I'm recently into drawing, sketching this kind of thing.
I realize that no matter how pro you are,
you still have to pay 100% attention while drawing it.

I like myself when I'm into something 100%.
like my blog, it means full concentration.
When I concentrate, I create magic, which is simply awesome.

Life's getting very ONTRACK recently.
things all come at once but due one after each other.
supposedly I have enough time for each and everyone of them
BUT! every students have this one particular BUT!
I have too much fantastic friends that I couldn't afford to not see them even once.
LOL!
okay, if you say less that 5 is too much, than I do have too much of them.

I've given away the shimmer shimmer jelly lens of mine.
to my very chingu lin, so she can take some SPARKLING photos there in her new place.

and, I actually planned to buy new one.
but urm, I decided not to.
because without her, i don't think I have the chance to go out and take shimmer photos...
NAHHHHHHHHHH
Just saying! but undeniably, without her here, I'm gonna have to spend more time with my books.
as you can see, she is my ONE and ALL TIME hang out partners.
I'll miss her like a mad woman.
but yeah, of course, I wish she all the best best BEST!
and, hopefully, good news from her regarding ********!!!
MyLin, be my first friend that still stick with me even you *****! I trust you can!
hehe~~~

and mylin, by the time you end your first sem, I hope I have a lomo camera already! hahaaaaaaaa

just craps~ all around, its just craps!!!
You'll do good over there. very good! me too!
we will be so good that we forgot how to say rude words! how to say FML!
oh ~ life's just awesome! when we can see the dark clouds are shifting,
and the beach are SPARKLING!
so friends, GRAB YOUR PASSIONS!
WE HAVE A WORK TO ROCK ON WITH!!!!

oh great, i'm hungry ONCE again...
i face this hungry problem every time i stay back to online.....zzzz

somehow, i wanna talk about my college.
yea, i feel like buying a pla-model camera.
haha....cut that college intention!
i wanna talk about camerasssss!!!!!!

Pla model camera! why? because its cheap! because not much people have it,
and the price is SO MINEEE!! hahaaaaa
ok! maybe I will not go to Bon odori because of this! owhh...
but i thought a better deal should be like, I bring this camera to bon odori>!
HANNO!!!!
hmmmmm!!!!
urgghhhhhh! mei you qian a mei you qiannnn~~~~

okla! QIAN BA LIAO MA!! hai bu shi zhao chu lai de!!!

huiyo...wo hai shi hen e lehhh~zen me bannnn?
wo jue de zhe pian qi shi shi hen duo hen duo status fang zai yi qi~
LOL!!!

我还是去看医生了
然后拿了药

结果有人留言，说穿了我

我笑了一下，想说，没关系啦！
我昨天不是已经毕业了吗？
之前朋友们一直劝我，说今日不知明日事！
毕业典礼一定要去啊！不然以后会后悔

我本来有很长的东西要打
现在就这些把
OK
作词：张震岳　作曲：张震岳　编曲：张震岳

生命之中　有多少经历　还值得细细回忆
尤其是感情那些刻骨铭心的回忆
好多年　都不曾忘记　我们都在寻找真爱
花钱也不能买　但是你问我什么是爱　它没有正确答案
只能凭感觉　在人海里寻找所谓的爱
有人随便玩玩　有人拼了老命在玩　有人一辈子没有伴
过着东奔西跑的日子　来到不熟悉的城市特别容易孤寂
想着挥之不去的问题　尤其面对自己总是没有头绪
感情和个人的平衡点　常常失去重心
钢索上风一吹就会掉下去　有时却想放弃
摇摇欲坠　其实最自私是自己

我可不想装的很可悲　好让人家来给我安慰
这一段时间我很OK　顶多入夜时候早早睡
当然还是有一些小小的寂寞在身边
寂寞很OK　一个人OK　习惯就OK
寂寞很OK　一个人OK　习惯就OK

走一步一步寻寻觅觅当你遇到一个喜欢的人
却不想在一起　有时只想一夜情而已
放了真感情　却害怕自由会失去
这世界上只有两种人　男人和女人　每天上演同样的剧情
谁又爱上谁　谁又背叛谁　谁又伤了谁
乐此不疲的表演好累　但是没有人能够　脱离　再翻离
谁可以跨越出去　结果因人而异
有的信守终生　有的继续等
有的干脆剃度　永远不再过问
这红尘滚滚心中是否沸腾　是否还有时间值得继续等
曲终人散走在陌生的街上　剩我一个人唱

我可不想装的很可悲好让人家来给我安慰
这一段时间我很OK　顶多入夜时候早早睡
当然还是有一些小小的寂寞在身边
寂寞很OK　一个人OK　习惯就OK
爱情面貌我试图了解　却把自己搞的很狼狈
有一段时间我不OK　把灵魂关在黑暗里面
当然还是有一些小小的痛苦在身边
寂寞很OK　一个人OK　习惯就OK
寂寞很OK　一个人OK　习惯就OK 

