So raise your glass if you are wrong, in all the right way

Day wasnt really good, got pretty damn screwed up for tests

like real bad results, well, its ok.

at least i felt relieved realizing its not like i dont know how to do

just i am careless and mainly owing to lack of practice..

like, Phew~~~~

duh then thats it, test aint something that got on my day

its just, i dont believe in grades when it comes to learning

at least i've learnt a lot in this world that NO-ONE can possible grade me overall

results is a tiny part, very tiny

sky is your limit, and i havent found my limits yet.

mum is on for her own getaway trip

yeah, if i were her i would do the same

kids got their own stuffs to busy of, and she can still walk like a normal healthy person

its time we get down for some travelling aint?

i hope she have fun. well, when it comes to travelling, my mum aint that bossy

she can be real easy-going at times

i realize this during our trip to Bali.

like when i can just turn my head and say, hey mum i want this

then i will get the cash

picture this in Malaysia, its either my mum put a sarcastic smile or..."YOU'D WISH"

parents.

its friday tomorrow

and im going back to hometown

no more hooray this time...weekend kinda mean the "beginning" of  revisions

argh. exams are round the corner again

things get less scary as it was when we got the attitude right

im adjusting myself

i have this wish that when im off college, i can be someone positive

someone very positive that she can get real happy

and obstacles dont get her down

i used to think if i wish for something hard enough than i will get it

something like "secret" have been telling

but i dont know

sometimes i dont even sure if i really want something

or could it be that i just...pretend like i wanted it

it sounds like there wasnt so much of big difference

but in the middle of the nights, lying on bed and seeing stars and all

you will see the tiny scars on you that you may not even have realized

you will start talking yourself through some hard times in life

and you just realize how weak you actually are

its ok to be weak 

just, behind every strong spirit, there lies a weaker one

the strong will protect the weaker one in front of everybody

but when no one's there, they cry together, horribly

we all have weak and strong sides

just, im better because when my weaker side is on duty

i got my friends to count on

like when i feel comfortable to tell people i screw up my tests

without having to worry would they care for me or laugh at me first

thank god for the friends im having, whatever i will do, please dont take any of them away

i like how friendship works, like siblings, but at least they wont betray you for parents candy 

cause in a friendship, we cover shits for each other

time for bed. 

bout the test i screwed, urm its Strategic Finance Management. 

A subject that bored me just by saying its abbreviation---SFM

DUH. i still gonna work hard for it

flunk is not a choice. its often a result of no choice.

im not gonna feel ashamed and yes,

i failed horribly in that subject, 

so horrible that i think i kinda saw Lord Voldemort kissing Hermoine Granger on the test paper

But i still am gonna work hard for it, no pain no gain

failing means i have lotsa space to improve and lotsa catching ups

it just mean, more work. not impossibility. 

so chill LKI, we got a life to rock. and now, lets just roll with the exam for fun

i said im addicted to life, and i just cant get enough

so this is the combination of  feeling of 

"regret-of-not-working-harder" and "i-should-have-been-more-careful"

right.i'll add in to my feeling-collected list.

you know when you feel so angry with yourself,

you should try "Raise Your Glass" by Pink.

"So raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways"

 --Pink

wrong isnt guilt.

i know this whole passage sounds more like me comforting myself

but yeah, of course im bothered with the terrible result

and im pretty sure i myself will well be the one to talk myself through

as long as i can put this fall behind my back, 

again,

I'M READY FOR ANOTHER CHAMPIONSHIP.

BRING IT.

like so ready. =)

我不想去遠方 我只想呆在家 陪你說說話

我有一個朋友 每當吃到什麼好吃的都有留一份帶回家分享

我們曾經開玩笑說他是賢妻良母 可是我永遠記得他曾經說過：

“我覺得吃到好吃的東西是很幸福的，那是一種從體內而外散發的幸福。平時我們的幸福是從外而內的，可能是感動的戲，感動的照片，可是那些都是從外進入我們的。但是吃東西的時候啊，那種幸福是只有吃過並且和你有一樣感覺的人才會懂，是一種很抽象的幸福。所以當我吃到什麼好吃的，然後再分給別人吃，我會很興奮地想知道到底這份幸福還可以傳給多少人。”

我也很喜歡吃東西 其實我們都喜歡吃好吃的東西 因為我們都期待那一個完全屬於我們自己 並且是我們自己赤裸裸的感受到的  幸福。

好吃的東西不是美食雜誌美食節目的那些 是你真的放在嘴裡 並且意猶未盡的

我們一起專心的吃東西吧！一起去發掘那些細微的幸福，再看它們堆砌而成的美麗。

吃東西是智慧。寫東西是智慧。連呼吸都可以是智慧。這就是生活啊。生活就是人間一切煙火的總而言之，言而總之。浮雲也罷，煙火也罷，哭著來到這個世界上，我想要笑著走。像打敗仗豁然開朗的君王一樣，仰天大笑出門去。

也許在命運前面在意的根本就不是輸贏 而是鄧麗君姐姐唱的“曾經擁有”

船停泊在港口的確很安全，但是那並不是造船的目的。

我這一輩子，想要什麼都試過了，然後在永恆昏睡之際，躺在一個很溫暖的地方，靜靜的迴轉播放那些莫名其妙的日子，再盡情的笑開懷。

我的慢靈魂是誰也奪不走的單純，這個世界的渾濁不是我可以改變的，但我可以選擇遠觀而不參與，人啊，盡本分，過日子，不過就求個痛快。

悄悄的神奇吧 

流水光陰

還是想晃一下才開始溫書
唉 我還是熱血方剛的年輕人 太努力讀書會精神分裂的

這幾天莫名的不停浮現光陰的故事的片段
孫一美汪茜茜陶復邦許毅源朱磊孫家柱孫再美孫媽媽孫爸爸馮媽
常常說小人物大智慧，也是這熙來攘往的生活不過就是大智若愚
當我們都像孫一美一樣 一切都是可以簡單化的

一直都很喜歡光陰的故事裡隨意竄出來的一些話
裡邊其實很大的影響著我
關於台灣眷村 我的投射對象就是我們的新村
就是那種左鄰右裡一家親的感覺
小時候很羨慕住在新村的小孩子
他們是那種一出家門就有玩伴兒的
然後媽媽也不太管 就放任他們 時間到了才河東獅吼的叫回來
可是我不一樣 乾媽媽很疼我 很怕我跌傷還什麼的
畢竟幫人家帶孩子是很大的責任
我屬於高度養尊處優的狀態 玩什麼都要三個姐姐看住
河邊抓魚爬樹裝猴子這種高風險動作是絕對門兒都沒有
所以我的活動就是 家家酒 亂跑亂跳 和吃東西
以至於我很羨慕那種小孩子拖鞋穿了就往外跑
那時候的我 可羨慕了

