Bye Malaysia, Hi Bali.

betul betul last post liao.

urm, i went round checking for any missed-outs just now.

and I twitted tat if anything missed-outs please show yourself.

but nothing shows up.

(twitter literally means to public, public means anyone, so i'd ASSUME those missed-outs already read my twits)

okla, I know there's no such thing as perfect la.

SURE I've left behind something.

but never mind la.

no perfect trip, only ENJOYABLE ones.

so, URM, bye peeps!

I remember some of my friends are having their exams NOW,

too bad, cannot share my JOY.

haha!

ALL THE BEST IN LIFE people!!!

Love relaxing.

Love vacation.

Love Life.

=)

to malaysia:

see you soon!

very soon!

I, LeeKahInn,

Hereby, SWEARS WITH MY QUIETLY FANTASTIC LIFE

that I won't let anything RUIN my mood of ROCK n ROLL!

*teehee*

very very the LIKE these 2 picture.

no people is saying goodbye to me... HOW SAD!

but I guess its because i fed them up with me constantly reminding about how SYIOK I am towards this..

HAHAHAHAHAHA

aiya, tats what I've been having all the time.

CONSTANTLY FED PEOPLE UP

CONSTANTLY BEING IGNORED

I guess the call this "own grave digger"...LOL

PURE CRAPS.

OH, a lin wished me bon voyage.

she said this:

lin says:

bu yao rang ren he shi po huai ni rock n roll de xin qing!

SEE? that's why i say, if we can eat friends,

we literally need no money!

HAHAHAHAAA

I'm having a snake, a rapper, a pirate, and a ROCK sign in my pencil bag.
LOL....

this is lame la. but this is what I say to be some lil fun we can have with life.
oh god. this post here could be the last post of me before going to Bali.
aiyo, cannot officially say goodbye make me feel awful laaaaa~

ha, no, i was simply joking.
I have no time to feel awful, I've been wasting all my life tasting all those awesome-ness.
XD

actually hor, I've got no SPECIFIC thing to blog about currently.
because I'm returning maxis broadband tomorrow.
so I'm actually trying to use it.
It is really hard for me to SUCCESSFULLY connect.
so hor, since I can sign in to blog, DON'T WASTE.
have to at least write a word or two!

monica talked about the meeting we gonna have in week 4.
yea, now smashing our head to get a CREATIVE yet DO-able title for the meeting.

and urm, from the practical on monday,
I'm now 200% thankful to Mr.Puvan.
thanks to him.
I need not waste much time on vocabulary during studies.
and all those english grammer linking stuffs for daily works.
those were killing!
but thanks to those, I can speak and write at least fluently.

sometimes, we meet this kind of awesome people
who will change ur future totally.
and we will be so thankful that we wonder what kindness have we been deserving them
probably we don't really deserve, its actually a gift.

Life is full of surprises
I used to be one who can't even or BARELY knows about the word "wallet"
but now, i know even purse, pouch.......

thanks sir.
although I did say bad about you when I was doing daily works.
but urm,  now i know why
so thanks.to teacher and to sir.
=)

*oh, i'm such a grateful person!

Love Learning.

Love Hardworks.

Love Life!

Everybody's heart harbors an undelivered love letter.

天黑了，老奶奶拿着豆子起身。瞧见身边不知道什么时候多出来的盒子。

打开盒子，首先看见一张照片，发黄的照片。

照片里面是一个女孩，在风平浪静的海边，站着，笑着。

依稀记得，这是个很熟悉的女孩。

老奶奶拿起相片底下的第一封信。

台湾恒春郡海角七番地

小岛友子样

老奶奶看着屋子前长长的小径，轻叹。

然后打开第一封信。

老花眼的毛病越来越严重了

这些信件不知道要多久才看得完

把豆子都搁在一旁

奶奶看着信静静的品尝那一份甘醇的思念

 “友子”

有多久，没有在想起这个名字了呢？

有些画面仿若昨日，但年代久远，整体上只剩下分不清的愤怒和遗憾

岁月带走了风干的眼泪

但风又吹回来了

夜的一阵凉风，老奶奶回到过去，看着曾经的自己

微笑，点头

就象星星，需要几十亿光年的传播

这一份回应不过迟了60年

很好，原来自己一直都不是独自的旋转

观众群里，一直都有这么一个人陪着自己

很好。也很谢谢。

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又看了海角七号。

电影很神奇，里边总是充满永不退色的情感

等着被我们一次又一次地去发掘

所以，我喜欢看电影

一个人，穷其一生，

也许并无法靠自己得到诺大世界中一亿分之一的情感

所以也只能指望电影了

看别人的故事，

领悟他们的心情，

学着体谅他们。

Living for myself.

sitting in front of the laptop, 

broadband wouldn't connect,

blog in notepad.