即使衰到爆，也是要穷开心

明天没有去毕业典礼
生病了不去看医生

我爸爸快气疯了


有的时候是一种幼稚的不认老心态
一只觉得自己身体很好，万事ok。
可是已经2天了
有的时候，真的是一种固执捆着自己
动弹不得，却就是好奇结局
如果我真的因为如此生病病倒而一发不可收拾
至少有人知道发生了什么事

毕业典礼
我不知道为什么就是没办法停止想象
如果我真得有去
会怎样？

也是固执惹得祸

今天聊到了要一起到新加坡去
旅行真的是一件很酷的事
好像完全被批准的放肆
而我有一点希望，那个时候，我真得能去
然后，最好那个时候可以带上一台自己的lomo。

虽然嘴巴讲看开点
但facebook上满满的人手一机
多少还是让我很不平衡
但也不能说什么，害死猫的是好奇，不是嫉妒

lomo.中文称 “乐魔”。
在我的世界里，它是一种生活态度。
一种对惊喜的期待
一种对世界的爱护
一种，无法轻易切割的，情感

如果我真的走火入魔了，我不会多介意的
因为现实里的色彩斑斓，有时候，被局限在某个阶层
而那种经过阶层与阶层之间反射与折射之后的颜色
已经固定得，让人不想在期待什么
而我，如果真的可以被抛出这个全世界性的阶层金字塔
我愿意就这样去旅行

九把刀说，一个一辈子活在黑暗的人，如果看见了光，也只能选择闭上眼睛。

我把它解读成随波逐流。
我，不想成为这样的人。至少，还不。

有的时候，当你开始静下来
你会发现，不管你以为你多么的快乐
你还是会有负面的情绪，而他们，都需要被抒发
无关什么心情跌入谷底
只是需要说出来
把身体清空，太沉重的话，会超重。

真得很难想象明天的现在我到底在干什么
我印象中，有这么的一句话：
“谈未来，始终太沉重，明天的我会在哪里，我都不知道，未来？去你的！”

曾经，我觉得的每个人，都应该有自己未来的打算
但过后发现，其实活在当下，也行得通
再后来，也就不想再说些什么
只能看着自己的人生
好像是活在当下般蒙混过去

我最近的愿望，是到上海去工作
还很远
所以我讲得很轻松
我坚信，过不久，在我换愿望以前，大家都会忘掉的
人生啊~
人生嘛~
不过如此，如此不过啊！

情义我心知

我的朋友我的朋友

我亲爱的朋友

When I'm RICH, I live like Paris Hilton.

When I'm POOR, I live like one more cent spent, I will DIE right away.

but regardless of which situation I'm in,

I have the same people beside which I pronounced as FRIENDS.

They made me feel rich even I'm soooooooo DEADLY broke.

and, one more thing,

The Billionaire Game is GREAT.

I now learnt that there will be no end and no top in this world.

Things turn upside down when it goes out of balance.

Just live on positively.

and Sun will SHINE on us.

I had my very own friend-customized Convocation today.

If Gradualist should  have their token of appreciation which is the flowers, from their loved ones,

I think I've got mine today.

A normal afternoon that I feel nothing but good.

I've got no pictures to show up here.

because I'm not the photographer.

朋友们，就像我们刚刚一起看的戏那样

“情义我心知” 

最多我当杜文泽咯~好朋友嘛！系唔系先？？

转运！！！！

我好像是第一次喝家里泡的Kopi O
以前印象不好
其实现在喝起来
不错
至少不苦
不要跟我讲什么咖啡一定要喝苦的才够纯正
我听你在放屁！
我为什么要把别人的标准强加进我的生活
三个字：没必要
五个子：没那个必要
八个字：他妈的没那个必要

连着打了几篇的华文
还好汉语拼音还没有走远

本来很无聊，但现在我要去看海绵宝宝了
反正闲着也是闲着
还有，顺带一提：
家里的kopi o 即使喝完了，杯子里残留很浓的咖啡味
感觉挺特别的
我很怀疑我会不会从此迷上



转转转~ 好运旺来一起来！

是上天在考验我的positive thinking
所以我还是不要吵太多的好
然后我发现不论情况多糟糕
看一看lomo camera我就笑得出来
“还有什么能比没钱更糟糕呢？”
每次都发毒誓说非买不可
可没有一次成功
从没有人知道lomo是什么
到现在几乎人手一机
我还是在同样的地方，祈祷同样的东西，
顺便羡慕

人啊~没有坚持hor，就要学会看开
曾经我很不爽那些什么都不懂的人玩lomo
但看了看，其实自己也没有利害到哪里
甚至，连一台lomo都没有
马后炮吗？不是，是不懂装懂
凡事看淡一点，饿了就把蛋煮来吃
人生嘛~ 不过就这样