再加上乾媽媽家是在山丘上 周圍除了植物就是大人
沒有人陪著我成長 大家都先我一步成長了
剩下我一個人徘徊在自己的路上 眼巴巴的看著其他的小孩

這一份情結到現在我還留著
每次載乾媽媽到新村找朋友我都很興奮
喜歡看那些衣服也不穿的大叔們大咧咧駕摩托車
還喜歡看那些可能剛上小學的小屁孩亂騎車
甚至還有那些聚集在一起的主婦們東家長西家短

這樣的畫面會讓我想起和樂融融

呵呵

馮媽對茜茜：「傻孩子 命運要怎麼拼啊 你沒看那些逆流的魚 都傷的怎麼樣了 命運 只有順著它流 才能找到上岸的路。」

張叔對茜說：「自己走過的路，不論是對的，是錯的，妳都要忍...」

馮媽說：「做個聰明的傻子，那是很辛苦的。」

馮媽說：「沒有哭過，又怎麼能夠懂得笑呢?」

孫媽說：「幸福是什麼，是圓或是扁的，手上拿扁的，心想著圓的，不會幸福。若手上拿著圓的，心想著扁的，也不會幸福，不管手上拿的是圓的還是扁的，只要手中拿的，越看越喜歡，那就是幸福。」

茜：我覺得人生真的很奇妙耶！我覺得，它好像是一個不會說話的啞​巴，用它的方式比手畫腳的，帶著我們，去懂得我們故事的真相。


汪茜茜：我以前總覺得，隨波逐流的人不夠勇敢；可是我後來才發現​，真正勇敢的人－是隨波逐流當中，而不迷失自己的人。

「就是因為太在乎了  對于周遭的事物只是曇花一現  所以只好裝作毫不在乎 」

i am a happy kia-su

finally the moving ended and im "nearly" exhausted
couldnt get a new magazine though, so my walls look so empty
just some old photos and torn posters on

and urm, im gonna start updating my notes
got that exam timetable today
couldnt ask for any better as for the tight schedule we're in
the exam timetable is perfect enough
and that makes study planning....on

argh. this is the time i sit down copying stuffs
and regret what have i missed for skipping classes
there's so soooo damn much that i dont feel like starting
kidding, cause im like typical kia-su....
a happy kia-su i guess

oh. moody. always.
new hostel already. and this twin-sharing room is still on the search for the second owner
and my google searching aint that good so im not gonna effort any on this searching
i enjoy paying single but getting double =)

never know i actually take alone better than accompanied
when akemi moved out i thought its the end of me
but somehow i've got things held up pretty nicely
and then when the new roomate came
the 1st thing to strike is fear following awaits
and end up with disappointment and anger

i barely smile to her lately
so the whole "hey im leaving" process got so much easier
like just informing without me even seeing her face
this may be really rude
but i just gotta stop pretend like im into her as a roommate
Im not
though parents kinda taught us that we have to be nice to literally everyone
but sometimes, i prefer showing my anger
so wrong people dont do me wrong again in future

now i have my own room, i feel damn great to play my songs loud enough for my soul
and i feel awesome that i have my own space again
literally
ever since that roomate came in, everything went wrong
before she had a boyfriend, she drag us into others love issue
and seriously, if somebody ask for my advice, i;ll be damn honest
and gosh arent you old enough to justify if it suits you
dont go all over my face saying i ruin others relationship
i've never been in one but i know the rule of it gets few wrongs to get to that one right.
plus, you asked for it!!!!

and then dear roommates,
 in my eyes (even when i have zero exp in relationship stuffs)
your boyfriend and you are as annoying as one can possibly be
when im on the earphone sitting there, that doenst make me mad or what
dont approach me as if you're a shivering rat and im the motherfucking lion king

and although it appears that i like good food and all
that doesnt make me shallow that i eat everytime you asked
i have my own eating schedule and when i dont feel like eating
I JUST FUCKIN TURN YOU DOWN
not like i never tried whatever you said nice, i tried and yes it could be nice
BUT ITS NOT ALL TIME WANTED

and when im on earphone turning my heads here and there as if im so into the music
that dosent mean i cant hear you all whispering to each other
looking at me like im a weird monkey and try out funny acts to attract my attention
it would be cute and funny and all IF YOU ARE MY FRIEND
but you're not, im sorry, but i do bias
im not gonna act like all so nice when whatever you're doing bleed my eyes
HELL NO

oh and a lil bit bout your dearest boyfren
he kinda annoys me
the way he laugh after every sentence of mine, THATS ANNOYING HONEY!
and dont show me that "OH IM SO SORRY" face when i stumbled u 2 doing inappropriate in my rooms
instead, GET THE HELL OUTTA MY ROOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE GOING INTO MY ROOM WITH A "oh, paiseh for interruption" face.
my mum taught me well that i just dont...splash all i have to say on the subject's face

you can be all so "unbearable" to separate with your "dear" for a few seconds
but bear in mind that when im sleeping, and you sitting there hugging your girlfren
IS DEFINITELY ANNOYING

yeah right, if and only if my boyfren can be Dave Batista
that i can have you crushed into mash-human with hot sauce

oh, im feeling ... lighter? LOL..letting go of stuffs i "saved"

till then.