Theresa told us bout the marking scheme of hers.
A very important way to gain marks is to provide our own opinions.
and finally, I'm liking the new system of study.
I wasnt a "into-study" type of student.
Never from the whole beginning.

I hate studies too, but I couldn't bear with my "face-y" problem.
who doesn't like good results? got face ma!
but work hard lo..! hmmmm

Way back at diploma and even before, we were asked to memorize and vomit and memorize and vomit////
so that's pretty much the study style for me previously.
WHICH i SIGNIFICANTLY failed horribly.. X.X

that was the time I back out, from science.
till now, I won't say that's a WISE choice, but urm,
yea, its a not-bad choice.
SEE? I'm no more tied by those weird mathematicals equation and so on.

Last time, people told me to choose my course according to my INTEREST.
what is interest? oh, its the thing you like lo.
GOOD ANSWER!
but, what do I like? I'm only 17.
I only lived 17 years, NOT EVEN HALF OF MY LIFE YET!
and I'm supposed to be very sure about what I wanna do with the rest of my life?
*assuming no sudden surprise that I'm discovered and become a celebrity.

I used to swear that I will NEVER EVER do accounting in future when I was 15.
but soon, when I was 17, I decided to forget the swearing and, study accounting.
SInce like forever, TARC was a HORRIBLY CHEAP school to me.
but when I was 17, I LITERALLY tell my mum that, "ma,I wanna go tarc for accounting"

17 seems to be a very BIG YEAR, to me, to everyone too.
what I used to hate so much,  I picked BOTH up to hold.
the course, the collage.

and now, I'm not saying I'm PROUD or worst, REGRET.
I'm still very ok with it. for I'm having quite a smooth experience all over. TILL NOW I MEAN.

BUT! the main thing for this post, is not bout my wise-or-not choice,
its about the surprise my life has been showing me.
I thought TARC is full of LALA, (yes, pretty much too, but not full, maybe, PILE UP?)
but I still find friends, not to say a lot, but, OI, got already very good liao!

and if I must say, my friends here are really something along my studies.
I dunno why, but to certain extent, they MOTIVATED me to study.
maybe because I can get a solution by asking now, and I feel less frustrated.
maybe because I learned from giddens that hardwork will pay and there's no shame to let ppl know how hard you've worked for and you DO DESERVE whatever you're having.
maybe because I finally admit that (secretly la) all the failures I used to have previously, are all due to the word "LAZY"

ohya, i mention the surprise shown to me by my life right?

YEA, I used to be a student who struggle between fail or fail terribly.
which by now i no longer do.
I pass, and sometimes got A.

I once thought I was gonna fail all the way thru my tertiary.
but see again, my life has gone out of track by choosing accounting.
and once again, it went out of track when people actually approach me and ASK ME QUESTION THAT THEY DON'T KNOW.
It feels good that, hey, I'm helping out, for I used to be the BEING HELP one.

really surprising.
Last time, I told myself, LEEKAHINN ar, you must pass you know, cannot repeat! TOO COSTLY d!
so I wasted quite some time worrying bout pass.
but now, I'm graduating with merit with 0.01 point less in order to graduate with distinction.
because of this, I'm not attending convo.
funny isn't it?
one who used to be worried bout not having chance to attend convo now DUN WAN to attend because of a lame reason.

oh, and I used to be boyish since like ever. but now, I'm having BB cream, loose powder, eye liner, MASCARA, etc in my drawer.
I of course dun use them when I'm in college, but, yea, i wear them when i'm with my friends.
and I even have skirt in my wardrobe.

If I were to know in form 5 that this(become a girl thing) will happen to me now,
i guess i, WITH HIGH PERCENTAGE, would have commited a suicide.

Surprises!
are everywhere.

this i agree. VERY agree.
to like what we used to hate
to hate what we used to like
sound a lil bit of contradict but actually no,
it is really happening, in everyone of us.