我的天，我还是没有流汗
热气还是没有散发出来
但平静了不少
因为lomo
不论这个世界怎么变，有一样东西永恒不变
我永远买不起一架lomo
最靠近lomo的一次是在新加坡的书局
看到没有？人家书局就有在卖的东西！
我们这里还一大堆人以为lomo是可以吃的东西

没办法啦！人家国家教育和消费水平比较高
明白什么是高雅的休闲，也高雅得起？

那次在书局，如果我小个世纪岁，我一定！
一定赖在原地，不懂事的狂哭狂喊
可现实毕竟是现实
所以只能庄严的道别
再见了~

可是regardless这些的所有所有
其实对我来说，并没有多大的差别
因为没钱就是最好的镇静剂
没钱，还冲动个屁
老老实实的待着吧朋友！

感冒和发烧洞房了吗？生出这什么怪病！

我居然他妈的生病了
除了飙脏话，我不知道要怎么迎接这个上天的赐予
应该是榴莲吃多了，靠！一点都不多好吗？！
我以为自己发烧，但没有，我是发热
阿不都一样？
就是没办法流汗是怎样
我明天很忙，伟大的上天，麻烦赐予我力量~
我已经关着风扇，在这里上网很久了
但一滴汗也没有
我靠，偶像美女怎么病恹恹过一辈子的？
我永远都不会是偶像美女，这我了解
但生病，是真的他妈的痛苦
看戏都没办法安静的看
生病加上肚子饿就真的不如死了算了
没办法啦~我如果现在讲要吃东西，阿麽就没办法看球评了
啊~
我很少很少生病好吗！
靠！都是宿舍坏掉的热水器惹的祸
啊！我现在分不清楚是要吃东西还是要呕
睡觉又睡不下
热气又散发不出来

*测试结果，李佳恩体内的热气，纯为喝不够水的热气所致，与心情的热气无关

我今天很忙，拜托，奇迹，就此刻降临吧！
HALLELUJAH~~~~ CHANCE!!

我如果真的自体燃烧，我会和大婶交个朋友，顺便问一问连闯14个红灯的感觉
应该挺酷的！
王大明，把你的任务交给我吧！
我会email你详情！

朋友嘛~没在怕的啦！

风又吹起，那破碎一般的流年。一声铃响，回忆的片段淡淡的

岁月还是留下了痕迹
我想起了好久以前爬格子的自己
曾经幻想着完美的作家生活
就是挂在星巴克写着所谓美丽的文章
过后总算了解了
美丽的文章，不需要美丽的书写环境
就像美女的妈妈不一定品质保证
而星巴克的咖啡，是喝不饱的
好的文章，即使在厕所也可以让人凄凄然而泪下
现在摊在沙发上的自己
突然觉得咖啡的味道搞得我头很晕
几乎快忘记自己为什么会觉得咖啡味道是浪漫的象征
人生啊~人生
这几天都在望天，然后想些不着边际的事情
后天就是毕业典礼，我居然没有去
有时候觉得很莫名，为什么就是不想去
可能不知道毕业是什么所以不期待吧
总是觉得，毕业就使大家一起穿着厚重的毕业袍
然后摆出那种千古不变的姿势
这样照出来的相是不是真地会让我望眼欲穿？
我不知道。我只知道我的成绩不是我想要的
然后我很怕，很怕当天只有我和爸爸妈妈
很怕我妈妈问我为什么没有考好一点
我答不出来
更怕出席以后，没有人理我的落寞
也许，我只是还没有准备好？
我翻看了中学毕业的文章
那个时候怎么那么多愁善感
不过就是毕个小业，一点都不值得那种轰轰烈烈的文字
但还是写了
然后才发现自己原来好久都没有写那种文章
现在都写些生活的琐碎
也许长大了，明白多愁善感最终苦的还是自己
生活既然不尽如意，也只能靠自己给自己一些慰藉
最近很努力的往好方面想
因为也只能这样了
反正也奋斗的很累了
就让我休息一下，看命运的下一站在哪里吧？

好像很久没有这样的华文文章出现了
只能说我还是很喜欢华文
但华文总是让我觉得很沉重
一片华文的文章，我可以用三天去修
修着修着，又不想放上来了
所以常常只有英文的文章
我也很怀念那个有些文学气息的自己
但没办法
顶多也不过是多点驻足，回首
祈祷不忘记

谁喜欢淡淡哀愁的自己？
没有人吗？没有人。

星巴克的员工第二次来我这里扫地
突然好想找一份工作
当然，这又是因为电影造成的幻想
他们不是都说咖啡厅的员工都可以有美丽的邂逅吗？
我也憧憬啊！但同时，我却也明白
邂逅是电影用词，现实中，他们管那样的际遇为骚扰