神馬都是浮雲！這一切的一切不過是人間的煙火罷了！

敲定了，明天我搬家
宿舍啦 宿舍
現在閒著好像去看電影 莫名的就是想看哈利波特
好像童年的什麼要結束了一樣 心裡很糾結
住宿舍久了對搬家這兩個字失去了所謂的感覺
不就，一張新的床？

用一種道別的方式環顧房間 才發現牆壁上的海報 並不如我想像中的可有可無
剛剛很平靜的跟本來就不怎麼喜歡的室友生活我要搬了
我和她之於我就是那種 表面點頭問候你好嗎，內心暗暗問候他媽媽的
所以當她突然開始說 “啊！為什麼？” 我有點不以為然
你真不知道？唷 你拿男朋友犯着我了 我不喜歡我不認識的人出現在我的房間
我也很不爽為什在自己的房間還要不好意思
然後她還說 “你拋棄我？”
切！我哪兒擔待得起這罪名啊 明明就是你一腳把我踢開
用你那尚未開竅的假聰明 把我踢到九霄雲外諸葛亮他家去！
還有，“我很hurt咯！我的心shattered了！！”
噢。是噢，怎麼辦，我就很不在意的說
都是客套話吧 本來就沒有多深的交情 更甭提我為了避開她所幹過的傻事
唉 人家甜蜜蜜 我就收這種絕交小秘密

我人生中就只有兩個室友 呵 一念天堂 一念地獄
曾經我有很好的室友 屋友 結果沒有珍惜 一切就消失在彈指之間
然後現在有一種落難鳥兒人人趕的感覺
走到哪裡都只有被排擠的份兒
現在要離開這間家了我也就來臭美一下聊表紀念
一開始和室友搬進來 就是那種半路插進來的車子 拿來惡狠狠的瞪的
一整間宿舍卯足全力使勁兒的打量我們 好像在玩真人版photo hunt
我們走到哪裡目光就跟到哪裡 誒我說就室友 會不會是你的刺青嚇到人家了 呵呵
然後室友像閃電一樣 咻的一下離開了我原本的生活 一瞬間我被拋到了孤獨的高空
冷漠而安靜的 繼續原本的被打量生活 倒也算相安無事

一直到某年某月的某一天 正在宿舍房間窮開心的時候
我聽到包租公在樓下叫門 我抓了鑰匙要下去
結果好巧不巧我聽到了此生錐心之最前十名的對話
包租公：诶，佳恩有在嗎？
在樓下的屋友：佳恩？誰來的？
包租公：那個兩人房的啊，駕紅色車的那個
在樓下的屋友：噢！那個advance的是嗎？有 我去叫他下來

可能你覺得沒什麼，可是對於在那裡住了一年的我來說 只剩淡淡的 “唉....”
從此我的代名詞就剩下"那個advance的"
我有悲哀到要賴以我的科系的名字維生嗎？
我的名字還是我爸爸和阿嬤給我取的說

那些學妹們開始拿莫名其妙的功課來問我  基於我即使以前念過那一個科系
現在也已將政策改革改頭換面換湯換藥換到完 所以常常就是我傻笑的樣子
然後另一個屋友 算學弟吧 但不一樣科系 簡直就差了八條大馬路
他拿他的英文功課來給我 噢 這個勉強還可以 就算不行了 microsoft 還在啊
我就毅然決然幫他東改西修 結果 哼！我何許人也 當然滿分就拿回來啦
啊！你以為我功成身退了？.....對，當然還沒有！
結果我成了全職功課檢閱員 完全免費 還態度超好的那種！

時日久了，不知道什麼時候散開了"那個advance的是天才"的傳言

（我本來打算欣然接受，但請繼續看下去，孽緣啊！）

有的時候很莫名其妙的功課也會送到我的面前
最奇怪的是高數，那種明明就是數學 卻硬是要加字母和怪符號的 虛偽科目
幹 是不知道朕最痛恨數學了嗎
但基本禮貌還是有的 我恭恭敬敬的說 “啊！不好意思，我沒有讀過，我不會”
結果那個被男朋友擺脫來問我的女孩說
“噢，我知道，可是你是advance的，你看一看可能你會咧？”

額滴神唷！我的老佛爺這我真不會！
你當我的advance diploma是包山包海的嗎？
這種上輩子諸我九族的變態科目 我看了就要的癌症  “愛（癌）哇死症！”
然後還有就是拿了一整片文章進來 說 “你改啦”
這位兄台 你的文章前言不對後語蛇頭老鼠尾沒有終點錯字比對的還多甚至連是不是英文都有待考證 你是要我從何下手？ 然後以我這種學者的氣質，我當然是畢恭畢敬的問那位大爺說，抱歉，你這篇文章是在說什麼？
這下可好，他坦蕩蕩的說：我不知道
按奈每一絲的衝動 我安靜的問，你不知道？那，我怎麼改？
唷！實在不容小覷！壓根兒沒想過 他直截了當的就答了
“你就跟你喜歡的改咯！”

朕服了！這輩子也就你這麼個不知道自己在些什麼還能拿去讓人家隨心所欲的改
心服口服 不二話 要讓我這輩子也有你一半豁達我江山早拱手讓人了

唉 就這樣 庸庸擾擾的 一切就走向序幕了 也不向我這個主演的交代一下
布幕落下來 大家都知道該散了

我是不可能不捨得這間宿舍啦 只是又要到人生地不熟的地方難免會感嘆曾經自以為的安定
說啥浪子 搬個宿舍搞得跟十八相送似的 呵

感嘆啊 就快要剩下最後一個學期了 我希望可以安安靜靜的在新的宿舍安度餘生
呸！安度下學期直到畢業
我又要發揮我的龜縮神功躲在自己的硬殼裡

是啊 我又要開始動手做自己的小天地了
明天晚上吃點什麼慶祝一下吧

李佳恩 搬家愉快

啊 快活的日子快點來 姑奶奶我等不及啦 我要放縱自己每天不要跟著時間表
我要自由到生活顛倒作息失調臉爛掉
我還要吃遍天下 每天張開眼就有好吃的

啊 多麼逍遙自在 我自發夢向天笑 是否實現不計較 人生自在樂逍遙～

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這一間三條路73號，我認識hui yin, kai ying(joanne), ashley........akemi你不算
然後這裡很多黑螞蟻 我恨
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我買到賴寶的人生何處不尷尬了！
衝動是惡魔，金錢是犧牲！

Just keep your head alone

I just sent off a friend, and then I'm having a presentation in like..2 hours time

its undeniable that sometimes, i love hiding in the school library
it gives the feeling like you're so hardworking and yet you're just facebooking in a silent place
like when parents call, and you say you're in library,
the linkage will be studies, assignment, oh-what-a-hardworking-girl
and if you say you're in hostel or anywhere but school compound,
then your mum and dad will start mumble words like..study more, please be focus and they are actually picturing you having fun all around the town like tearing the books and make them shatter like snow flakes

right. maybe not that .... dramatic huh?

so the other my mum kinda like....wanna talk me through where she drag hardly the topic from breakfast to school stuffs. sometimes you see people trying so hard that you'd pretend as they wished rather than wake them up, no harm made aint?

i should really be rehearsing for my presentation, but i kinda work around the mood
so here's what i wanna talk about...study and education