I watched YES MAN the other day.
there was this sentence:
"from now onwards,whenever the next opportunity presents itself, say YES to it"

saying yes to opportunities.
a good idea of course.
of course to have it like the guy in movie is OVER, but this is another good idea for life,
for a QUIETLY FANTASTIC Life.

oh, another surprise,
I've been stucked with this "Quietly Fantastic" blog name.
It was originated from Kim Edgar's song, named Quietly Fantastic.
which she entitled to her fren. and of course, I liked the song.
The lyrics is available in the first post of mine in this blog.
*Kim Edgar is fren to mayday's stone, that's why I know her.

and also, I've recently FALL FOR OLDIES.
the older the better.
and I do think Carpenter's "Those Good Old Dreams" is simply brilliant.
I can purely listen to it for an afternoon.
and it made me smile.
maybe its the melody,maybe its the lyrics, maybe its the song as a whole,
OR MAYBE, its because my own good old dreams.
I just smile, and let my thoughts drag me back to whichever moments way back.

I guess I've wrote enough now.
time for exercising.
remember? I said I wanna live a healthy lifestyle, and on top of all my "unhealthy habits"
my WEIGHT rank TOP.

of course la, cutting on my weight WILL NEVER EVER mean I stop eating good food.
I mean I will eat less normally, but when it comes to friends meet ups, important events,
OR WHEN AWESOME FOODS PRESENT THEMSELVES,
I will still eat la! *remember? Yes Man."from now onwards,whenever the next opportunity presents itself, say YES to it"

for this kind of chances are quite rare, so i think it would be fine.
I THINK la! I think.

Love surprises.

Love hardworks.

Love health-awaring.

Love living up for myself.

and after all and all, I LOVE LIFE, MY LIFE.

no picture still !!!! LALALA

I'm not having any specific mood right now.

no mad, no excited. like, NORMAL.

am having a class 45 minutes later. and yesterday as I scroll down my blog, i found that i have not been attaching any pictures lately.

Partly because I'm lazy, Mostly because I'm really lazy. LOL

I re-read the Cape no.7 novel and I cried for it.

The last time I read it, I wasn't that into it,

but this time, I dunno why, I literally laugh and cried reading it.

I guess I don't really understand the story previously.

and now, not to say wholly, I guess I understand quite some of the story.

I love movies. and of course I'd love movies in words as well.

I finished the novel on sunday. The whole yesterday I'm having the images of the story flying around me.

When I was walking to college, I was thinking the funny 茂伯....XD

When I was having lunch, I was thinking bout the feast they had.

a lot la.already half and hour gone d.

too few time for me to list out...

I'm thinking of re-read it again. but I hate it when it end.

Its not like I hate the ending, but I wanna know more.

My biggest wish now, if you were to ask, I will say,

to find an everlasting storybook that keeps on updating for as long as possible.

BUT, the story itself but still be fascinating.

=)

Love Birds.

Love Stories.

Love Movies.

Love Life!!

~人纷飞，爱相随，哪怕用一生去追

Give me a BREAKKKKKKKKK!!!

I'm quite tired now. It has been quite a tired day.
I dunno why.

I suddenly feel like, "hmm, how good if I can have a break now"
a break.like a real one.
not the fake-5-minutes-but-ask-us-to-try-question-along-the-break kind.

lectures, tutorials, assignments, tests, presentations.
Things are stacking up.
I dunno if I;m ready, and I also dunno how to get ready.
pray lo, i guess, like i always do.
but I'm putting in effort.
I'm trying to build a hardworking personalities.

advance diploma is much harder, but I still don't wanna fail.
so the options i chose, is to study 10times harder!
and wish that lady fortune favors hardwork.

Kiss ENJOYMENT Goodbye.
Its time to fight.

O LA O LA O LA O LA O LA O LA 
O LA O LA O LA O LA O LA O LA 

Have a break, and let the imaginations run, to create a whole new world.
like this: I.M.A.G.I.N.A.T.I.O.N.

wo zhen de bu xiang cheng ren

trying the broadband connection in hostel. ok. quite ok.
so I've had the wrong idea from the whole beginning.
I thought for internet connection, (regardless broadband, streamyx watsoever)
the speed always rank top for considerations.

so I only care about this speed and care nothing bout other.
APPARENTLY, for broadband, we have to consider another BIG MATTER IN THE HOUSE!
the limitations.

I dunno if its my mental affection or what la,
I just think 1.5GB is very very the NOT ENOUGH la...

well, leave it, to what it belongs.

I feel like making a confession, but hor, i dunno what confession I can do.
like I'm lazy for tomorrow's classes? nervous? tired?
lame....

or should i write something about the terrible experience I had in hospital today?
urm, sian, so long......

so end up, I only written some holy craps.
and good night everyone.
I'm learning to limit myself on net-surfing.
for advance diploma need more than pure lucks I used to have in Diploma.

stand up and fight.