也许我有一点兴奋，因为妈妈终于找到了像样的二手车
但这个话题，我很累了
我不想要再假装我为了那辆车超级兴奋
但除此之外，我不知道要给什么样的反应。
不过就是车嘛。
但我妈妈却把我的表情解读成另外一个意思
算了，没什么的
人生嘛，不论什么问题，多睡几次就都会过去的
回过去的！

也许我不喜欢王心凌
但那部戏的那句话总算是讲对了
“笑一笑，没什么事请过不了”

突然很想唱一首歌：
“时间嘀嗒地走，年华似水的流，年少轻狂的爱能多久，你放开我的手，绽放出迷人的花朵~ 每到夏天我吹着温暖的风，我们的故事，简单却很生动，花瓣掉落在我的手中，握着我曾经地感动”

夏天的风，热天的一阵凉意
人生就是需要这种巨大里的渺小
才会有感动。

“夏天的风吹入我心中，你站在海边望着天空，你说世界是多么辽阔，渺小的我们拥有什么，当时的我们还很懵懂 ”











什么是热闹？是人声鼎沸，还是热情四处？
其实静止，才是寂寞最歇斯底里的呐喊，吧？


什么时候，还可以去旅行？
相机一个人很无聊。

在时计里看破一生渺渺

陈奕迅-陀飞轮
曲:vincent chow 词:黄伟文
编:gary tong 监:alvin leong
专辑:time flies

够我没有后顾野性贪玩
霎眼
过去十八岁没戴表不过有时间
廿七岁时日无多方不敢偷懒
有
我的美酒跑车相机金
宏愿纵未了奋斗总不太晚
然后突然今秋望望身边应该有已
尽表也讲究
直到世间个个也妒忌仍不怎麽富有
用我尚有换我没有其实已用尽所拥有
皮肤竟偷偷松了
为何用到尽了至知
曾付出几多心跳来换取一堆堆的发票
人值得命中减少几秒多买一只表
秒速捉得紧了
而哪样紧要

劳力是无止境
活着多好不需要靠物证
也不以高薪高职高级品搏尊敬
就算搏到伯爵那地位和萧邦的隽永
而皮肤竟偷偷松了
为何用到尽了至
卖了任性日拼夜拼忘掉了为甚麽高兴
曾付出几多心跳来换取一堆堆的发票
人值得命中减少几秒多买一只表
秒速捉得紧
了知哪样紧要
记住那关於光阴的教训
回头走天已暗
你献出了十寸时和分
可有换到十寸金

还剩低几多心跳人面跟水晶表面对照
照做了得到了时间却太少
还剩
连自己亦都分析不了得到多与少
也许真的疯了那个倒影多麽可笑
灵魂若变卖了上链也没心跳
银或金都不紧要谁造机芯一样了
计划
了低几多心跳还在数赶不及了
昂贵是这刻我觉悟了

在时计里看破一生渺渺

那天起来，猛地想起自己原来活了二十个年头

或许某天，我也会猛地想起，我又活了几十个年头

不戴手表，因为觉得自己根本不赶时间

不翻日历，因为觉得自己有的是时间

有人说，“岁月如风，人生如梦”。

突然想起了康康的蓝雨

“茫茫的，搭一班最早的列车，用最温柔的速度离开你身边，

在我没有后悔以前，当你的美梦正甜，我已带着破碎的心情走远”

每个过去的我，都带着一个故事离开

他们都希望新的我可以有更精彩的故事

所以并没有留下很多东西给我

他们相信我会创造新的

我现在还有三个月的时间

我相信一切都会好转的

当这个我离开的时候

我希望他不再是破碎的

Alright, I know I'm SUPPOSED to be doing my assignments...

纸零蛋

my friend is leaving, and I cannot do anything about it. She is not feeling great and neither do I. I wish her all the best, and, I want to give an AWESOME farewell. But she is too busy for all these craps. and I think, she need time for her own.

I don't wanna throw a farewell party where she is forced to smile when she actually feel like crying.

I love her, a lot. The fact that she is leaving in a week's time made me helplessly sad.

All I am doing right now is to tell tired jokes, so that I won't cry in front of her. So that she at least look forward to her future.

Its hard to say goodbye when all my might are used to hold back my tears.

But for her, It just worth it.

worth more, than anything else.

Love Friend.

Love Life.

杀狼黑，青姑

pi a pi a pi ar ti a ti a ti~

is leaving.

=)

Love Life.

I will go on a no-turning-back trip one day.

I will go kenting, I will go Italy, I will go ROM..

then one day,

maybe in the during the first snow,

maybe by the beach,

maybe in a cold winter night with a cup of latte,

I will see that someone, smiling at me.

that reminds me of my original life...

and I will be back.