My niece is 7 years old now and she is very adult-like for a standard one
sometimes i have this very strong feeling that she is saying something to entertain us adult

like when i ask her to set a target for her exam, like in less than 10 seconds she tell me she only aim for 100.
nothing to do with her ability and what, but just, i cant find the "naive" of kids in her eyes when she says this

i feel wrong. this is so wrong.
why teach a kid entertaining?

and the other day my parents brought her to the st.anne church for prayers
and she said she prayed for her exam to score all 100
GODDAMN. i swear when i was her age, i'd pray for bottomless soda and chips, and barneys and stuffs
so this is the new world? instead of pokemon they talk about getting 100 or 99?

i still think the main thing of study should be the curiosity
an unstoppable will and desire to know what's next and next and next and next.
this is something i learnt from "3 idiots"the movie.
HELL YEAH.
some people learn from books, some people learn from mistakes, or experience
and me here, i learn from movies..im a tv baby

so then i actually realize something really important in me for studies
its that, study is something that you're completely on your own
you can be trained to be a "exam-all-As" machine but in the end
you decide what stays in your mind, and what will be just a blurred stain

you can go all the way like "FUCK YEA!I FLUNG MY STUDIES"
its all you, you decided to put your time up to no use and thats it
make sure you earn a living and dont increase the criminal population

i dont know why im writing all these
time-spending i guess
like, "FUCK YEA! I FLUNG MY PRESENTATION PREPARATION!"
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But I still gonna rock it. this is rock star madness.

alright fine i will continue my rock star story and pretend like i forgot my presentation

im gonna rock this presentation and every single one in there will get their mouth O-ed
and lecturer will be stunned of my charm and CHARISMA that she is too shy to ask any question
I will walk on to the stage like Obama going to give a speech
and i will talk like a successful business woman and im earning 548765976890 millions a year
then i will walk down, with another team member shivering
Towards the end of the presentation, I will again show up and wrap everything up NICELY
and then, i get the loudest applaud of all and everyone is overwhelemed

*ding* i feel like Rachel Berry.

its good to be dramatic at times, for you never know if you're in a comedy or horror movies or even worst,
"the-end-of-the-world" movie

if things gonna end tomorrow, I wished I've told everyone i cared that i love them
and i have finally found the peace in me

till then, i dont care if you're alright but mama earth, as bad as it can be, you better linger on
I HAVE A LIFE IN YOU AND YOU'RE NOT GONNA MESS WITH IT BECAUSE OF THE WRONG OTHERS HAVE DONE TO YOU.

原諒我的慢靈魂

聽盧廣仲的“梅西好朋友”

今天一整天為了宿舍心情很糟，然後延伸到什麼都聽不懂的課堂，上完兩個小時幾乎等於死了80%的腦細胞。臨走還收到教授的一句，“你的測驗第二題很糟糕，你忘記方程式了嗎？”還好的是這個時候還有人輕拍我的肩膀，雖然那個時候我的腦袋無法反應過來。

然後朋友還是看得出來我的不耐煩和快掉落深淵的情緒，她跟我說的“沒關係啦，正面思考”。對啊，這個點好像很重要，雖然我那個時候幾乎從一個谷底被打入另一個更深的谷底，就像從十七層地獄被打到第十八層，傷害不大，因為已經夠傷了。

雖然我很用力的繼續正面思考，但是正面思考不過是一種迎面受罪的手法，痛還是得要痛一遭。嗯。但現在沒事了。

宿舍的問題我一直不敢去想那個所謂的解決方法，但是幾句話就把我從十八層地獄扶正到玉皇大帝身邊。謝謝以前的李佳恩，謝謝你的死穴是老人家所以你總是對包租公很好，所以現在他也對你很好。因果啊！呵呵，你的因，我的果。謝謝你。真的，為了你，我會更努力去面對我們的生活。

現在等洗衣，之前受不了這裡的一切一切，現在要走了我還是很不喜歡。但我會好好記住這裡，至少我要告訴我自己，這樣的地方我都住過了，還有什麼是不行的？！

本來待會兒的見面我超怕我會訴苦訴到哭出來，結果現在好啦，我可以開開心心的去見我的朋友們，聽他們的故事。三人行，必有我開心焉！

考試考不好就算了吧，我的不努力是有目共睹的，至少跌倒過的腳會跑得更快。

“下一次，會更勇敢”-當冬夜間暖，孫燕姿

啊。當惱人的事情都謝幕了，連滾燙的熱水都是暖和的。那個囂張的太陽，也變得很可愛。

不需要趕功課的日子裡 其實幸福簡單的可以
現在聽著自己的盧廣仲crossover孫燕姿也可以覺得很飽足

喜歡孫燕姿已經是說得連我的鍵盤都可以自動打出來
但也一樣很喜歡的盧廣仲好像沒有提過
一直很喜歡盧廣仲宣揚的正面思考
以前有一個學姐也常常掛在嘴邊"positive thinking!positive thinking"
我一直相信正面思考是一種神秘的力量 成效和“秘密”差不多

這一次盧廣仲新專輯“慢靈魂”
哇塞！一開始知道專輯名稱我已經瘋狂了
慢靈魂 一听就是 “哇！好有深度！”

其實歌還沒有仔細的聽過 但是專輯的概念大概都有讀過了
我很沉迷盧廣仲總是拿生活來開刀
吃早餐，ohyeah，七天......現在慢靈魂
我一直都很受落 有很長一陣子我的塗鴉都是“rock n roll 的 style"
我覺得他的歌真的正中下懷，常常就是發現那首歌其實很貼近所謂的我們這種成長尷尬期

我常常在廣仲那種不著邊際邏輯跳躍的歌詞裡 發現到字裡行間的某些震撼
所以即使很多人說盧廣仲是lady gaga那種莫名其妙紅起來的
我還是很喜歡他

因為這就是生活的樣子啊 莫名其妙
十萬個為什麼就是生活

什麼時候可以不要看手錶，並且永無止盡的恣意妄為

生活嗎  剪不斷 理還亂 就讓它野下去吧 我也不是等閒的二百五 見招拆招吧

**孫燕姿和盧廣仲混在一起聽居然和諧的離譜**

我要被感染，找回早睡早起的慢靈魂
我會為明天的陽光而振奮
我會為明天的一切而快樂

亂世浮生的態度就是像海綿那樣不停的吸收！

偷得浮生半日閒

一整天過下來 就一個字 閒
昨晚還很悠閒的看家居半夜場 播的是霸王別姬
看男兒郎怎麼幻化成女嬌娥，再看虞姬怎麼一別再別假霸王
多麼寫意啊！

今天早上起床的時候突然有一點茫然
好像對於周遭很好奇
是啊 這普通的周日我怎麼會在這麼寧靜的地方起來
起床後還搞亂了自己到底應該幹啥
沒有時間表 沒有約定好 今天就是要把手錶收起來