Its now, OR NEVER.

I guess my prayers are heard. Thank God, aunty-mama is going home today.

they say when you start smiling and think positive, lady fortune will smile back to you.

=) dunno, but I believe it to be true!

my data has reached 70++ today.

ONLY the 2nd day worrrr....dunno la.

see first lo.

connection here really not bad.

I reached even 7.2mbps...

HOLY CRAPS!

the nurse forgot to give my aunty-mama her medicine this morning

and until we asked, only they realize!

walau! life-saving job leh...wan like that meh!!!!

sumore that machine measure blood pressure de almost burst d just now.

in short short 10 minutes, I see why people'd rather die at home.

==|||

sian MAX!!!!!

OH! and i helped the patient beside me to bancuh milk.

I'm so glad that I helped out!

and just now, I helped her to translate for the nurse...

hehe

I love helping out.

I wish I can help out some day in those in need place....

but my bigger wish is there will be no help-in-need place

middle of nowhere?

I'm in Alor Setar Hospital Sultanah Bahiyah,

looking after my aunty-mama.

She is sick, blood pressure problem.

sometimes high, sometimes low.

I think she wanna get herself out of here tomorrow.

but Sanjie told me to make sure the doctor say okay. OR ELSE SHE WILL HAVE TO STAY!

and I'm actually trying the broadband I've bought.

satisfying la. I guess.

I'm actually thinking of changing to a new plan la.

but I don't know. I'll try it for at least a month before making any decision!

I'm doing assignment in the hospital. LOL

searching for franchise relating details.

again, this semester I'll be doing a very sian assignment.

sian until i dun even wanna talk about it.

oh damn! I still got yong tau hu haven eat...

yerr! if i've sign up for another plan, i could have spent my night watching pps.

Its a bit hot inside here, but, urm, I dun really expect much.

I'm here to take care of another, not TO BE take care of.

=)

I'm not logging into msn.

for i think that will affect my data volume a lot.

will only try it until the end of the month.

so, if you urgently wanna see me, then facebook.

and if you just feel pissed with me spamming your wall ( =P), and feel like revenging, thn MSN la!haha~

if nothing, dun find me.

if really got something, LAGI dun find me!

and people, I'm seriously counting down on my days to BALIIIIIIIIII

awhhhh~ one of my dream tour place!

ALTHOUGH I'm going with all elders..(hmmm) I'm still pretty excited.

its bali lehhhhhhhhh!

not bali beng you know! BALI !!

the cantik cantik bali!!

waseh! can you believe that??!!!!!

************************************

actually, I'm not sure bout the seriousness about my aunty-mama.

just that, she used to rank top on my wonderwoman list.

so, seeing her lying there, tiredly, i just can't really GET USED TO IT.

anyway, pray for her. she is already my mum if not to mention things like DNA.

I'm blessed. really, for I've been awarded 2 mums.

Love mums.

Love Life.

Love every lovable.

mad. so what.

"everyone is changing, but I don't feel the same."

this is a sentence I've seen from i-forgot-where.

I think I like words. and I think I like colours. and I also think I like images.

I like a lot of things.

I reviewed my passion or will "DESIRE" make a better description?

whatever. I REVISED my WANTS towards LOMO.

Lomo. Lomo. Lomo.

I've got so obsessed with it, but no one to share with.

and now, I dunno.

Do i still love it like I did or I just want it because I've used to wanting it.

It would be AwesomePerfectWonderful if I can get myself a lomo now.

but I can't. I can't use my parents hard earned money on my"self-interest"...

I hate it when I like something so badly but some others just swing it in front of me but know FUCKING NOTHING bout it.

Purely showing off.

yea, I'm jealous. cannot meh? cannot ar? WHO CARES!

Its okay to admit I'm jealous. But I'm not that dumb until trying to do anything bad on you.

*you're lucky that I'm mature enough to be sane, and STAYED that way*

Stop showing off in front of me.

I've got economically weak background.

BUT I'm not feeling ashamed.

Money is important, like FUCKING IMPORTANT! AND I KNOW THAT.

but I still have so much more.

I have few friends.

But this few of them, knows me better than myself.

I have no sisters.

But I've got my friends for being siblings that the God forgot to give me.

I have no money.

But I have a life.

I need not go round and show off to feel good.

I need no branded stuffs on me to keep my friends stay.

I need nothing else to feel good because I have my passions BURNING.

Life has been very kind to me.

maybe Life has been better to you, but never mind.