"Dancing Queen"

ABBA

You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life

See that girl, watch that scene, digging the Dancing Queen

Friday night and the lights are low

Looking out for the place to go

Where they play the right music, getting in the swing

You come in to look for a king

Anybody could be that guy

Night is young and the music's high

With a bit of rock music, everything is fine

You're in the mood for a dance

And when you get the chance...

You are the Dancing Queen, young and sweet, only seventeen

Dancing Queen, feel the beat from the tambourine

You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life

See that girl, watch that scene, digging the Dancing Queen

You're a teaser, you turn 'em on

Leave them burning and then you're gone

Looking out for another, anyone will do

You're in the mood for a dance

And when you get the chance...

You are the Dancing Queen, young and sweet, only seventeen

Dancing Queen, feel the beat from the tambourine

You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life

See that girl, watch that scene, digging the Dancing Queen

[fade] 

our song!

like us, young and sweet, ONCE SEVENTEEN~~

but is still having the time of our life fantastically.

so what if we're already twenty?

WE ARE THE DANCING QUEEN!!!

YOUNG AND SWEET!!!!!

ONE Malaysia.....

I'm doing research for my english assignment...
its an individual presentation...where we talk about business-management-something-like-that topic..
I'm doing on franchising...!

I intended to use "Kumon Education Centre" as my example..
and my lecturer gave me a suggestion...
she said our ex-minister's son-in-law actually has a franchise business..
which is very SUCCESSFUL oversea..
but she couldn't recall the name....!!
thn bo huat liao lo..I ma ask google la...
but till now, I dun even see the name of the company...

and I decided not to waste time..
I'm going to change it a lil...
afterall, its MY assignment right, her job is to grade me..not MAKE me..
so, I think that's it..I'm getting ..PENING....
hmmmm~

*i asked one of my friend if she know a thing bout this company, she said, WHO KNOWS, MAYBE CHAP LAP ADY LEH......

alright...that's it.

my creative friend,
in my creative life,
with my creative lecturer,
adding into my creative assignment....

hmm, life's....so much LOVABLE...!!!!

就算如此，我还是会笑着对你说我很好

就算如此，我还是会笑着对你说我很好 -- a twit from Yunn Tan



wo mei you emo la..
dou ji sui de ren liao hai emo meh...
wo ming bai somok shi bu she de.
wo geng ming bai somok shi 祝福也是一种爱.

Zhe ge shi jie dui wo he wo de peng you dou hen hao.
na tian da jia yi qi chang "fen xiang" de shi hou, gan jue hen hao.
yin wei shao ren, suo yi qing song, suo yi zi ran, suo yi...XIN WU PANG JI

wo mei you hen xiang yao EMO EMO de xie yi pian dong xi
bi jing shi zhi de gao xing de shi =)

Jiu, 尽兴吧！





曾经，太年轻

its a good news....and I'm already missing her.
finally, i'm going to face...."Goodbye"

Ha! YEAH! I wanna talk about that freakin night.
Where my lovely people and I decided to throw our watches away,
and urm, HAVE FUN. GET WILD.
urm, not really wild, just that, be home very late that day, very early the next.

It was so much fun. even i didn't snap much.
even what I did the whole night was torturing my throat.

YES! I went CHEONG K.
I dunno why, but I prefer saying cheong K than sing K.
sounds more...friendly i guess...

alright. fine, that makes no point.

SERIOUSLY!
I do think, we should have a new type of people we called as cheong-K mate.
I mean,we might hang out with A LOT of different type of people.
We chat about different stories with different people, BUT
the thing is that, in the small small room for cheong-K session,
you see a lot of personality.

Imagine, TAKE ME for example.
I love cheong K. and I only wanna cheong those songs I like,
WHICH MOST OF THE TIMES APPEAR TO BE OLDIES N MAYDAY N CROWD LU
but i can accpet of course other range of songs too.
HOWEVER, if my friend were to pick on a Farenheit song and intended to sing it(not for fun),
i will go mute, and lost my mood....

just example la...not to say farenheit is a no.
what I'm trying to say is that,
If you wanna FULLY ENJOY your cheong K session
you better get to know your friends more
or else you might end up having different type of songs in mind
and THUS, when you sing, others dream. when others sing, YOU DREAM!

just some random opinions la.
I've went cheong K once with the people unlike my type of songs.
and I suffered. LOL
what to do, this world is only fantastic when we have all different kind of people in it.
=)  positive leh?! i used to be critic, but now, suak liao la,
because I finally REALIZED that no matter how hard I bang my keyboard,
they wont hurt a second. SO.....should sayang my laptop a bit bit...=)

I'm sleepy now.

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oh, now i see i've typed a random post randomly.
okla, never mind la.
like that first har...
I, wanna continue with my light graffiti~

ZOE: according to my best friend SHARMEEN 'someone once told me, bring out the bitch in you, and you'll survive. so that explains why i am one to you. deal with it.' thats y i admire her attitude so much.. she rocks !

this is zoe's status on facebook.

