还小，想什么或说什么都不会多顾虑些其它。

一年总有一天，我的好天气

在咖啡厅伪浪漫

让我很怀念某部分的时间

怀念书架上总是满满的时候

怀念行程表总是满满的时候

怀念和朋友躺在地上讲好久好久的电话

天南地北

日子好像很轻松

好像而已

现在想起考完spm的日子

生活轻松的很奢侈

现在总是忙着

忙着功课

忙着把很短的假期过得超级充实

一字记之曰：忙

现在在看某些上市公司的年终报告

怀疑自己是不是可以真的和这些数目字朝夕相处

毕竟真的无趣之极

偶尔后悔自己当初是不是应该多努力

至少现在可以读一些快乐一点的科系

但又不得不承认根本就没有快乐的科系这回事

不过就是大家对于自己范围以外的东西固定会产生的遐想

至少我并不真的觉得有吧

事情都是要实际的去完成才真的参得透

也许每一个男子全都有过这样的两个女人，至少两个。

娶了红玫瑰，久而久之，红的变了墙上的一抹蚊子血，

白的还是"床前明月光"；

娶了白玫瑰，白的便是衣服上沾的一粒饭黏子，

红的却是心口上一颗朱砂痣。在振保可不是这样的，

--张爱玲，（我忘了什么书）

现在听着寂寞寂寞就好-hebe

好一个寂寞寂寞就好啊

“我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱

就讓我一個人去 痛到 受不了 想到 快瘋掉

死不了就還好”

--是爱情的吧，但就是有几句挺不错的

thank god for blessing this rocking kid oF yours.

*i just love that "Photo memories" features of facebook

I got reminded of lil by lil each time i glance through it.

and so i read a blog post of a girl, well

somehow the kind of teacher-like-her-freaking-bad student

lol

because she is a student

I used to feel sorry for her.

LOL!

( people say when you say you feel sorry for someone,

its just another more-politely-seemed way to tell that person that he is pretty messed up.)

so i feel sorry for her

because its like my hobby to feel sorry for star students

ahla whatever

i don't know her and i'm not supposed to give a damn

there're always lotsa dramas revolving around everyone

My class among the 4 seems like a peaceful one to me.

as compared to my another friends class.

constantly stories bout conflicts and assignments grouping

urgh, for god sake,

i've been through that and thank god i'm not doing it again

my class is a female dominant class. only 2 males.

which at most of the time, they are just...as mute as possible.

we don't really get along like other classes

where they go barbeque or birthday bash together

my class was like,

"WE DONT GIVE A DAMN ON ANYTHING"

that's actually one kind of attitude that i'll fit in

which i only get to realize it now

who doesn't want a happening class where everyone have fun everytime?

but it seems like i fail in every classes.

my diploma classmates(shamely saying)

they are having damn friggin fun with their current mates

what bout me?

still acting sober like what i used to

keep all those lonely and silence to myself

but i tried asking myself,

if my class were to organize something like gathering or something

mostly i wouldn't turn up

(and thank god they didnt)

i always think its super-duper childish to try ENHANCE relationship by meeting up after classes

its either i have some crush on you and i wanna be with you

OR

i'm sicked of seeing you so much in class and GIMME A BREAK

a huge knowledge people!

if its so easy of just gather up people

and have some food and chats and they get over issues,

HA!

what's with the bombing and terrorist attacks???

wake up. or precisely,

GROW UP!

my friend told me bout one this sissy guy in her class

where he constantly wants their class to be the perfect or the BEST class among us 4.

lol.its funny isnt it

I dont really meet sissy in my life

mean, i meet either normal guys funny guys serious guys or....mad ones.

but sissy? i barely have.

and from what movies showed me,

sissy used to be...friendly?

but then i saw Onch in Paris Hilton's BFF

......he should change his name to OUCH!

i hate him so friggin a lot

and then i met a Ouch-in-the-making in my lecture hall.

lol.....

like previous, i dont know him and he doesnt know me either

but honestly,

if you sit down in a restaurant and heard people beside start ordering

"i want pork less oil, vege the freshest, chicken the youngest"

don't you feel a strong desire deep down in your heart shouting

"SLAP HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MARTHAFUCKERBULLSHIT"

yea...i used to wonder what brought me into this total silent class after such a noisy class last year?

now i know, cause i've been in drama-surrounding for too long

finally i reach that one stage where no more dramas

and all my headaches are those tough questions on papers with different marksss

phewww~

relieved!

thank god for blessing this rocking kid oF yours.

=)

omg. i think i looked professional in this photo...

when i think of you, I don't feel so alone

Vanilla Twilight sort of reminds me of this scene i saw from "30 days of night 2"

I saw it from part II which i cannot really tell about the scene

the scene is actually a cut out from part I

but i'm touched somehow

I have an impressions with vampires through 9blades novels

erm, which twilight newmoon are just getting further and further away from what i thought vampires are supposed to be

but this movie, although the vampires are still not what i used to thought

but i love it

i want this movie badly

i was watching some scenes of part I right now

well, honestly saying, part I is way better than part II

maybe because i expected more

well, whatever, the sunset scene is the most touching ever

reminds me of guai li wang

when he requested to die under sun

just to feel that sunshine for the one last time

vampires (to me) are supposed to be like this

when they are under sun they die

but vampires in twilight newmoon that kind

they just become shining? under sun...

nahh! too romantic and ridiculous for me

after so many vampire stories i've read from 9blades.

i like the vampires in 30 days of night a zillion times over the edward cullen guy

who is fair as a girl

and silent as a ghost

Vanilla twilight has awesome music video too

Fireflies music video was a thumb-worthing one

and this one, i think i actually started liking the song from its music video

just so nice that i kept watching it again and again

Vanilla Twilight-Owl Cities

The stars lean down to kiss you

And I lie awake and miss you

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly

But I'll miss your arms around me

I'd send a postcard to you, dear

'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue

But it's not the same without you

Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad

'Til I look at my hands and feel sad

'Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways

Though I haven't slept in two days

'Cause cold nostalgia

Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight

I'll sit on the front porch all night

Waist-deep in thought because

When I think of you

I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone,

I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink

I'll think of you tonight

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter

And heavy wings grow lighter

I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew

But I swear I won't forget you

Oh, if my voice could reach

Back through the past

I'd whisper in your ear

Oh darling, I wish you were here