I don't give a fucking damn. and I suppose you shouldn't care.

Just leave me alone. I'm cool with my life.

why is balancing important?

must the bitches equal the angels?

sounds REALLY horrible this way!

URGH

I'm a bit negative right now.
maybe I'm sleepy. Maybe.
after so long, I must say,
there's no smiling forever.
we need to emo once in a while. to balance up i guess.

人生，没有全拿的，至少在你还没有资格以前。

damn it. I wanna wake up the next morning in a i-dunno place.
with sun surrounding and breakfast ready.
and maybe a no-plan for whole day.
then I can bring my camera, jelly lens, and build my own experience.

I love how I'm surprised by those effects.
I wanna go somewhere else.
but this time, I dunno what I'm running away from.
I wanna run across the field on my bare foot, without looking back and forget my way home.

I wanna try having a clear mind. a mind without negatives..perhaps?

everyone need an escape everytime
I'm just being emo i guess.
You know la, when assignment come into list, and tests, and farewell in mind,
EMO will be a very good escape of emotions.

oh, I wanna tell out how loser I've been here.
an announcement.
I'm graduating from my college with merit.
and some people told me my CGPA is really close with the requirement to graduate with distinction.

and I'm a loser. If only I've had a time machine.

but the fact is I don't, so....

I'm not begging for console or sayings like "very good already"

I know how much effort I've put in.

We've a boundary in everyone of us.

and I think I'm not even close to that boundary.

We will have a standard in everything.

even if you pass through what people expected, but if that standard is not achieve,

you just couldn't smile whole-heartedly.

I don't know what kind of feeling I'm having, not sad I guess.

should be between disappointed and regrets?

but what to regret?

I don't know.

but whatever has passed passed.

All I can do is to adjust myself to fit in advance diploma as quick as possible.

and make it to my aims this time.

my mum might be true.

Outer determines everything.

When you have a terrible outlook, people dun care bout how awesome your personality.

going out later...one cup of sugar cane is definitely not enough.

I'm still thirsty. VERY VERY thirsty.

I've been using this double exposure effect, which I used to be so much into.

I'm really SURPRISED to discover this effect.

and also another effect named Threshold.

I love editing photos.

I know, its totally UNCOOL to say things like,

"oh, now i no need lomo cam d lo! I have this software"

but before I'm economically capable to be a lomographer,

yea, this is pretty much a way out for a lomo obsess like me.

Nothing bad, just some warming up maybe.

I once said, each problem actually have more than one solution.

There could be thousands if you put in effort.

Here, I found myself rather true.

See, without lomo, I still ROCK IT OFF!

=)

will blog more later.

after back meeting my chingu and fellow friends!

and i promise i wont forget my shoes again!!!!

I hope that thing will function.

Its not like I'm negative or what,

Like everyone, I only hope for something good to happen on me.

Some did. and I'm hoping for more to come.

Life. What's life actually?

I don't know. I bet anyone would not know too.

So, Forget the risk, Take the Fall!

I'm not lost, I'm at the meatspace instead of the cyberspace

Currently in the internet lab of my collage, which reminds me of the dial-up connection I used to have,
SURPRISNGLY, the speed is so much alike...... :S
goddamnit! yesh, I'm being sarcastic at this point.
I'm not actually surprise, I'm FRUSTRATED!!

grrrrr!

I can't see most of the notifications on my facebook.
I can't see the chatbox of my blog...
I don't even dare to open twitter...zzz

well, SUAK LA! lag ma lag lo....
my head's still on my shoulder, and I'm feeling REAL GOOD about it..!

ok, now i know the trick of my college's computers...
They go one website at a time...
means, i can only open ONE website then do whatever I want before I open the next...(YES,sadly, only one)

okay, so maybe a bit ahout my new semester life. baru 1pm...very sian leh

my new hostel, urm, has a dirty kitchen...
my new housemates, don't really pay attention on me, so IGNORABLE..haha
and, what else? oh! my room.
that room horrrrr, quite ok lo, but we dun have a dustbin in the room YET, and internet access oso belum...
apa lagi......oh, the toilet..
the toilet bowl has problem with smooth flushing.
(yes, i'm feeling disgusting talking bout toilet, but, maybe you'll be interested i guess)
and they dun have a pail for ur in the toilet for us to help the flushing...
MEANING, if i wanna pee or whatsoever, I need to brg a pail and toilet paper...
thn, fill up the pail with water while i'm doing my businesss..
THEN only pour into the toilet bowl along the flushing..
sound pro leh??? what a pro toilet, you wan? take it la..i longed for it to change!
and and and, no more liao lo...
urm, college is ok ok lo...like usual la....
and I'm quite SYIOK that the people i hated WHICH had a possibility to come to my class have all decided to change to another class!!! woohoo, feeling having a GRAND TOAST CEREMONY to celebrate this! LOL

and our lecturer, haizz...haven met all of them yet, I've seen 3 though.
only one (which is going to teach me english) that I think she is chio enough.haha
the other 2, one of them used to teach me when I was in diploma...he sucksss a lot..
UNFORTUNATELY, my friend tell me that subject the suckie lecturer is teaching, is a KILLER SUBJECT.