本來昨天計劃好了今天要去戲院 要去吃好的 去海邊 一個人
可是比起回家 那還用問嗎？
我是1990年生的一匹野馬 可是野馬終究得歸馴
每一個漂泊的人都在等待一個港口不是嗎

看了霸王別姬其實我深深的感受到 專注力 和 狂愛
程蝶衣對於京戲的愛幾乎超越了他的生命 他需要
其實我好奇成就程蝶衣的 是虞姬 還是段小樓 還是楚霸王 還是 小石頭
有發現嗎 很多人都對自己的家鄉菜欲罷不能 明明就是普普通通 可是
那一道菜 有小時候的味道 而那一種味道 是一段記憶的主軸

所以程蝶衣 大小就很依賴甚至喜歡小石頭
那個在他被遺棄被命運拋在半空之中的時候 伸手接住他的師哥
我相信一開始 小豆子真的就當小石頭是兄弟 貼切點說 是家人 是取代媽媽的情感寄託
然而就獨獨敗在那一句“又不是女嬌娥”

程蝶衣一直都是專心  套句老師傅的話 “從一而終”的人
他不會說言不由衷的話 無法朗誦他不能苟同的東西
所以當他真的說出了 “我本是女嬌娥，又不是男兒郎”
我不知道那個年紀的他究竟決定了些什麼
但就像老師傅告誡的一樣：人要自個兒成全自個兒
那一刻的程蝶衣絕對有決定自己要成就些什麼
我猜，是京戲。那一刻的程蝶衣決定了自己的戲如人生，成就了不瘋魔不成活。
然後被老太監玷污之後，程蝶衣奠定了師哥在他心目中的美好吧
也許程蝶衣由衷無私的愛上師哥，而那個混亂的年代，程蝶衣的情感也亂了

程蝶衣啊程蝶衣

應該要有程蝶衣的專注 程蝶衣那種看準了就卯足力的個性
對京戲 站不改名坐不改姓  對段小樓 一輩子耗盡所有情思

是啊 我需要尋找我的生命的主軸 認清什麼是我的不可或缺無法割捨
手掌也就這麼個巴掌大 不能抓住太多東西 我們都必須選擇
讓無法割捨的留下，不要讓自己過得太累

不是說過嗎 每個人都要有一個夢想 一個理由去堅強
神馬都是浮雲，這一切的一切不過都是人間的煙火罷了

我應該要認真的思考 我的人生 我的故事 什麼是浮雲 什麼是煙火 什麼是我

戲迷 戲痴 戲瘋子

在宿舍用很煩燥的心情下喝完拜過阿公的黑狗啤。之所以這麼樣，主要還是因為今天實在讓我有點受不了。想吃的東西沒吃到，宿舍廁所的馬桶自殺了，室友的男朋友越來越登堂入室。在我想要好好的洗個澡的時候，我卻站在一堆廢墟旁，這樣是能乾淨到哪裡去！所以我崩潰了，在宿舍客廳的沙發上。那個時候我不知道要幹嘛，腦子裡轉著可以去的地方。海邊，星巴克，海邊，海邊，海邊。然後電腦傳出山腳下男孩的故鄉。

就這樣我打了通電話給媽媽，然後我就在路上了。

其實喝著拿一罐黑狗啤的時候，我以為我的心情會好一點。是在跟媽媽說要回家後喝的，以為可以緩和情緒，遠離飆車。但沒有。我喝著啤酒，幻想和阿公乾杯。腦子裡浮現了好多好多事。宿舍的客廳就剩我一個，而那個客廳，就像綁架案現場一樣的凌亂骯髒。和我腦子裡如出一轍的毫無章法可言。那個時候突然慶幸自己離家那麼近，似乎沒啥資格談離鄉背井。

可是啊，對我來說，所謂的故鄉，並不是我現在阿嬤的家，而是真的我長大的我的乾媽媽家。那裡有萬能的干媽媽，沉默的干爸爸，還有三個各有各精彩的干姐姐。在朋友都是都市小孩的時候，我很驕傲的跟大家說我是鄉村長大的。我可以打赤腳跑遍幹媽媽家門口的那片草，可以期待乾媽媽駕摩托帶我去兜風，可以乾瞪眼等姐姐們回來給我帶好吃的和好玩的，可以等乾爸爸要去丟垃圾的時候裝熱心，可以似懂非懂的看姐姐們做功課，可以窩在廚房等吃第一口菜，可以跑到家旁邊和狗玩。

這一切，就像故鄉那樣遙遠。這輩子，這一輩子，這我剩下的輩子，都不可能再回到那一段光陰。我小的時候，上天下地唯我獨尊，乾媽媽全家都得寵我一個。要風得風之於還送打雷，要雨得雨更是送龍捲風。不可能了，現在和姐姐們之間明顯的出現了疏離，陌生。那是一種，她們就坐在我旁邊，我卻全身不自在的沉痛。我常常在想，生活總是讓我們越離越遠，寫英文的時候很愛寫 “drift apart”。就是不知不覺遠離了，最後一點點後悔都省下來的那種。

說回阿公的黑狗啤吧。這故鄉的話題，好沉，還是等另外一個夜深人靜吧。

好像忘了上一次喝黑狗啤是什麼時候，是農曆新年吧？那個時候興致很高，連普通啤酒也覺得特別順口。這次是哥哥買回來祭阿公的，所以我幾乎在看到供桌上的兩瓶啤酒的時候就下定決心一定要喝。我愛喝酒，但我不是酒鬼，我只是想要好好睡一覺。就像醉翁之意不在酒，偶爾我會說其實什麼就都一樣，能讓我醉他媽的就是好酒！陳年佳釀，普通啤酒，上等紅酒，各色烈酒，其實都一樣。對我來說，我只想瘋狂的完全醉倒，讓自己的雜亂無章佔領我的腦袋，可能那樣，我真的就拯救世界了。