I purposely copy here.

because the sentence rocks....URM, yea

please read the sentence and remember it.

so long!

My schoolmates wonder why I didn't complain for the days without internet.
and today, when they see me "HARDWORKINGLY" bring my laptop to college,
and also stay back after class to online.....

*I used to be the one who RUSH back to hostel among them.
even though I live the nearest.
LOL

and my answer to their face was: FACEBOOK will rot one ok!

*************************************

so I actually had a bad start today.
even though I woke up early, things get a bit RUSH when its time to come to school.
I guess its because I spend too much time INDULGING in all those oldies i've got in my laptop.
even when I'm in class, I always have "Fly me to the moon"(Frank Sinatra version) in mind.

also, to make me a terrible morning,
the rat(s) dunno is one or many, ate my BREADS...
my GARDENIA bread.
I was happily expecting the breakfast today since last night!!!
(which was bread with bak hu plus cheese)
and the rat! the RATATOUILLE just bite off the bread, and I CANNOT DO ANYTHING...
okla, never mind la.
POSITIVE THINKING maaaaa
so means I saved a rat from dying of hunger.
I EARNED KARMA! one more credit to my way of becoming an ANGEL. well done! zzz

aiyo, whatever la, what's done is done.
even if that rat were to spit out the breads, i also dun dare to touch(not to mention imagine OR EAT)
so let it be la har...
I wont die because of this.
Even if I really die, that's it d, I won't even be caring bout this anymore.

Fair enough. Positive enough.
I'm surprised that positive thinking really affect me a lot,
or should i say, as a whole.

I do think I'm an imaginative person.
that day only i realize, when I was telling my fren how come i so positive.

I read a blogpost, plus I watch YesMan.thn I become very positive.
or maybe this way,
I read a blog post, plus I watched YesMan, thn I DECIDED to be positive.
Look at the brighter side, I do have some "sudden intention" to tattoo this sentence on me.
but I don't dare, and my parents are VERY against it.....

also, I read 9blades books.(yes, I'm still reading! =) )
there's a book named "等一个人咖啡"
I'm trying to be like the main male character in it, 阿拓.
where he make friends to everybody, talk to everyone, dare to ask any questions to anyone.
I think I seriously lack this quality which I personally like a lot.
so I tried to imitate him...

I also tried imitating lady gaga. ( not to ACT/WEAR like her, we here is Malaysia, what would you expect?!)
what I mean is that, I wanna think like her.
to care about what she care, and to live for now.
She is inspiring somehow, i mean, her persistent on her views.
I may not be with all her opinions or actions,
but i look up to her courage to be herself, regardless of any other things.
i mean, wear la whatever you're comfortable with!
Do la whatever you're thinking of!

When people get fed up of criticizing you, that's the time you shall SHINE.

so, this is how I live, IMITATING.
never mind la. See wide a bit, and EVERYTHING will be alright.

*********************************

and one thing I must say.
I've got a ring. LOL
from the uncle of my sch's canteen.
and hehe, I will write more next time.

*********************************

feel free imagining, but I can tell you,
I'm pure and SANE enough to do some WRONG things YET.

I am leaving again.

I am very glad that Monica didn't say much bout our presentation the other day. she was too busy biting her fingers. LOL.

I actually like our performance that day.

of course, YET to be the best, but quite satisfactory.

and most importantly,

We really did have a lot of fun!

its enjoyable.

It shall be good if we can keep this way forever and ever!

and my life recently is Quietly Fantastic.

I smile even when I'm in big trouble.

I do stuggle(if you all are interested) whether to go to my convo.

and I somehow do want to take photos with all my friends, in the convo gown.

but I just don't quite like my result.

Merit.

GTG...will find time to finish this.

till then, BYEBYE

Notes to life

• I read a book where the uncle of my school’s canteen lent me this morning.
  

And the book’s name, “SUCCESSFUL LIFE- MODERN NUMEROLOGY”.

I don’t know what is it about actually. But to briefly say, its something to do with the relations between our birth date and name and our life.

It’s a very chimmmm book. But because uncle already pointed out to me, where my “life” is,

I’m more than glad to read it. Curiosity kills a cat, and for I’m terrified of cats, I don’t mind killing more! Who doesn’t wanna know bout their own future?!!!

So I read it, and haha, it says I’ll be broken-hearted in my old age, and will suffer heart attack and blood pressure. Quite funny. But urm, yea, now I know how I die. How cool!

Actually I’ve skipped my class CURRENTLY.