why? oh, because he is the lecturer..... =S

the lecturer told us the subject he is teaching has a okok passing rate, EXCEPT LAST YEAR.
ok, the thing is, LAST YEAR is the first year my college(penang branch)to offer our course..
so means, he teach....suckieeely lo....
so, wish me luck la har....I'm thinking to go and sembahyang ady..
another one is a very new lecturer i supposed...so, hmm....like that first la..
more comments bout her will only be added whn i EVENTUALLY got familiar with her.
then, my classmates, like usual, i only know joanne, jane, corine, caroline, li mei, li chiau, chin min...
more to come i hope..HOPEFULLY people like those losers i used to know are out of my class..
lecture also ok ok la... but CP is really inconvenient.
hot, plus the lift is freakin slow( slow like if u're at school half an hour earlier, it took half an hour for you to catch the lift.....) and the seating and the projector screen allocation is bad enough.
I sat at the third row counting from the screen also, I can't see the bottom part of the screen....

TARC, insaflah!
and before ending, hehe, I've got my offer letter the other day..
I'VE GOT 50% SCHOLARSHIP THIS TIME....
for those in my school, yea, you should know the reqiurement for scholarship is not high,
but I'm still glad I've been offered. EI, I NEVER HAVE BEFORE OK!!!!!
of course I'm excited. excuted like, VERY EXCITED!!!

okayla...i think stop here would be good.
foyer is very NOISY currently, hmm...the TARC culture....==





oh, and to yanying, yiyun, zhilin and joc, ESPECIALLY ZHILIN, read this!!!

i saw that DaoRae boss(which we thought to be) at Queensbay yesterday
He is with a lady, urm, very hot + chio + in + look a bit like FIR de faye!
see, we all lose d.....sian
sumore ppl use LV bag lehhh!!!
BUT HOR! the good news is that, they're not holding hands. (not couples i'm thinking)
AGAIN, another gaddamnit BUT HOR, my friends who were with me said this:

"those couple ady very long time together de hor, no need hold hands de"...

I dunno. but urm, yea, if you think like my fren, thn you lose TWICE...
and, if you don't and wanna think like me, which is to look at the bright side,
YEA, WE STILL STAND A CHANCE!
so, when's the next DaoRae visit???
yanying ar, faster comeback laaaaa~~
anybody ar, faster birthday laaaaaa~~
abo we go there for zhilin's farewell on June????

Looking at the bright side.

so, I'm going to hostel later.
hopefully welcomed.
and, kawan-kawanku, i will miss you all seriously!

I'm not sure whether I will have internet access in the hostel,
so, I dunno what to expect at all.

I wont say I'm emo la..
I've recently made up my mind to be a friendly person..
which means even if i stepped on shit, i will still smile..LOL

yea, i read a friend's blog talking bout "looking at the brighter side"
brighter...

Life's short, this is what I learn recently.
and I wan it bright, not dull, NOT AT ALL....

my friend once say I live good, cause I'm still having passions.
and that's the most lovely praise I've ever got.
and I've thought of why not keep it on..

If my life ends tomorrow, its a beautiful ending,

because I've spent 20 years of it with passions.

and its not ending tomorrow, its even more beautiful this way,

because I get to spend more years to burn all my passions!

Life is bornt great, so I'm learning to keep it the original way.
starting by looking at the brighter side.

Sun shines. Star blinks. Memories glitters. Life Sparkles.

supposedly be blogging. 

actually is dreaming.

tiredly do nothing.

reluctantly all ending.

sadly end everything.

happily learn smiling.

bravely start loving.

for life keep on going.....

has been in mood for micro-blogging.

twitter's 140 is so not-enough-using.

but i'm a heavy typer so stop thinking.

envy people can reblog others blog post so easy

and i have to type every single word so time-consuming

but its okay since i dun have a iphone or bb

i'm having this regular reddie

don't request too much that's the thinking

having all this rhythmic is brain squeezing

gonna end this here before brain cells dying!