一早起來看到朋友留言，唉，一年了吧。現在大家隱隱約約擔心着其中一個朋友。是啊，故事來來去去。偶爾我會想，如果有一天，把那一群快要散開的朋友聚在一塊兒，而在夜闌人靜，你醉我倒的當兒，是不是那樣我們才能夠挑明了說。現在很多話都選擇不出口，因為心照不宣，實則你不說別人又怎麼可能懂？

昨晚看《霸王別姬》。程蝶衣那情懷，不難考究吧。就像當初我們。自然而然的混在一塊兒，交了朋友。以為見面多了，那交情也就深到心坎上去了。但其實，我們不過是習慣了接受，而失去又總是來得太快。感覺像是一個人硬是塞了一樣東西給你，可是沒多久又帶走了。我們不是成蝶衣段小樓，我們是二十一世紀的年輕人。一出生我們就認識了科技，所以我們其實不可能有那種“何日君再來”的離愁。

只是，談這別離啊，就像偏頭疼一樣，斷不了根。等我消化了霸王別姬吧。

 

Perfume:The story of a murderer

Indeed. A movie story again.

god damn i was overwhelmed by this movie

i thought it would be a mystery movie or those detective movie

but turns out, it just fit the name so well that its all about that perfume

the version i had was without subtitles, therefore the Franglish..(french english) did bother me a bit

but for this movie,i personally like it, i mean, like wayyyy better than "The roommates"

i have this special interest in seeing murder-homicide movies 

like how people get addicted to scary movies

i prefer murderous movies with lots and lots of dead bodies

and mysterious and special killing motives

the best time to see crooked personality!!!!

John Baptis role is definitely the main thing or even the only in this movie

i like how he got his eyes all so psychic!

the way he would secretly hide up and stare into something of his interest

and his tiny body that is always dirty and seem to be full of his own sweat

thats what a psychic should look like!

and another thing, the movie included all kind of scene that

i never could have expected to be available

anyhow, i have to see my dear notes again

they are dying for my concern

oh, poor loa lil stuffs.

till then. all the best leekahinn

Screw this whatever subjects, i'm going to Hogwarts!

遲遲不肯開始翻書 唉
今天分兩個星期前的卷子
我看著一個女孩由怒轉傷到哭出來的樣子
我想我看見了崩潰

人都是瘋狂競賽的奴隸
即使那女孩充其量不過是我朋友的朋友那種隔層關係
偶爾我們會彼此搭上些許官腔 都是場面話
而我也一向不喜歡她
但是我還是覺得她很可憐
雖然我在這裡浪費時間也會讓我這個星期五的考試很可憐
可管他呢

她說她覺得她班上的人很噁心 都在出賣彼此
可她選擇性忘了曾經她也是如此
我始終認為如果不是這一次她考壞了 大家都對他投以同情的眼神
她應該還可以開開心心地待在那一堆彼此出賣的人群裡
只是 她輸了 她受不了別人也在背後對她指指點點

己所不欲 勿施於人
出了問題現在自己身上找原因
一個地方混不下去了 才了解自己的發源地是多麼好
可是你還是沒有學到最寶貴的 什麼叫做因果
小公主 一直怪罪別人是走不遠的
你需要一面照妖鏡 拼棄掉那些別人加諸在你身上的身外物
你究竟多久沒有好好看看你自己了？
也許你金枝玉葉 被寵慣了 但 紙上得來總覺淺 絕知此事要躬行
你可以繼續捍衛你自己 每一次打輸了就往殼裡頭躲
當有一天你筋疲力盡了 發現你原來一直永無止盡得跟著漩渦的車位燈
我希望你能夠平靜地接受

我還是不喜歡你 即使我的好朋友是你的多年老友
我只是覺得 你需要被敲醒
你根本不是被他們出賣的 是你自己天真無邪的 以為全世界都會愛你
以為那些老聚在一起說盡全天下是非的人 都都獨愛你
大家都會繞著你那些荒唐的飲食習慣轉



祝福你 但我不喜歡你



我還是會微笑的跟你說話 我不需要公告世界我不喜歡你
我還是喜歡我的好朋友 只是你不在我的選擇範圍 我也就只能接受
你應該也不喜歡我 所以我們就心照不宣

就讓我鼓起勇氣向全世界說

還有四十五分鐘 想說還是寫點什麼吧

還是同樣的歌，“True colours” 

也許因為這幾天都有著很相同的心情 嗯 也許吧

偶爾在很大很大的躁狂之後 我會突然冷靜一陣子

冷靜地收拾殘局 冷冷的 靜靜的 冷靜

其實現在的心情談不上什麼正面還負面

現在中立得可以 明明就應該緊張 可是就是覺得

自己懶懶散散的 連身體裡的血液感覺也流得很慢

整個人每天籠罩在得過且過懶人多屎尿的節奏裡

唉 怎夠一個懶字了得？

現在轉過來聽“守著陽光守著你”

呵呵 那一天和朋友的小見面其實觸動了某些神經

曾經 我們天真無邪 現在 我們天天無錢

其實也沒什麼 只是有些人好久不見 恍如隔世 

現在見面 客套寒暄 扼腕嘆息 曾幾何時 彼此深交 宛若輕煙 煙消雲散

是很可惜啊 可是生活讓我們聚在一起 然後錯開

也許我們還是可以聚在一起 畢竟曾經我們有那麼一段緣分

曾經我們是朋友 也許現在也還是 只是無法像以前那樣熟悉

陌生就是時間增長的過程衍生出來的後遺症

以前我轉頭就可以看到你們大家 然後現在我要打開電腦一個一個找

天下無不散的宴席 有朋自遠方來 自是不亦樂乎 可是人來人往啊

我們也必須調整好姿態 面對每一個突如其來的再見，永別，錯開，甚至是無聲的遠離

人生贵相知，何必共長久。 

這一種空蕩蕩的午後 適合拿來面對一些瑣碎的事

可能是以往的自己 可能是期望的自己

書要讀 試要考 生活還是得要過

曾經我以為剝奪自己所有的快樂是成功的關鍵

獵命師裡邊的陳木生說過 “成功的捷徑就是毫不猶豫的踏上最艱難的道路”