• 
  
  最近在读迷的书—“寂寞长大了”，恩佐
  “化妆的本质是欺骗，可是最后的意图未必都是要伤人”
  这是出自书里，我觉得很不错的一句话。不仅仅是化妆，很多时候，善意的谎言就是这样。也许本质都是在欺骗，但意图不见得都是伤人的。
  “一度成了热血青年，可是勇敢是来自肤浅，禁不起太大的考验”
  “为了生存，得承认自己，犬儒得很”
  都是不经意记起的里面的几句话。还有下面这句，是开头第一面劈头就是这句：
  
  
  “听说要去一个很多小朋友的地方，开心着有一套新衣与新鞋。一位只是一场园游会，可是离开的时候，一转眼已十年”
  
  
  一转眼已十年，我应该有十六年了吧！
  
  
  =)
  
  
  Concrete jungle where dreams are made of, there’s nothing you can’t do
  The streets will make you be brand new, the lights will inspire you
  -Empire state of mind, Alicia Keys
  
  

原来人都长这样

浮浮沉沉的，以指导我们抓到一根浮木。

再慢慢地漂到安全岛。

上了岸，回头看，依旧是波涛汹涌。

十年以后，却只剩下海浪滔滔。

曾经我们在那里腥风血雨

但毕竟时间从来不曾间断

淡了的过去就是要泛黄

泛黄的照片就是要模糊

模糊的记忆就是要忘掉

忘掉的过往就是一滴不剩。

忘记了自己曾多么努力的求生存

反而嘲笑认真过生活的人

不是可耻，只是时机未到

一辈子都不知道感慨为何物的人，是最幸福的

因为没有感慨，就没有遗憾，没有遗憾，就没有叹气

也许无法真的确定自己是不是正确

但生命的所谓真谛，对我来说太过多余

我不需要获得令人称羡其实也可以很快乐

以前不懂，但知道了没有一错再错的道理

不可以一错再错，因为受不了痛了再痛

人生谈什么鬼意义！吃得饱饱的就是一种ROCK n ROLL 的 STYLE!!!!

不摇滚又怎样？不被喜欢又怎样？

我又不是靠这两个东西吃饭~

眼睛小没关系，看得要够开！

如果我们所谓的精彩人生并不是自己预先设想的那样子，

那不精彩的人生也没什么

不要强把自己塞进别人的标准

勉强没有幸福讲的就是这个！

*****************

最近走起了波涛汹涌的狗屎运！想买想了三年的书买到了！找了一个月的书人家送我了。我喜欢的乐团的乐谱也出现了，虽然我还在存钱，但世界，好像，突然对我还算不赖！“往好的方向想“，果然是，行！

而这两本书，就是陶晶莹的“我爱故我在”和方文山的“方道，文山流”

第三本是五月天的“下课后，怪兽家点名”

看的书不一定要是最新的，但最好是自己想看的。

********************

之前忘了在那里看到这句话，

“我们总是觉得自己不够漂亮不够好，

但我们忘了这么想：如果我真的那么漂亮那么好，

我的朋友还会不会是这几个，

我的爸爸妈妈还会不会是这样，

我的发型，喜欢的人，喜欢的东西，喜欢的偶像会不会和现在一样？”

当然不是让大家都满足现状，但真的，看淡一点很重要。

太执著的人生，会让人忘记活着的初衷

********************

陶晶莹的书后面只有这句话：

“谢谢你拿起这本书，请翻一翻，包你柔肠寸断，涕泻纵横。”

想当然，我很期待。

*真的，这些照片都是我亲手拍的。（当然，字和相框是我另外加的）

用的不是什么吓死人的专业相机，使我爸爸买得digital camera

我很骄傲。*

just now in Jusco, i suddenly thought of this:

If I were to ask everyone in my life, "Define LeeKahInn in one word."

i myself do wonder, what kind of answers might turn out?

I do have some answers i wished.

and, yea, I'm working on it.

=)

OH!

and when I logged in just now,

i saw yanying's words in my chatbox.

I must say, i'm really touched.

i mean, i am who i am right now,

because i constantly being INSPIRED by people around me.

I'm glad my thoughts are positive enough for others to learn something too.

and yea, yanying,

together let us start to

Think Positively,

Fight Bravely,

Accept Generally,

Live Passionately

*为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑买一杯果汁

=)

Bye And Love It- B.A.L.I

Now is very in the mood to blog.

Yea, I’m back from Bali on Monday.

Not to mention how TEDIOUS the journey coming back was, it was indeed a PERFECT TRIP.

Bali has never fall out of my “dream place” list ever since I know this island.

Actually, the furthest I’ve ever been to for my WHOLE LIFE previously were Thailand and Singapore.

YEA! Its TRUE. Zz

For now I’m given the chance to visit it like, FOR FREE! I don’t see why should I ever feel negative about it!

I would say I enjoyed the WHOLE trip, but I’m not that sure about my mum’s purse. LOL!

Lets talk about Bali, shall we?

Bali, from what I know, it’s a beautiful place. That’s all I know.