LOL

have not blog for a week.

suddenly forget how to talk about myself.

a lot of people's birthday huh, that's what facebook shows me.

suddenly too lazy to emo for the coming up school reopen thing.

I'm thinking not to attend, cause i only graduate with merit,

and thats nothing to be proud of.

So currently, NOT GOING.

who knows, I'm a last minute people.

to see people ENJOYING their lives,

actually, I had a quite not-bad one too.

cant really ask for too much when I don't think I worth it.

Life is always equal. the giving and the receiving.

is that so...sometimes i really wonder, 

what does it mean by living life to the fullest?

like living without thinking and just do whatever i want?

or, try everything to the max even sometimes i'm too tired..?

or....WHAT?

I dunno.

there's no guidance in living life.

I get lost most of the times.

between changes, between people,

between time, between places...

I'm going on for advance diploma now.

to think back 2 years ago, i never know this.

that, i'd stay in penang, and, in vain....

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/ashua/23536447

the last post of me before entering diploma.

I was writing chinese.

I still love chinese.

but my thoughts just flow too quick that I'm too lazy to edit it.

too lazy to fake everything into beautiful words,

trying to be a true self,

yea, a true self may not be that good as what i used to be,

but at least its less burdening, I guess..

I did think I will be writing chinese, like, forever?

but see closer! its english.

I once watch a movie, with such saying:

"他妈的！别问我明天！我待会儿会不会想上厕所我都不知道了还哇哩咧明天！"

i wanna say this, but i'm not trying to say that i dun give a fuck on my future.

or else i wont try so hard on studying.

i just dun wanna burden myself too much YET.

it really makes me tired.

I dunno what to expect.

I just don't know.

Give me some time, I'll have it figured out.

It would have been nice if i can spend this last few days as i like,

but no, I have only a few hours for quietly fantastic.

I've neglected Frame It All Up for too long.

which I decided to continue neglecting it..lol!

too bad. =(

argh!

I regret I said I wanna spend time but dunno how..!

now i'm being...revenged..

zzz!!!!

can't believe i actually on the page for lomos again...

haizz..

how i wish santa claus is my neighbour, 

he wont say "no" i supposed?

i will be nice, i swear.

...............................

hanna hanna...

swear my head la...

zzz..!

fire all set for this new semester,

I have an aim to achieve,

a life to live!

Desperado--END

when I'm bored with life, I hide myself into my laptop. When I'm tired with my laptop, I forgot how to get back into life....

Going to kedah later.    AGAIN! yes, again!
well, bout that thing I've mentioned previously, it ended, pretty smoothly.
not to say I'm disappointed, but I'm prepared for that.
you know, i once read a story, its about a bunch of sales reps.

The newbie sales reps are arranged for something like intensive class,
where a SUCCESSFUL (thats what they say) sales reps gave them a talk.
and they had this conversation:

SUCCESSFUL sales reps: well, before you enter a house to promote your products, where do you stand?
Newbie sales reps: in front of the door.
SUCCESSFUL sales reps: If you successfully entered the house, where do you stand?
 Newbie sales reps: in front of the house owners.
SUCCESSFUL sales reps: If you successfully persuaded your customer to listen every detail of your product, where do you stand?
Newbie sales reps: sitting on the sofa in the living room, probably with a drink on table being offered.
SUCCESSFUL sales reps: If suddenly your customer think all of your sayings are craps, and chase you out of the door, where do you stand?
Newbie sales reps: In front of the door.
SUCCESSFUL sales reps: Now, think again, where were before this whole thing begin?
Newbie sales reps: In front of the door.
SUCCESSFUL sales reps: That's it. Its not that bad after all, because you're back to the same starting point, and is free to start all over again anytime anywhere.


yea, another inspiring piece.
Things aint bad at all, just a bit more down to earth.
I'm cool with it.

* there's a girl whom I never talk to in facebook ask me what happened.
For I've post a lot of status today..
She is my high schoolmates..
I'm touched. REALLY!

Desperado

a lot to think about..
Its like a sudden crash into my normal life.
would it be just a meteor that meant to leave or a shining star that brighten my life?
It would have been so sooooooo good if its the latter one....
but, I'm not sure. I don't really know the possibility..
Its totally unknown.
For one second I thought things would be just fine, but the next I started doubting.

URGH!
why la why! Why money ranks first? WHY??
Who says money is not everything? Money is beyond everything!