之前我都了解錯了 我以為最艱難的道路就是剝奪所有快樂

現在才明白 快樂與否在於個人修養 所謂最艱難的道路

其實包含了一點 明知山有虎偏向虎山行 的氣魄

就是 即使你知道這一條路將會很累 很辛苦 你還是要走 義無反顧的

力爭上游 貴在力爭

就像讀書 不是讓你很痛苦的不看戲不吃東西就能考好成績

苦行僧不是得道的途徑 

佛陀尚且接受那位姑娘的施捨 我們為什麼要虐待自己

我想 最艱難的道路說的 應該是 一鼓作氣和堅信自我的魄力

很多人 無法肯定的相信自己 他們總需要很多很多資料來支持他們自己

也就是這樣 所以最艱難的道路 應該是指這一方面

直譯”成功的捷徑就是堅定的踏上自己選擇和滿意的路“

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就這樣吧。我自横刀向天笑，去留肝胆两昆仑。 

I'm probably not listening to you

I have no story to tell
landlord-middleman uncle told us about moving to another house next semester
the first thing came in mind was my wonderful wall
and i've decided that im not gonna take them along
its just...we gotta move on right?

honestly there's always an underlying plan that i wanna change it
like putting in new photos and pictures and stuffs
but i just never really take this seriously
never even bother picking out photos
it just lied there...i settled down pretty fast huh?
like..just get used to it..and...not gonna do anything about it

So my allergy symptoms are growing somehow
starting to have it pretty frequently
i wonder would it really be a psychology problem?
well and whatever

was gossiping bout a housemate just now
and everyone look so amazed when i conclude
right. i said "you may be the princess and all, but im the bitch, i mess up and leave."
wow. clearly it must be some lines from some movies i couldnt recall
hahahaha

and i went dinner with a friend just now
getting updates a bit on her recent including pinky love part

well, things happen. cant help saying this
but she aint someone i go round worrying about
or should i say i never go round worrying for somebody else
i believe that in everyone, they have their own superpower for their stuck-up situation
and they will make through it like how they believe it

thats true
i dont really go round "helping" everyone, but only those who asked
i dont mean to be .....selfish or what not
its just that i think its an important lesson for everyone to ASK when they HAVE TO
yes, i may see your trouble from your helpless look
but you better get the attitude right and ask
dont act all so catty or what, i have my boundary, you cross it you die

oh, out of the topic again.

so my friend sorta like updating me her latest progress
and hell yeah things happen
sometimes when you dont know what to do in a situation, just take a step,
forward or backward, leftward or rightward
just take your pick and just go with it

the rule of thumb is that it takes a few wrongs to get down to the right
and its not up to me to comment whether what she did was right..or wrong
we dont have a line or guide for that, do we?
but im pretty glad that at least she has something to back up her choices
and sometimes, its more like persuading yourself to do something
you dont have to prove anything, as long as you're over yourself

i couldnt really understand love to be precise
considering i used to thought being a nun is a perfect job
but from what i can see, being in love suffers a lot of people
its just, people should stop all those craps on tv hypnotizing people about "the wonder, OF LOVE"
thats ridiculous, id believe the love in two and a half man or gossip girl or even glee.
just stop making every girl thought being stupid will earn them a handsome and smart guy

just well whatever
love aint some thing pretty pretty shiny bliniking stuffs like on tv
it is lively, uncensored, mankind expressions
and i dont want to tell again how cruel mankind gets
(If i must, they kill literally all species, INCLUDING THEIR OWN)

I just submitted a long assignment which i had never expected to be done with...this life, im addicted, and i just cant get enough!

oh hey! some wonder fair is going on in school
end up whole school got free music boombaboom

oh how nice. stepping out of class and heard "Back to December"
"if the chain is on your door, I understand"

this song does somehow relates me to my internship days
those were the times the DJ spam playing this song on radio
which i gets it maybe thrice a day

i wasnt a big fan of taylor swift back then
but somehow somewhere in the song
it had me feeling like this could be the best lyrics

=)

im still at school waiting for the 4.30 class
its like a free attendance where you just sit and see people do the talking
pretty boring but hell yeah, i get time to figure out my own stuffs
like a more proper blog title

i often find blogging in class fun
like, in the middle of something, and you decided to just pause your life
and write stuffs

must have been real "cool" if my mum sees how i study
famous for being "whatever" aint that good you know
when even your lecturer knows you wont stick around for long
and your friends will just tag you whenever they're out
without having to ask if you're free that particular time
cause literally, YOU'RE ALWAYS FREE.

damn, now you know, you're really a happy person

and now im in internet lab, you know, blogging
erm, trying to answer questions of others whici barely even sure of the answers
its just, sometimes, i answer their question with an answer i cant read again with my mouth
and i just appears to be damn confident then people believe in the direction i gave

well. i know my intention is to convince them a way to go ahead with
which i will tell them still that im not sure, but it always takes a few wrongs to get it right
so we just have to go out running on our bare feet and fall horribly and bleed like a waterfall

its either you get numb to the pain, or
you know the necessity of shoes

its good afterall
you need to start with something, go wrong, and get to the right
thats what behind "Practice makes perfect"

keep on doing it wrong until the right one stays

class in 9 minutes and im too lazy to move my butt outta here
awh. i should hold a public speaking session
and start talking like a spoilt water tap---UNSTOPPABLE

*i wanted to talk about "Optimistic" in me
the one characteristics that i never realized until i get it like...from everyone
friends, schoolmates and whoever

maybe next time
i've a scheduled movie list tonight.
but if my roomates freak me out again, i might just...come back in here
and finish my story

till then, QuietlyFantastic.
(right im gonna make "QuietlyFantastic" my very own "Amitabha")

就剪了唄

唉

最近這種鬼天氣 太陽啥時變成雙胞胎了我都不曉得

熱得讓我快抓狂

再加上我命帶環保 生活環境都是沒有冷氣的老地方

每天處於烤全熟 和 烤太熟 之間

能不發瘋嗎 洗澡浪費水 出門浪費汽油

還是剪了一了百了

揮劍一斬三千煩惱絲

瞬間涼快管他大太陽

以前說身體發膚受之父母 不能隨意改變

所以后羿瘋了 熱瘋的 所以才去射太陽

然後嫦娥姐姐就愛上了后羿的瘋狂和勇敢

果然是出必有因

天氣差 瘋人多 果然不是沒有理由的

hell yeah i cut my hair

you wont like it when i start mumbling my "fuck weather" story

and i think i've been listening "True Colours" as in glee version since 9something this morning

i cant get enough of this line:

"your truuuue colours, is beauuuuutiful like a rainnnnnnnnnbow"

im doing my assignment now

till then.