I mean, from the pictures, those travel tv shows, BALI is always equal to BEUATIFUL.

I’d say the trip is rather short.

OF COURSE LA! Because I’m a slow-travel fans.

I wanna stay in a place and make a lot of friends there.

I went to a lot of places BUT I barely remember the name.

I do remember the stories of each place, but the name…HMMM

I must say that Bali does have a lot of AWESOME LANDSCAPE view.

Every time I went somewhere high up, the view from top is simply AMAZING!

The sky is even blue-er there, I feel, haha!

I keep snap and snap and snap, and I realize, I’ve snapped nothing.

I did not snap that girl who smiled at me even I say no to her terrible-quality t shirt

I did not snap that mother&daughter beggar near hardrock hotel which the daughter seem terribly sick!

I did not snap my tour guide’s passion on his own culture.

I did not snap how hard they have to struggle to keep on surviving, to keep their FAMILY surviving.

I only snap pretty pictures. I’m not even a photographer. I did not show TRUE and FAIR view. I bias.

But I’ve all the moments in my head. The angle of the girl’s smile, the beggar’s sight as she see no future, my tour guide’s proud-smile when he tell us his culture’s stories, the attempt of them to sell things to us tourist and never give up  no matter how harsh  people’s reject might get.

I’m a loser, a 200% loser I guess, or even more.

I’m not even half of their hardwork to survive. I spend my parents money as if granted, while the kids there start selling stuffs at the age of six under HOT SUN without bullshit sunglasses, motherfucker sunscreen. They don’t even care bout how dark their skin can be, and urm, maybe they even ignore sunburn, who knows?

SEE? I’ve been complaining bout “Life’s hard” “Life’s tiring” “Life’s too long”…..

SCREW IT!

Life’s good itself. I must say.

I’m complaining where those people I mentioned are living happily.

Some people would be thankful to you as long as they live merely because you’ve been a lil helpful.

These are the type of people I say is nearest to heaven. Simple enough, PURE enough, fair enough.

I’m implementing Positive Thinking in my life.

I think I don’t have the right to complain, to demand for more.

I don’t deserve what I desired. I realize it now.

Maybe I’m imperfect, but I’m TRUE. At least?

For those few days I spent in Bali, honestly, I need to think like, again and again before I can tell out my name. I totally forget the type of life I used to have, my best friends, my homework….

I FORGOT. Maybe that’s why I enjoyed so much.

Let everything go, set everything free, including myself.

Actually, there’s a lot for me to blog about, to tell about, to story about.

But I dunno where to start.

I keep looking at the photos and, stare into deep thoughts.

I wish I can go there again and stay longer.

So I have time to go up high, and sit there the whole afternoon and read my novel.preferably, Cape no.7.

So I can slowly spend an evening in the town and see how people handle their end of day and start of night.

So I can sit by the beach and see people playing parasailing and imagine me flying in one of my dreams.

So I can walk on the street and try to figure out the best angle to snap a picture.

So I can try panorama everywhere!!!

So I can do light graffiti as long as I like

SERIOUSLY, I initially thought this will be a short post, but urm, quite long hor?

Maybe I should end It here now.

But I must say, Bali opened a new page of life-living in me.

I’m starting to love my life, and the lives around me.

I’m shock of them being such INTO their beliefs and everything.

I should really start observing about my own culture.

I wanna be a simple people like them, so I don’t have to think so much.

But who knows, maybe God has a better plan for me?

My job now is to think positive, fight bravely, accept generally, live passionately!

And I like this kind of thinking very much.

Thank god, for being kind enough to me and tolerate enough with my mistakes,

*urm, try right-click the photo, and click open in new tab or window. 

 its much better in its actual size.

This is called panorama.

ZOOM it!

Previously, I twitted that I'm having one of my dream effects--multiple-exposure.

and now, the list got crowded.

I can do panorama, light graffiti, and of course the multiple-exposure

this is amazing! i feel like my dreams keep on coming true.

I'm TOO OVERLY BLESSED. is this really true????

I dunno. I adore my lil digital cam so much now.

it constantly SURPRISES me!

Love Images.

Love Surprises.

Love Moments.

Love Life

Goodnight

i, urm, actually do have a saved post for now.
but i decided to have a word or two here.
I'm still implying positive thinking.
and, I think its working.

its too heavy for me talk about Life i guess.
but I'm glad I'm smiling my way through.

Bali trip opened up a lot of things to me.
I'm surprise and, urm, yea,
I realize that I'm really into travelling business.

when I was there in Bali, I barely know my name.
I was like an unknown strolling around
without a thought laid on assignments, tests and whatsoever.

I was so busy being amazed by the landscape.
The sky there looks blue.much blue-er thn what i used to have.

probably the sky is the same,
its me who changed.

Bali is LOVE.

Life is LURVE