I think I can cope. Everyone works as they study.
I do think I can make it. I might need some time to buffer, but I really hope everything turn out as I expected.

Oh gawd, I'm talking is a messy way!
I lost my sense of arrangement! I just type whatever is in my mind, trying to settle it down a bit.
My heart beats like I'm going to die for Heart Attack..
My thoughts run like I'm telling a person about a fascinating story.
My desire grows like I'm dying for a drop of water in the middle of a dessert.

OH LIFE! please, if you show me something so awesome, don't just take it away,
for I've been dreaming for it days and nights since I ever know its name and existence.

I should know, my family is not that easy. A lot of things are to be considered.
and what I'm asking sounds a bit too over for what my parents can afford.
but I still wanna give it a try.

This is not the same as asking for a mere permission to go out and meet friends.
THIS IS MORE. a whole lot more.
but my school is reopening very very soon...I'm a lil concern to be honest.
I feel like I have to make decision fast before wasting anything, (MONEY! for instance)

by June ar...hmmmm!

Since I always believe I will get what I deserve,
so lets just cross the finger that this dream now is on my deserve-to-have list

kinda...not used to it this lately...

felt like I've missed a lot..
but never mind, that means I'm not that cyber-relying YET!

have been babysitting lately..urm, probably not the "baby" part...
kidsitting? well, a 3 and a 6. a boy and a girl. BOTH little enough to solve everything by crying.

sometimes, i see my sister hold her new born baby.
they say there's a bonding between the mother and the baby.

my friend told me, you can be a complete bitch over your whole life, BUT NEVER A MOMENT in front of your kid that you'd be nasty. you will stay mature, because thats the nature in everyone of us, and it has always been in such a way since like, EVER.

*i've been loving light chats with friends, 

because that constantly inspires me. 

There are lots of facts in me, but sometimes, 

when you really come to that particular condition 

and you put that fact in words, it feels real good.

went for Ip Man 2 today, FINALLY.
GOOD what! where got badddd? i even cry when SAMMO ang died..
well, urm, elders are like my....hmm, "vulnerable spot"?....
and to my.....shame..zzz! the girl beside me IMMEDIATELY tell her boyfriend that i cry..
and they were like, "huh? cry for what?" LOOKING AT ME...
zzz! i was like, 

but never mind, i forgive them...that's all i can do right?
to think positively....hmm, well, why not this way:
"i'm so into the movie that i totally get that spirit! that pride! that PERSISTENCE!!!!!"
sounds much moreee better!! hmm, angle problem!

very very soon, here comes the last week of my wonderful course-break..haha
OI! diploma to adv leh! BIG difference k!
seriously, i do feel like i've been ON-HOLIDAY since....the end of january 2010.
not to show off anything, but sem 3 is pretty...relaxing...(cnt believe i just used that word! LOL)

so, i'm A LITTLE concern that i might be not that used to it for this coming up semester..
NEVER MIND, i believe (REALLY STRONGLY) that life will find its own exit!
so, nothing to be scared off. SCREW WORRY! just LIVE ON and ON!!!

i miss my laptop so much...!
and i left that reddie in a-lin's car AGAIN....
FINE! you know what they say?
Best friends always have a closet-full of each other's stuffs!
BEST FRIENDS! thats the word they used, which i'd prefer, BEST EVER FRIEND~~



LIKE THIS~~

ha! got really into Spongebob and Patrick's picture recently! dunno why, just love it even more!

lots of things to write, lots of dreams to catch, lots of friends to hold,

and this, is my life. which i'm learning to love it more and more everyday.

videos I'm watching! COMPLETELY RANDOM!

SpongieBobby!

yea, we have problems in life, all the time.

nasty people are always ready to bring us new problem and issues.

Its tiring, but thats what we chose to be, to solve problem instead of creating.

Life's really hard and tiring and troublesome sometimes.

But when we reach home, look at that bed, we will all realize,

There's nothing to bother, since we will be home after all.

Never know how much things mean to us before you actually lose it.

失去才会懂得珍惜。

I'm not even half of my life, but I'm already feeling tired once in a while.

Nowadays, stressful lifestyle is really something.

I wish myself, a good life in a near future.

 

Love Life, and hopefully being love back by life!

All the best, my friend!!

and Enemies, FUCK YOU.

****

where can I find this AWESOME WONDERFUL PERFECT pair of shoes!

I want it as much as how I need to breath! 

~got really obsessed with SpongieBobby's pictures!

well, this is good.

SpongieBobby! what a nice name!

SPONGIEBOBBY!!!