OH. now i realize this hair complete the "roundness" of me

up early and went breakfast with granny at the market
day started ever since

i take pictures
because i wanted to show others what my world really is
then i realize
most people take picture so they feel better about themselves
knowing that their appearance sort of calm them down

im still the sloppy me
but i forgot why i took pictures
because no one cares and i lost the sharing part

it appears to be that my world only look good to me
so i grab an apple biting, set aside and watch my life-movie
i see people come in and people go out

i stood aside of my life acting like a bellboy at the hotel entrance
--  I walk some people a short path
so short that they dont even have enough time to remember me

feeling isolated isnt good
but all these will get stuck and you will get used to it

somehow these days, i can never say im into photography anymore

has anyone ever told everyone that, the key to a so-called perfect picture
is a perfect life, or a perfect story
which has totally nothing to do with your camera?

HD doesnt include "feelings"
HD only enlarge and un-blur your cried-out face
now everybody knows your damn hurt and damn messed up
but still, no one ever feel your pain

我希望 有一天我可以走在一個地方

用一種無比輕鬆的心情

那應該要是一道筆直的路

往前不停衍生 然後我可以一直走 一直走

我想要好好的發洩 

給我空曠的地方 自由的時間

我想要好好的發洩

 

 

我喜歡開車走在筆直的路

那種一直走的感覺很好

為什麼一定要選擇

為什麼我們都必須停下來

我不想要休息 因為並沒有什麼長遠的路

每一次都只能走一小段

然後就會停下來 假裝喘口氣

我可不可以選擇不徐不疾從容不迫隨遇而安

我沒有大志

我沒有很想要賺大錢

住小一點的房子 駕小一點的車子

可不可以把自由還給我

讓我不需要假裝不知道什麼是熱情

讓我就這麼坦蕩蕩的活

你留著你的富貴驕傲 我留著我自己

我什麼都不是

也什麼都不想是

我只想要冷眼旁觀一切一切

就像每一個看見我跌倒的人一樣

不會伸出手 也不會再推你一把

趕時間一樣理所當然地走開

不負責任又有什麼

這個世界 說白了也就只剩選擇

為什麼一定要把環境因素一併考慮

常常

我覺得自己負責任得有一點多餘

也許 可以再忽略一點點

long ago

reminisce 

right blogging
i watched fringe just now
and my inner self cried horribly when Peter sang "row row row your boat"
most of the time, its not the voice that touches, its the story in you
thats what they say, listening to others songs, but crying in our own tears

and i watched a lil sneak peak of Glee this afternoon
finally i got to the episodes they are doing "imagine"
man i LOVE that song

"imagine, all the people~~~"



watching Glee often reminds me of my ridiculous days in high school
the way i ignore books like nobody's business
man i got that swagga back then

but this peaceful night
im in my hostel, sitting down all day long trying to compile my whole assignment
lets say things change

yea things have changed into a way i never thought it would be
sometimes i confuse between "everyone has their own destiny" and
"things will work out no matter how"

so did things just work out on whatever choice i made or
i am actually following some destiny unconsciously
where one day i will find out i had been walking on a road that
any tiny mistake will have me all crash into pieces?



I tried imagining myself 5 years from now
who knows

when i was 17 years old, five years before
i never thought i can end up one day a hardworking person
a person who understand the meaning of working hard for a goal
and maybe 5 years ago i was a boy
also, back then i would never believe my mum actually pay for my slimming course

who knows

things just set off and gone wild

have you heard "Superstar" by carpenters?

this picture reminds me of the song

so calm and silent and all
sometimes i really ask for a peace in mind
you know
like when you have so much to digest in that tiny little creased watery thing we called brain
its like you cant even breath normal
something will be somewhere pressing you hard like a referee
counting down on a wrestling match
and you're all red on your neck and face
but you just refuse to take losing as the conclusion

so? i overturn myself when dealing with it?

whatever

so these days i've acting like some ancient old century people on facebook
guess my friends are all getting frustrated and beh tahan
sorry fren, im just so in mood
AND I JUST HAPPEN TO BE THE SWAGGER AROUND

im half way through an assignment right now at the point
and i safeassigned it
the first time ever
and i feel like....the system just..took away my assignments on my face
JUST LIKE THAT

nawh
my friend then says we should wait a while more she thinks



BUT I AM SCARED!!! what if the percentage turn out....ERM
right touch wood, EVEN EAT WOOD
everything will be just as fine!

whatever
i wanna go watch drama now
i guess i'll take fringe
though Olivia is a lil too hard for me, but I love Walter
he's a dad and he is mentally ill....

SO BRING IT

im watching Glee and yes i've been getting that "ewww" look
duh who cares
could be that its something lame or what
but i like this whole "Glee"
Ever since it got on tv i expected it to be good
because their commercials were them doing "Imagine" by John Lennon
and I've got their songs on my "frequently played" list

man i just like how they draw the story line to be in relation with the song in a way
i still find all those episodes worth watching
maybe its something i can relate to thinking bout my "school life"
or some "passions" in some.....not that popular stuffs

and so this recent im into this song-- "Defying Gravity"
even the name i think its cool
defying gravity, if i were to rename my blog, i will name it this
but Quietly Fantastic is too fine now, too fine that i think it just resemble my life so well

today i woke up to my self-prepared-yet-so-damn-awesome-omelet-with-tuna breakfast
like 10 minutes after i finish it or what, gosh my body shows that "I-AM-SENSITIVE-TO-STUFFS" attitude
itchiness grow around my right elbow and i scratched it then urm, yea, usual sensitive skin incident happened
though it got better a while after that, it all came back again in noon

only, even worst

then my mum tried figuring what the hell is happening
which she said i should be allergy to something i myself dont even know
(can i be allergy to house chores?)
for 21 years i've lived and i dont know im allergy to something

for ladygaga's sake, i swear all i had were normal breakfast i would have had any other days
and it just raise that "insecure" in me when the allergy to something i dont even know idea pops up
something is getting funny in me to think, im allergy to something now
i used to think allergy is some girl-ish sickness where, we rockers dont have
lol so guess thats not so much of rocker to do with allergy afterall huh

sorry allergy-friends,im one of you now and i feel stupid to say whatever i had
i just, wasnt....understanding enough?

gosh im repeating the 3467286th time on "defying gravity"


"its time to try defying~~ gravity~~~"

so much of my allergy story
oh and a snake got into my house the other day
im terrified

have you ever wonder that how much you understand your own body
like, every tiny slip of it?
i thought i did.....really. until i got frustrated scratching my own feet

maybe the things i knew....could have been a whole different story for somebody else
its totally appropriate to say i can never get enough of this life huh

i just cant get enough